Finally I'm here, writing about things I been doing since mid April until now, the end of May of 2008. Some of the most important things were posting on my website a couple of video clips I have filmed myself while getting fucked, one of them was with this very fucking hot fuck buddy of mine, sometimes he fucks me while my web cam is so my people can watch it live, cause I'm done with the fucking butt plug, I much rather a cock or an ass, turning it into a sex live show instead of just a live show, mmm! yeah yeah yeah, like the last one for example, ohhhhh!, I had the best blow job ever, never before a guy sucked my verga(cock), like this fucking pig I meet recently, it was wooooooow!, plus his ass was perfect also, I fucked him for like an hour making sure to position the camera in the right spot which is very close so you can see and feel like my cock and his hole were right in front of your nose, just in and out in different speeds, mmm!, remembering now makes me want some more but i got to write this journal (now you see why it takes me so fucking long to write a journal). Last month I had not one but 2 major hot bottoms for myself at the same time and place, si senor!, they invited me over and I was just switching back and forward cause i had a few days of not sex so I just had to perform some serious drilling, pounding and plowing my way into some huge orgasm impregnating one of those stretched out juicy and warm holes, then they took me to the San Vicente Inn (only gay hotel in LA), and wow!, there also i had some more holes that i fucked and fucked, getting off again and again inside some real cock demanding butt holes, oh boy! only then I was set to have the patient it takes to learn the web master's language. and do also some landscaping, or downgrading my computer to Windows XP cause Windows Vista is nastier then watching the queen of England's nude. One day from last week a neighbor visit was to start my sexual engine and give my ass a huge smile with a huge load of cum from a white uncut thick European cock, it was amazing that he ejaculated as soon as his thick uncut cock entered my rectum, so I had to have more action and i went to the hottest 25 years old model I have ever seen, he was black, 6 feet's tall, and hung with a 9 thick inches that enjoyed penetrating my never satisfied holes,specially my lower hole, it was wow!, he fucked my ever hungry butt hole for hours, to the point it looked and felt like a fucking pussy, so warm and all juiced up with tons of precum, his face, body, cock and personality could not have been any better, it was like a fucking perfect dream, mmm!, this other Italian friend and his roomate were watching us perform position after position of pure fucking pleasure, just so fucking sweet!. Another day i was picked up by this cute boy looking Philippine and took me to this big brand new loft in downtown where an orgy was taking place, in there was a Chinese a Japanese and a white older man, and yeah, i fuck them all, wow! they were very sexually experienced, plus 2 more guys came by, a fucking stocky hot looking white surfer dude with a real thick cock that complimented me for my blow job performance, and a Italian hairy jock with some real amazing ass hole, making me edge for some fucking looooooooooooooooooong time, he end up with at least a gallon of my precum inside his rectum, then i was ready to go to a Barmizpha that was over the top at the most luxury hotel in Beverly Hills, great food but more boring then listening the Pope talk or watching some recent Hollywood movies, I haven't watch a movie other then porn since "Citizen Ruth" this past new year's eve because my favorite actress Laura Dern was in it, OH! I watched also "The transformers", but the music was not what I expected, so it sucked for me, i think the non xrated movie industry is done or something, the other day i was trying to watch some porn online and this pop up with a cartoon kept annoying the hell out of me, it was bob the sponge or something like that, and the fucked up thing is that not long ago it used to be the other way around, were porn used to be the annoying pop up, ffucking weird ah?, but everything is possible, like last week having some fake tattoos with chinese letters for I'm obssesed with one day going to China, the only problem is that few months ago i dream I was dying in an airplane, and somehow it became very fucking traumatizing, so I haven't fly in a airplane in a bout a year and I'm not planning to fly at all, I'm just fine moving around in the ground, and now ...........................THE FOLLOWING AND LAST PART OF THIS JOURNAL CONTAIN SOME POLITICALLY VIEWS, U BEEN WARNED, REPEAT!, NOT SEXUAL AT ALL WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ!.....................................There is something that I been wanting to talk about, so finally now I do, it is about what happened to me a year ago right after I created a song called "Rocky" which was in the memory of a co-star of mine, denouncing most of the medical field as criminals, I just had to, even knowing how angry the medical network would become, wanting for sure my complete destruction. and soon after that I found myself with nobody I could trust, it became real hell for me, it would take too long of writing to explain all the fucking horrible situations I went through, they almost succeeded but I had Jesus Christ with me and him and his angels did not let them hurt me more then I could take. One midnight on Saturday when most hotels here in Los Angeles, CA are full somehow the Holiday Inn located on 250 Silver Lake bv. Los Angeles, CA not only had a room for me but also with a special discount, and in the back of my head I kept thinking what was the catch, and sure soon after checking in I found the catch, it was involuntary experimentation, which can be done in endless ways such as substances on your food, drinks, water and air, until then I never knew a hotel room could be so close to a hospital, yes the place where my best friends are, the medicine field ones, well, that was my room that night, the number 508 with a wonderful and extremely close view to a hospital that had some major powerful lights pointing towards the side of where my room was. So i taped shot all the openings of air and water such as the hot tub, sink and air conditioner machine that kept being on and very cold even after being unplugged, I asked for another room but this guy from Nepal with who I checked in told me I could not. After closing all the openings and turning off the lights i tried to close the window but an electrical shock did not let me, and every time I tried to reach that window I was shocked with a strange electrical discharges, no the typical one, a very different really hard to explain, it was so fucking strange and powerful, to the point of my fingertips being burned black, it was like some kind of radiation or something that automatically made me felt so ill that right away I turned on the lights, called someone I knew near by that I could go and get the fuck out of there the soon as I could, taking with me just my computer and the few things could grab in the period of one minute, it was past 2;30 AM and I went down to the front desk and as I was calling a taxi cab while being in some real physical and mentally shock, I heard that guy from Nepal calling someone in the phone and saying that the procedure was interrupted, and when i confronted him about it he grabed the phone and went to the back so I could not keep hearing his conversation, with a smirk on his face that I will never forget for as long as I live, soon after that a taxi arrived taking me to a friend's home where i recovered from the most traumatic moment I had ever experienced, later on I researched about it and came to find out that there is other people out there also that have been and still are victims of these involuntary experiments, also I kept fighting Bank of America and that hotel for the charges of thousands of dollars for damages to that room where the medical network tried to experiment or who knows what with me, but I don't blame Bank of America for no being being such an incumbent for being one of the many incumbents there is out there is not a choice, for just about anyone can be an incumbent, the ones who are professionals like for example most people from India and Nepal who are incumbents for money and/or a best friend or a family member can turn into an incumbent because they are forced to work for these secret agencies that are contracted by money powerful networks such as the medical ones for example, and after learning that i created the song "Jurando pero no". But also after that song i created another one, my latest, called "Jesuscristo" for him is the only one I can count and trust in a world where us humans sometimes act as animals, but also finding ways to get along like at this moment in my life. After years and years of hearing people say I'm wrong in believing and probing that HIV never existed, how can they still don't see that surviving so many attacks is because of Jesus?, how blind are they??, for is not me but Jesus Christ that glory goes to, cause i could have been a Joey Stefano long time ago, but because of Jesus Christ I'm still here to be just one of his servers who is not afraid of the physical dead but of what comes after, the dead of the energy inside this human body is what I'm afraid of, the saddest moment comes inside of me when i think of the dead of my energy or spirit or soul or whatever you wanna call the source of my being and what makes me write this what you are reading now. I feel that sharing is what keeps energy existing, and that is my ultimate goal.