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The Scoop
issue # 197
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Last Christmas was filled with present under the tree from and to my best friend who takes such fucking amazing care of me, and our dogs, then we all drove together to Santa Barbara from LA, for the whole weekend.
here and there i go sometimes to the AA mettings at the gay center in Silverlake, CA. or im resting or meditating, or cooking and eating healthy foods, or working on this new song im creating, or watch tv, or lift a little of weights as part of my recovery.
no, no sex for me yet, just jerking off once in a very fucking while, but i feel i should soon with some fuck buddy of mine, or something, mmm, i feel like when i was 14.
Thanks to all of you guys who expressed their concern for me, and thanks to the Father, the son and the holy spirit, together they are the holy trinity, my higher power.
issue #196
Thursday, November 03, 2011
Hi everybody!, and sorry for taking such a long time to write a journal, so i'll be short in this one so i can tell you what is up with me now days, cause i'm working hard in living in the now so i can enjoy my happiness of today, and sorry hardcore fans of mine but, im far away from being a sexual pig.
The past few months have been the most crucial ones ever, let's say that the combination of crystal meth + no nutrients for a long time = hospital, yes for the first time in my life i landed in there for weeks, I don't know all of what they have done to me, but it was my only choice or die, so i chosed not to dye even that im not afraid of it for i been so close to going with jesus like i wanted so bad in the moments of pain, but the holy spirit was with in me, protecting me from the evil doctors and nurses, but i found out that there is more angels working in there as nurses and doctors then the other way around. I apologize to my fans and i love each one of them, and i'm still recovering, but i had to come here and explain to you all what happened to me, so i'm concentrating in the present and future and its very different from my past. I'm not longer sure if cretain viruses exist or not while before i was so sure about one of them not existing at all, i have some really cool plans and ideas on what and how to live this new life of mine where ilegal drugs and disorganization are not longer part of me, i feel fresh, i feel pain, i feel happy, i feel love, hoping that someone out there can learn from my mistakes, i wish i have never tried crystal meth, only God knows how much, but since i can not go back in time i can only think about now and the future, being greatfull to the holy trinity, angels and people, there is a thin line between getting better or dying, so i m trying to recover with medication, a nurse, resting, watching movies like the ones from Jennifer Aniston style, or transformers, tv shows like Cougar.s Town, also looking forward watching the private screening of Glen Close new movie, she is a drag king in the 1890s, and between perfect acting, some new high level of hair, make up and story it should be the movie that takes all the oscars this year.
I am forever thankful to the blessed, saint, eternal, and perfect holy trynity.
issue # 195
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Im apologizing to everyone of my fans and any one who has been expecting new updates from me and my website due to some debilitating illness, i have now a doctor which is very contradictive with what how i used to think and believe, its like trusting them not 100 percent. It's been a long and very slow recovery process, which i guess it puts me on 3, i did 1 and 2 for sure specially 2 which is the performing one, so I'm going along with a new flow that would let me live happy, i would not be ashamed to say i was wrong or that not everything i believed was right. From here Los Angeles, CA, I THANK YOU all from the bottom of my heart for hanging in there with me in this uncertain time of my life.
Beyond thankful and faithful still i am to the blessed, saint, perfect and eternal holy trinity which is the father, the son and the holy spirit
issue # 194
Saturday, April 23, 2011
 always i have planned most everything that i would do and did up to being 35 years of age, so now its just so fucked up of me for not planning for at least the next 10 years, but i should start doing it very soon, it's no that simple to do it cause i must be very realistic but a dreamer too and meditate a lot. Me, like most people out there thought that i would live not longer then 35, i am very surprised, that is my excuse, i guess Jesus needs me for something that i'm qualified the best for and could be or take a long time from now, or i 'll die tomorrow, or in between, or the mayan calendar is correct and we all die in a few months, so then i created a new song a week and a half ago called 'time', cause i have been so obsessed with time to the point that if i think too much about it, i start loosing coherence and control of my brain, and i tried forgetting about it and have sex instead, and yes i dont think i should keep writing for today, i just had to feel like i'm talking to somebody who would not talk back at me, and feel a little embarrassed for what i'm saying cause it is not actually what you expect to read out of a porn star, so now im starting working in a new bright song that would make me not to ever want to listen the song i just did called 'time', but im gonna do it in a way i never did it before, in a way that very few people has done it. as far as making more porn movies or live web cam shows no way for now still, but ...
and here is when i express in public my endless gratitude to the father creator of the heavens and earth, to Jesus his son who is the king of kings lord of lords, and to the holy spirit who is the comfort and happiness giver being together as one as the holy trinity that is blessed, holy, saint and eternal.
isue # 193
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
 Since my last scoop/journal was so short and unsexual, i decided to make this one a little longer and starting with the sexual part, like the night here in fantastic los angeles california, when i just couldnt fall at sleep, and jerking off was not a fucking option, i just had to stick my fucking dick into some ass and unload inside, so like most people do now days i went online to see what was available , and sure it didnt took too fucking long before i had a texan 25 yo blond stocky cub bear taking me to his new apartment in hollywood where he took off his clothes right away and started to show off his beefy totally smooth and lubed out incredible butt hole while searching for some porn to watch, he kept on saying that i looked so much like jeff palmer , but i told him same thing i tell anyone i first meet... yeah i know everybody tells me the same thing!, no one believes me but some of them at least pretend to believe me, so i took off my clothes i lifted his legs up and i pene trated his slut hole while talking dirty in spanish since he was bilingual, but my balls accumulated so much cum in a not that long period of time that my fucking cock just fucking exploded all the way deep inside his fucking never satisfied rectum like a fucking volcano and sure i felt the meaning of having a release and after 20 or 30 minutes later again i got on with his ever hungry ass hole and gave him some more of my babies, then i called it a night, a fucking awesome night like this other one i had with this fuck buddy of mine tom, he is a very hardcore bottom that loves get into extreme butthole and domination play, taking my fucking cock and cum, toys, my hands, he likes getting very verbally and so fucking twisted, we can go on for hours and hours sometimes, he wanted to meet the blond porn star from the 80s kevin williams and since he is the only porn star that im acquaintance with, i introduce them but i dont know what happened after they meet, they wont tell me, and i guess i dont even have to say that i enjoy fucking kevin way better when its bareback and i almost fucked him again on the very first day of this year 2011, cause he called me that morning to invite me to some wild party fuck, but i already had plans to fuck this bisexual guy or dude or actually fucking pig for he just loved to lay down in bed on his stomach while i played a roll of a masseur but i was terrible at it cause i kept on massaging the same area and not with my hands, i was massaging his prostate with my verga muy caliente, but some how he just didnt think it was a very unprofessional massage, of course we were watching straight porn, eventually i got off so good making him pregnant and i proceeded to kept enjoying the new year with a bigger smile, just like when my new fuck buddy michael blows my cock as it is his specialty, and sure it is cuz he can milk me out like no one can, dam! what a fucking mother fucker good cocksucker, but there is this submissive asian guy that could give Michael a run for his money, when this asian guy gets a hold of my cock it makes me feel like my cock is his pacifier, but his advantage was his ultra soft fucking butt hole and gymnastic positions in what he was able to offer, with his legs up and feet almost behind his neck i fucked him while hugging and kissing which made it really fucking hard to hold me from cuming, so i was just fucking edging and edging and edging like crazy, it was way too fucking intense, but he was way too g out and he started moving too much so i decided to give the relief to my balls with the action of breeding his warm, juicy and tender fucking love hole, all the way deep into that very sweet and inviting cavity of his, then i called this buddy of mine that loves asian and he came over to enjoy some of the cock pleaser pig, not longer needing lube to drill his fucking hole. And that is that for telling some of my sexual endeavors, as far as live web cam shows im taking a little break from it but coming back very soon to it. I just did an interview with the biggest gay international magazine called Winq, also online at winq.com, but who knows when be posted by Ferenz.
Well this should be good enough writing, so maybe now i ll put on my tennis shoes and some little shorts 2 sizes too small and go running, just so i can some sun, oxygen and some honking cars too. mmm!, then i got to keep working on the creation of the lyrics for my favorite music i have ever composed, its staggering, i guess its my way to compensate for not making more movies, cause tons of people ask me when im doing one again, and im not, cause i done it all, but then again who knows, you never know, look, who would have thought that i could still survive that fucking network that wants me down, but for my higher power nothing its impossible and im damn serious when i thanking the mighty, blessed, saint, perfect and eternal trinity of the father, the son and the holy spirit.
issue # 192
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Since my last scoop, i was able to get a new computer and get back with my live web cam shows, for July and August, but not so lucky for this month of September after arriving here in California where i should stay hopefully forever, but not so easy cause also im now facing these people that wants me to jump, just like that video from David Bowie, they say I have no brain, they say I have no fear, they say i have no eyes, got to believe in somebody, I must offer my most sincere apologies to all of my stronger followers for hanging in there with me and understanding why I havent being able to perform my live web cam shows this whole month of September, and it's killing me, but I know I have to keep fighting cause Jesus is with me and im unleashing now from earth an SOS call to heaven for a major Divine intervention so the person i live with now days can understand me or I would have to find another place here in Los Angeles so I can be and live the way i am, its like if i was a monster taken from a bathhouse to be transformed into another of those many politically correct humans and be and think just like they do. Im so sorry that I got no hot sex stories to tell, yet, it sucks, but the truth is that im feeling so lonely after this situation and from before back in Argentina where i saw my family with still that mentality of faggots go to hell, now all i have in life are my fans, and because i have so much respect and love for them is that I feel like i must be totally honest as always so that way if they know then i can be charged with their invisible power they provide to my spirit from all distances from all around the world making me stronger again, feeding my spirit with their energy, and eternally grateful i will be to the holy, blessed, saint, perfect and eternal trinity of the father, the son and the holy spirit.
issue # 191
Friday, June 11, 2010
Now days are not so good days, my computer broke about a month ago and the Only one mac store here in Mendoza argentina takes forever to fix it, and i don´t wanna go windows, SOS please, between this and soccer i´m ready to go live at the International space station
Maybe i´m being punished for calling my last song liberec´ , it means freedom in russian, but hours alter i post i ton my website, there was an huge terrible attack i think it was from some area in russia that wants out, then a couple of days later i posted the lyrics and hours later again in Russia there was another attack, so now i´m not so sure anymore about using any russian word ever again but let´s better talk about some other fucked up things like one day i went to the best movie 3d complex theather in town and i watched iron man 2 and it was just me in the whole brand new 3d movie theather, and it was priceless, and highly entertaining kind of like only funny tv show to watch here in Mendoza, of course is the nanny with fran dresher. Last week was the very last time at the only gay bathhouse in the World with no hot water, well, i was just too fukcing horny, so once i was nacked inside the heat room i started sucking this big thick piece of meat from this man that was pretending to sleep Laying on his back, i just pulled the towel without any words from anyone i went for that cock, at that momento it belonged to me and my mouth and i sucked on it like a baby with his pacifier but then another man entered the heat fuck room and then i wanted that pacifier too so i took it and not long alter my mouth was filled with his yummy sperm, i enjoyed drinking that ultra fresh sperm down to the very last drop, but i´m not using my own computer now so this cannot be a large scoop, and my live web cam shows are totally interrupted so i´m no so happy, sorry, and may the holy saint and blessed perfect and eternal trinity have mercy of me.
issue # 190
Saturday, May 01, 2010
I had a fucking wonderful world wide broadcasted live orgasm on my first day of being 35 years old as i announced previously, but I didn't figured out the 1 hour recent time change made in USA, so I think i was one hour late but it was a fun 40 minutes of stroking and edging, fuck! an orgasmical way to start my the best year so far in life, every 10th year after being 5 years old its always by best year in life, so i'm more excited then i ever been, and Australia or Brazil is what i'm working on now, I must go to one or both of those places this year, unless I die. Few weeks ago I went online and meet a guy from Ohio who lives here in Buenos Aires. One night I went to his apartment and after a refreshing fresh shower, wine and popers I was already deep inside his soft, pink, juicy, warm, tender, inviting, generous, open, starving, hypnotizing, seductive, appetizing, exciting, sweet, good, great, welcoming, fantastic and fuckable butt hole, but I think he have a boyfriend, so no repeat with him, One day I wanted to take a train to Cordoba and back to Buenos Aires, and i did, it was fucking adventurous being in there all alone, i went to their gay local bathhouse as the very first thing, it's called "Estambul" and it was very modern and clean, it seems they are now working in eventually someday to be the first 24 hours open spa in all argentina, about fucking time stupid retards!, then after having a decent orgasm welcoming with this really tall guy with a big thick mother fucker that came a big fucking load, all over my face while I was cumin stroking my cock right at the same time, mmm!, so fucking re leased I was afterwards, damn!, just like this, one night i meet in a sex club a tall so fucking sexy man from israel with a rock on nice cock that shots big loads of cum, i loved hugging him afterwards before taking care of another cock through that glory hole. Living in a place like Argentina with no big personalities like Tina Turner cumin to town any fucking time soon, gives as a result the resurrection of the timeless and ever international Bob Marley and drinking hot chocolate and cookies with friends watching a horror movie and waiting to see one that it's coming up becomes exciting, like "Scream 4" that it's about to be filmed in Michigan Detroit, with Courtney Cox and David Arquette plus tons of special effects, for Halloween, just like The Bounty Hunter with Jennifer Anniston was for valentines, every children, i mean every actor have their turn, sharing! fucking yelled mamma, shut up bitch, i mean mom, I'll go jerk off live on my web cam whenever the fuck i want!, (BTW my mom its dead), and why i'm back in Argentina is what most people ask, and the answer makes me a looney, but God told me to be where I am now, I kept on calling the airline company to postpone my airline ticket around 10 times in a period of 3 months. Don't quite know for sure, but I'm re charging a lot more then re leasing, I'm rested, and ready and alert for another long journey that might last a lot longer then the last one, as a server of God one developpes a sense of anticipation of what might be based on a combination of things like the study of dreams and the amount of desire coming from the server who's always on alert to follow only his master's orders, in my case my master is Jesus Christ who is part of the holy, blessed and saint trinity.
issue # 189
Saturday, March 06, 2010
I traveled from Mendoza to Buenos Aires staying there for most part of February, and one of the things I did while there was hanging out with Michael Darton who is a bright and sexy british producer I meet few years ago in Los Angeles, he is addicted to traveling, and i'm not anymore, but I'm trying to have a relapse with Sao Paulo, Sydney or Cape Town or ..., mmm!. Another of the things I did in Baires I was often inside an underground gay sex club while being in Buenos Aires and one time I saw a cool guy with some fucking nice cock that wanted to get sucked so bad and no more then 5 minutes passed by before swallowing every drop of his massive huge amount of cum cock, another time I went inside the dark laberint and a very tall shaved men kept following me until I grabbed his fucking hard cock and i went down on it like if i was the happiest baby ever enjoying a pacifier way too much cause at some point semen started to erupt from his cock all the way down my throat, yummm!, One day I was in downtown Baires and this hot muscle guy recognized me from my movies and didn't know I could speak spanish too, by the 3rd time we meet we had an orgy with big hard cocks and hard young cocks from late 10's to late 30's, OINK!, damn!, that teenager fucked me so fast and so hard like if my ass was a fucking pussy or something, fuck he really fucking fucked me, he is a fucking fucker, very fucking fucker!!!!!, yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!, more more! On last week of February i came back to Mendoza and finally after missing 4 live webcam shows on February's last day and Sunday I had the great satisfaction of a great one, no disconnections, great angles, in time and I was super fucking horny and all fucked up, wild and freaky, all nude and hard showing off right in the moment as horny men watch from all over the world, was a fucking blast playing with myself for a good 40 minutes until I couldn't and didn't want to take any more edging, and I fucking let my blow go fucking wild releasing my balls real fucking good for once and all, fucking yeah!, mmmm!, Now days I'm enjoying living in Mendoza more then Baires, even still its a fucking little town, but sometimes i cruise gay people on the streets, its such a fucking magical moment even most times they happen to be carrying children and wife, so very fucking very fuck that!. Now something really fucking sweet cumin up it is posting a new song I have created called " Liberec' and exorcise yourself ", i'm way content with all i hear so far, so I can say it's all good except now if I could only kick some time's ass, would do just fine for me, thanks. All the glory and honor goes to the father the son and the holy spirit that form the all mighty, omnipotent, sacred, everlasting, eternal, saint, blessed and holy trinity.
issue # 188
Monday, January 25, 2010
Christmas was with my family, and on New Years Eve I started the year with a major fat cock up my ass after getting fucking drunken with 2 big bottle of beers at a gay nightclub here in Mendoza, after dancing the whole night and making out with few guys here in there, I left the club alone around 6 am in a town car and on the way to my place I was already grabbing the driver's major thick fat hard cock and stroking it all the way until getting into my place and I sucked on it for a good while, and as soon as he sticks his fuck cock inside my drunken hole he ejaculates a major fucking load all over my butt and back, he was a married/straight guy very fucking hot.
One day it was way too fucking hot at siesta's time so i went to the only gay sauna here in Mendoza, Argentina and after sucking on a masseur's 27 years old cock of this very muscular straight/ho fucking hot tattoed fucker that drove me fucking nuts from the very first look, soon after i was seating on his cock using nothing but saliva, damn! was I way too fucking horny or what the fuck?, he fucked me standing up behind me, with my legs up, mmmmmmmm!, after doing that guy I did a tall hairy one but with him was at first his cock going for my lips, mouth and throat and his curved down cock hard as steel cock started mouth fucking me and less then 2 minutes later I was I already drinking a fucking major ammount of sperm, it was so fucking yummy!, like drinking liquid yogurt "semen flavor" my favorite !!!!!!!!!!, OINK!,
One night I meet a hot scorpion on his 40s great body and made planes to meet the following night, we did, but I made him wait cause I wanted to see Maria Tosca in "Tosca" and a live show at the french opera, and it was watching Celine Dion in 1958, the best singing cunt for sure, and one of the not best singing cunts took that fucking 9 inches curved down thick mother fucker cock mainly from behind while laying down on my stomach, mmm! now my favorite position to get fucked, yummmmmmmmm!, but that guy didn't had enough of my ass after unloading 2 fucking gallons of sperm inside of me, cause half an hour later he was fucking me again while I jerked off right at he was cuming again for the second time deep inside my super juicy love hole, then we passed out falling at sleep, we had a little weekend romance the whole time together, but I'm not up to get hooked, sorry suckers! and, oops sorry !, cause i'm supposed to be dying as the reason for me to be in Mendoza, ARG, LOL, I always end up being the last person to find out what is going on with me, all the retards from web sites like wikipedia and the alikes should just get a fucking clue, WRONG!, and I'm not even going for the written clarify thing, I'm way better off at the clarify with the actions way, as very fucking usual. It's all good in here except that It seems that the current president doesn't like the one that's going to be the next one, damn! the bitch is fucking lossing it, but the next one it's gonna be the very first christian president ever, his name is Cobos, from Mendoza, so, that and a real hot weather i'ts what is going one in the country where I live now days, and all the glory and honor goes to the Father the Allmighty, the son Jesus Christ and Holy Spirit for being the saint, holy, blessed, sacred, divine, powerful Trinity that is everlasting, it is forever, it is eternal.
issue # 187
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Even after 2 weeks of arriving into Argentina I had so much melancholy that at times my heart was fucked big time drowning into a deep ocean of tears to later be rescued by that inner force of energy that always have the last word on what's gonna be of me. After being in Buenos Aires for almost a week I came to Mendoza by the end of November unable to even try to explain how is it feels coming back to where I lived my first half part of life, i was a magnet with zero resistance pulled with a flow into the unknown, happy but scared. Now days I'm doing fine here in Mendoza and uncertain of what's next. Several days passed by since the last sentence that ended with the word next, and forgot to mention that few days after arriving into Mendoza the much needed rain arrived too after almost 8 months of no rain, the weather its hot but with out all the humidity from Buenos Aires, and finding out that the president of Argentina Cristina Fernandez seems to me to be so far the best one ever, the money here is rolling and its not being put away for fear, so now I got to admit that a female can be in most cases a better administrator of money then men, but unfortunately USA missed out that chance, for what I can see, fear became the way in USA where money does not circulate on the streets (not wall street ) as much like it used to making their economy go kaput , little old basics of economy secret, but come on, get a fucking clue !, i'm just a freaking fucking porn star so i better get with the program and start telling the fucking juicy stuff, and all about the hot uncut ever poking cocks from the non so brainy males, oh yeah!, actually I just had a couple of them in my mouth few hours ago in the only gay spa in Mendoza, damn! talking about so many different shapes, fucking odd and way yummy ones, so fucking yummy that I even jerked off thinking about it right before writing this second part of this journal, but now i got to go sleep, later on I got a bunch of things to do, but I had to write this ending it as usual with my public gratitude to my higher power, the ever saint, holy, blessed, sacred trinity that is The Father, Jesus Christ and The Holy Spirit, to them all my respect and devotion eternally as they are for ever.
issue # 186
Friday, November 13, 2009
yeah I know, long fucking time since writing a journal, but there is already so many freaks out there writting so much crap about nothing that i did not wanted to ad to the damage, so I'm going for what's important only, like for example what to expect if you wanna move to a small town in the midwest like Midland Texas, well, maybe try;ing it out one week before Halloween was not a good idea, for it was just like a fucking horror movie, huge empty lands, abandoned gas stations and warehouses, and how fucked up is that their main supermarkets are called HEB when you hate the biggest virus fraud ever?, everybody drives trucks so they can fit their massive fat asses into a driving munchine, I mean machine, a sweet romance of fat with fat eats more fat, animals beware!, plus not even one gay store, bar, bath, nada! no gay nothing!, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!, after swallowing my pride through the humiliation process everybody must go at the airports to board those fucking huge heavy metal flying machines and surviving for that?, But looking at the bright side, they filtrate their water with some kind of salt that make you feel you are showering with the softener used for laundry, the people that I stayed with were not that fucked up and mainly gay, and Dallas was not as far away as LA, by the second day i was already at Dallas gay bathhouses, getting back my mental sanity, WOW, nasty fucking pigs!, yummmm!!, at one point I laid down on a leather hammock to relax a bit, and all of the sudden I had a big trucker daddy penetrating my anus, another white male masturbating watching me suck on a large uncut penis from some hispanic male, and right after the trucker unloaded his big cargo of semen inside my surprised anal cavity that big uncut cock also went in there and exploded like a pinata but was not my birthday, WOW and then that other white male also introduced eagerly his manhood inside my abused & sperm dripping butt hole, somehow I didn't mind at all being treated as if I was blow doll + no names + no phone numbers + no stupid questions + NO WORDS = YEAH !!!!!!!, I could go on and on about a dozen of similar situations I experienced on my stayed in Dallas Texas, but i hate writing for long periods of time, sorry I'm not a pot head anymore. I got back to LA over a week ago and I don't think I'll be here for much too long, i'll go wherever my master wants me too, cause him Jesus Christ, The Father and Holy Spirit are saint, blessed, sacred and divine for ever, eternally, they are the Holy Trinity everlasting source of love, life and energy.
issue # 185
Friday, March 13, 2009
LISTEN TO JEFF PALMER'S SCOOP click-----> " AUDIO SCOOP "  If you are one of my readers you may notice that I haven't wite a journal in about 4 months because of the obvious reason, yes, it's not as much fun as fucking, so now I'm adding audio. The good times & causes for not writting more often are many, so I'll mention just few. At the end of January here in Los Angeles, CA I filmed one scene for a new european company on, yummmmmm!, I got tag teamed by this young hot master german and an italian power massive drilling dick that was on automatic containing so so so much sperm that it could feed whole Africa, but my butt hole was hungrier then that continent, mmmmmm! fucking indeed!. One day it was a webcam show time and I was so horny I could have fuck a tree, so i went to this big fan of mine that i was introduced to the day before by a mutual aquantance, mmm!, fuck! he was a big macho bottom fucking pig, a true exibicionist who got very arroused showing off live through my web cam his fucking sweet ass hole being fucked by my fucking desperate cock, I enjoyed every fucking minute of his already abused hole that was filled with cum from who knows how many men, I blind folded him, I tied his hands while he was laying on his belly, he wa wearing just a cowboy hat and ripped apart jeans so i could pound his plenasureable fuck hole through one of those jean's holes, mmm!, red lighting, great porn was playing and my webcam got fucking amazing close ups of what matters the most in entertainment, yeah! cock & ass, my over energetic-hard as it could be cock of mine was just going for it, at all kinds of speeds, sometimes all the way and all the way out, using few different techniques i pounded and pounded, and almost 2 hours after of taking control of that fucking perfect slut with my non stop edging, making my balls constantly release pre cum, or post cum or pro cum, but cum for sure and lots of it enough to get him very fucking pregnant. On another web cam show i was fucking 3 hot men, one of them on a ever comfortable sling, and that was some real swinging, swinging with a real pourpouse, unlike the non fucking sense swinging from golf, my kind of swinging does not miss the hole, and also I was a hole too for the guy who kept saying...I want it, I want it, and his cock looked like lots of fun but i told him... no boy! your fucking cock is too massive for my inocent and tender fucking love hole, but he just kept saying... but i want it, i want it, so then i just fucking took that mother fucker Moby dick and inserted it inside my fucking very fucking nice fucking hole and let him have his fucking way with it, fucking me from behind me, from the front with my legs up and this way and that way, but in that room there was two other holes that wanted some attention, so I just kept going back and forward, satisfying that way my cock with ass and my ass with cock, yummm!, yummm!, yummm!. Oh! I just also remembered some more pounding of my ass by this fucking big stocky tall blond guy giving some joy to my ass with a major thick cock can, that did more then quench my slut hole's thurst, it over flooded my rectum, tsunami after tsunami, in the kitchen, in the bed, in the living room's table, in the bathroom, damn! we were so fucking out of control that i was ready to do it in the Vatican but then that fucking pope would try to join in the fun, such a fucking wore! yeah!, is not fooling me i know that he probably when he is not being fucked or fisted he got a butt plug inserted the whole time, c'mon, i can tell he is a cock pleaser cause he can only not be on if he is the devil himself, mmm! (he might), that fuck was not a webcam show, but a very recent great fuck that i filmed with nightshot light should posted in here my e home very soon. *** The following does not contain much sexual language ***...so now u can rewind, get the fuck out and go fuck with somebody or keep on reading and think that i'm totally fucked up in the head, but is just that the news on tv and everywere is destroying everyone's trust, faith, optimis, positivness, entusiasm, joy, confidence, it may sound confusing but the news are responsible for so much, and unfortunately there is o many easy to manipulate zombies in this world that what to do?, I don't like hating, but I FUCKING HATE THE NEWS!!!, FUCK THE NEWS! SOMEBODY KILL THE FUCKING NEWS IF THEY ARE BAD!, SOS! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!. Thanks to my GOd I can still have a pretty up lifting look at life, well..., more like up erecting, it makes me feel so fucking good to create music like the one I finished on 03-04-09 called "Today", after doing the one called "Jesucristo" I let over a year pass by before creating another and never took me so long before, but it was out so much respect I have for Jesus Christ. I been very consistent with my webcam shows doing them almost every weekend, if Microsoft doesn't give me problems, I tried Mac but they are not good for webcams yet and Linux is an open source, wich means too open to lots of circunstances included bad ones. On Jesus's birthday (Christmas) I got lots of great gifts under the tree and gave lots of great gifts as well, that is the way to give him gifts and to receive gifts from him I logicalize, and on New Years Eve, nothing but just a good long fuck in the morning with one of my fuckbuddies. Still I'm no going to those places where you have to pay money to spent time lifting weights and sweat without any sex called "Gyms", I'm just so glad that I have a small butt, not to be confused with ass hole, cause I saw one of the newest movies from a porn company called "Treasure Island" where a white and a black guy with fucking huge cocks were strugling to fuck the bottom guy not because his butt hole was big, cause they are known for enjoying fucking big ass holes, is just that the bottom guy had very big butt chicks, not his butt hole, but his butt was the problem, and I felt so happyy with my small butt that even if I'm being offered a billion dollars I will not go back to those places called Gym, now tanning in the sun, yes, I'm already starting doing that, but no the tanning beds cause i feel aweful afterwards. Vitamins are in the food I eat, but I remember when i was more retarded then now and took them them in pill's form or any other way then food, but not as much retarded as the people that still do that stupid test for some super fake bull shit virus and they don't even bother to read what it says on those little stickers on those little glass vials where their blood goes, now that is real fucking pathetic, they should watch David Bowie's video "they say,Jump" and watch it over and over until maybe they can get a fucking clue. Oh my Jesus Christ please have mercy of me for the way I am sometimes or the way I say things, you know I will never be perfect and I'm so fucked up in so many ways, so please just look at my heart so you can forgive the bad in me and make me better for you as your server that I long to be, I'm saying these words to you with all my respect and love for you, and in public and raw because you know I am not ashamed of you but I feel lucky for having you inside of my heart and makind my life so fantastic and bright, Thank you for ever jesus Christ, holy and blessed is the Father you and they Holy Spirit eternaly.
issue # 184
Monday, October 20, 2008
 Today morning when i woke up i felt very uneasy and very anxious, like something i had to do, and then i knew it was time to write in my journals, and it's been the longest, God knows how much I hate myself when i let so much time go by before writing one. Today I'm writing about some of the most fun things that happened in my life since then, and yes!, I'm talking about a black guy, mmm!, yummm!, but this one had the thickest dick ever, I just couldn't fit it inside my mouth, so fucking frustrating!, it made my so mad that i took that mother fucker very hard piece of meat and I stick it inside my ass like a boa eating the prey, oh yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!, then it was all good, I was taking it like a man!, but not even half an hour into the real fun he ejaculated inside my ultra happy colon, flooding it with some major amount of sperm,leaving my smiling ass wanting for more, and sure another another cock that was almost as big as that black one did the trick, it was a fuckbuddy of mine I called "the trucker", who I filmed with one of our fucks for the enjoyment of anyone's eyes who goes into my E-house, and wow! then finally I had some release. I had lots of other great fucks, but I don't feel like telling them, sorry you all, but I do wanna mention that I'm half way down finishing a brand new song. Also i must mention that because of the current financial situation here in USA, last week I almost lost my faith, but only few hours passed by before getting it back, and that is the worst thing that can ever happen to me, cause my faith is for me only the optimistic thoughts inside my brain. Also I noticed how now days I see more and more of an army of look a like me, but extremely beautiful and young kids from all over the world ( specially west europeans ) doing gay bareback porn, making me feel really happy but not in the way that I feel like I'm special or anything like that, cause sure they are younger and prettier then me, but because I feel like all my hard work through the years is paying off, like I'm a useful tool directed by the all mighty in order to serve some justice for all those souls who were taking out of this world by the ones controlled by the devil and his army, and yeah it sounds very retarded, but this is what i have to remind myself so I don't feel empty like early today, cause having a an honest purpose in life is all I enjoy living and fighting for, driving all that it's me into making my brain to formulate ideas and concepts to produce them into reality and understanding that errors and mistakes will pop out, I'll never be perfect in this world, but trying to get close is what I think it must take for one day to reach that, but once I'm not longer here. And I got to end this one with of course the mention of how much better and happier my life is when I think and feel the overwhelming love that Jesus have for me, it's all i need to feel the best I can
JeffPalmer.NET
issue # 183
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
In my try to have a life more organized and simple i decided to do my Internet live shows every Wednesdays at 5pm PST, at my e home as always, this way anyone on this planet have the chance to see me (and in real time), but 2 Wednesdays ago I ran into trouble, again with the fucking estupida web camera right at the last fucking minute making me miss the fucking show, fucking piece of shit! i became so fucking furious at myself that I made me go live on line every day at noon for one week since that Wednesday until the following one which was Wednesday July 30TH, intending to punish myself, but instead it turned out to be muy fucktastic. siiiiii. One of those days I incorporated this heavy 14 inches thick dildo with heavy balls, and received a very warm and juicy welcome from my ever hungry love hole, in the beginning it was a slow entrance all the way deep into me, but then also slowly I took it out, but it did not felt right being out for long, my butt hole had to have it back, and since then it became a countless and fast in and outs for the rush from it took over, ejoying being watch on real time by other horny man all over the world, I took at least 10 of those fucking yummy 14 inches, and after a very while, from my super precuming cock i shoot a fucking nice load of sperm, what a fucking exquisite fucking orgasm that was, mmm! talking about a real fucking prostate released, WOW!, just fucking classic!. I did another of those shows in Long Beach, CA (which is around 45 minutes from los Angeles), with one of my fuck buddies and one of his fucking hot buddies that i fucked while holding the web cam very close to the connection point between my ever precumin hard&happy cock and his fucking crazy hole, mmmm! so fucking magical, felling like I was David Copperfield making my dick disappears and re appears and giving front rows to guys all over the world through the close ups my web cam provided, ay ayummy, and I got him pregnant. Another of those shows featured a fight between the good old black butt plug and the new big dildo disputing for my fucking juicy%warm butt hole, but my ever fucking nice&giving sweet hole is always making sure to provide happiness, so, both of them took turns, they got their share, as usual my sweet&tender butt hole took big satisfaction with the duty his main job is, and yeah!, I'm a fucking doofus, so move over Busssshhh.
Any fucking way, I just couldn't let my fucking, mo'fucka greedy fucking ass hole get away with always taking control, how about my fucking stupid cock? so finally I made my fucking retarded piece of meat take over on a couple of my fucking live shows, taking the main role and make it all about just and nothing but my verga(cock) caliente, my body and face taking the second roles, it actually was a quite fucking nice view, making me want to take some photos to post here on my e home/whore. Well well, gentleman and gentleman I know most of you already know too well how good it is to get off everyday at least once, but believe it or not, (I know you are not), I don't usually get off everyday, yeah, oh yeah!, yeah!, si!, yes, yeah! correct, affirmative, and yeah, I'm aware of how fucking terrible wrong that is, way too fucked up of me, that's more wrong the watching a movie that is not porn, I feel so fucking embarrased and ashamed, i don't deserve to be a porn star, but i'd like to change that, and that is why I had to publicly confess to you all and now make my goal to get off at least not once but twice a day everyday for the rest of my fucking horny life, (hopefully inside some man's ass or throat), like the other day after one of my live shows that I was still horny just like anyone who is scorpion(horoscope's sign), and this puerto rican with a thick 8 inches&uncut verga(cock) and this other white 9 inches of even thicker cock turned me pretty much into their fucking blow doll, damn!, i felt like a fucking a fucking 3 dollars whore, yummm!, i guess I don't need to explain that much if i say that after a long while my mouth, throat and stomach end up filled with a gallon of puerto rican sperm, and my rectum filled up with a gallon of white semen dripping out of what looked like a man gina, rigth after they dropped me off at home i had to perform an abortion cause unfortunately is not normal in this society to walk around with sperm dripping down my legs. and yeah, very OINK!. Few days ago I went hunting and i catch a bear, turned to be one I already did last year, but his dick is so fucking pretty and thick, that I had to have an encore, mmm!, but I felt so shy that I pulled out my laptop and with the web cam I recorded some of that action, siiiii, if I ever post the clips in here my e casa then my joy for turning a dick into a pacifier will be too evident, i'll be seing as a big fucking puto. And... I'm so fucking done writing, you can stick fork on me, I just cannot fucking stand it for too fucking long, come on pigs! you know it's priceless time i could use for some slutiness, so fuck you for make love you like I do, I'm even taking also time away for the creation of a brand new song, and the tools I'm using for this one are pretty much kind of fucking primitives, but miracles can happen, if not then look how the eternal energy, source of power, life itself, the all mighty Jesus Christ has always protected me, and with the most respect I'm being serious about Jesus Christ being all that for me and even more.
issue # 182
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Hi my people !, hope u all doing good, and I'm doing just fine, still no working out anymore, (over a year already), I have the body I wish to have. Still I got no human boyfriends. Still no taking any fligths on airplanes and it's been over a year already. I eat most any kind of food including some junk food except animals. I'm still in Los Angeles, CA. still. It's been around five months since going to a sex club, bathhouse or even a night club. But...I'm still working on this electronic house
with such things as these journals, being live through my camera on my computer and having guys watch me on present's time on Wednesdays when I go for a good time with just myself and a butt plug.But today I'm extra excited not just because is Wednesday but also because yesterday I started creating a new song, oh yeah, about time, but it may take a while to be done for i wanna enjoy the process the more i can, si, enjoy it like the most stiff over 9 super thick inches black cock I ever took in my life, damn!,it was also on yesterday and fucking brutal was how my love-butt-hole took it like a pro from around 1:30 pm to 4 pm giving that cock just 5 minutes bathroom break during that whole time in which did not came out of my hungry rectum, I just had to have constantly inside me for the longest as possible
leaving the doggy style as the only position we missed, ohhhhhhhhhhh! yeahhhhhhhhhh!, such a fucking enchanting fuck, my ass hole was the happiest on planet earth, ohhhhhh wow!, i was surrendering to a fucking high level of pleasure by feeling that
endless amount of precum making my joy-hole so fucking creamy that we could hear those juicy and squirmy typical penetration noises, yummy!, and seeing it through a big mirror only made me go more and more crazier and wilder then Pat Robertson checking his bank account, i called it a perfect fuck time, and sorry for being yesterday such fucking cock hungry pig but is just that I started the day with a 36 years old, 6'2, 220 pounds of a way too good looking white bodybuilder seeding me after just 15 or 20 minutes of fucking me with his 9 semi cut full of sperm cock, so this would turn any human into a cock hungry pig too, and yeah, anyone, including the ones who like woman too. But i have been ass hungry too, yeah! this past weekend I joined this little orgy with two hot black guys and a white one ay ay ay!, that white guy drove me fucking
crazy with such an appetizing ass that I fucked and fucked and fucked like there was no tomorrow, he was smaller then me allowing me to maneuver him how and all i wanted, plowing him mainly with his legs up and hugging him that way while kissing, it was kind a romantic fuck, i unload a couple of days cum inside his awesome inviting butt, we were watching the last porn I did which was last year I think, yum mm, and i got to say that the combination of a fucking fun present with images of a fun past is equal a major fucking exclusive, incredible euphoria, big fucking time, like only few things in this life.sorry again for no writing these journals more often but you all must understand that when you are ever horny like i am then is hard to be writing when you can be fucking, also I'm making this one a short sexual report one for the one before was kind of heavy with some non sexual report. i can only be forever grateful to God for giving me all he does, no one but Jesus
Christ has always been there for me as cheese and insane it may sound, but that is for me and got no problem saying loud.
issue # 181
Friday, May 30, 2008
Finally I'm here, writing about things I been doing since mid April until now, the end of May of 2008. Some of the most important things were posting on my website a couple of video clips I have filmed myself while getting fucked, one of them was with this very fucking hot fuck buddy of mine, sometimes he fucks me while my web cam is so my people can watch it live, cause I'm done with the fucking butt plug, I much rather a cock or an ass, turning it into a sex live show instead of just a live show, mmm! yeah yeah yeah, like the last one for example, ohhhhh!, I had the best blow job ever, never before a guy sucked my verga(cock), like this fucking pig I meet recently, it was wooooooow!, plus his ass was perfect also, I fucked him for like an hour making sure to position the camera in the right spot which is very close so you can see and feel like my cock and his hole were right in front of your nose, just in and out in different speeds, mmm!, remembering now makes me want some more but i got to write this journal (now you see why it takes me so fucking long to write a journal). Last month I had not one but 2 major hot bottoms for myself at the same time and place, si senor!, they invited me over and I was just switching back and forward cause i had a few days of not sex so I just had to perform some serious drilling, pounding and plowing my way into some huge orgasm impregnating one of those stretched out juicy and warm holes, then they took me to the San Vicente Inn (only gay hotel in LA), and wow!, there also i had some more holes that i fucked and fucked, getting off again and again inside some real cock demanding butt holes, oh boy! only then I was set to have the patient it takes to learn the web master's language. and do also some landscaping, or downgrading my computer to Windows XP cause Windows Vista is nastier then watching the queen of England's nude. One day from last week a neighbor visit was to start my sexual engine and give my ass a huge smile with a huge load of cum from a white uncut thick European cock, it was amazing that he ejaculated as soon as his thick uncut cock entered my rectum, so I had to have more action and i went to the hottest 25 years old model I have ever seen, he was black, 6 feet's tall, and hung with a 9 thick inches that enjoyed penetrating my never satisfied holes,specially my lower hole, it was wow!, he fucked my ever hungry butt hole for hours, to the point it looked and felt like a fucking pussy, so warm and all juiced up with tons of precum, his face, body, cock and personality could not have been any better, it was like a fucking perfect dream, mmm!, this other Italian friend and his roomate were watching us perform position after position of pure fucking pleasure, just so fucking sweet!.
Another day i was picked up by this cute boy looking Philippine and took me to this big brand new loft in downtown where an orgy was taking place, in there was a Chinese a Japanese and a white older man, and yeah, i fuck them all, wow! they were very sexually experienced, plus 2 more guys came by, a fucking stocky hot looking white surfer dude with a real thick cock that complimented me for my blow job performance, and a Italian hairy jock with some real amazing ass hole, making me edge for some fucking looooooooooooooooooong time, he end up with at least a gallon of my precum inside his rectum, then i was ready to go to a Barmizpha that was over the top at the most luxury hotel in Beverly Hills, great food but more boring then listening the Pope talk or watching some recent Hollywood movies, I haven't watch a movie other then porn since "Citizen Ruth" this past new year's eve because my favorite actress Laura Dern was in it, OH! I watched also "The transformers", but the music was not what I expected, so it sucked for me, i think the non xrated movie industry is done or something, the other day i was trying to watch some porn online and this pop up with a cartoon kept annoying the hell out of me, it was bob the
sponge or something like that, and the fucked up thing is that not long ago it used to be the other way around, were porn used to be the annoying pop up, ffucking weird ah?, but everything is possible, like last week having some fake tattoos with chinese letters for I'm obssesed with one day going to China, the only problem is that few months ago i dream I was dying in an airplane, and somehow it became very fucking traumatizing, so I haven't fly in a airplane in a bout a year and I'm not planning to fly at all, I'm just fine moving around in the ground, and now ...........................THE FOLLOWING AND LAST PART OF THIS JOURNAL CONTAIN SOME POLITICALLY VIEWS, U BEEN WARNED, REPEAT!, NOT SEXUAL AT ALL WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ!.....................................There is something that I been wanting to talk about, so finally now I do, it is about what happened to me a year ago right after I created a song called "Rocky" which was in the memory of a co-star of mine, denouncing most of the medical field as criminals, I just had to, even knowing how angry the medical network would become, wanting for sure my complete destruction. and soon after that I found myself with nobody I could trust, it became
real hell for me, it would take too long of writing to explain all the fucking horrible situations I went through, they almost succeeded but I had Jesus Christ with me and him and his angels did not let them hurt me more then I could take.
One midnight on Saturday when most hotels here in Los Angeles, CA are full somehow the Holiday Inn located on 250 Silver Lake bv. Los Angeles, CA not only had a room for me but also with a special discount, and in the back of my head I kept thinking what was the catch, and sure soon after checking in I found the catch, it was involuntary experimentation, which can be done in endless ways such as substances on your food, drinks, water and air, until then I never knew a hotel room could be so close to a hospital, yes the place where my best friends are, the medicine field ones, well, that was my room that night, the number 508 with a wonderful and extremely close view to a hospital that had some major powerful lights pointing towards the side of where my room was. So i taped shot all the openings of air and water such as the hot tub, sink and air conditioner machine that kept being on and very cold even after being unplugged, I asked for another room but this guy from Nepal with who I checked in told me I could not. After closing all the openings and turning off the lights i tried to close the window but an electrical shock did not let me, and every time I tried to reach that window I was shocked with a strange electrical discharges, no the typical one, a very different really hard to explain, it was so fucking strange and powerful, to the point of my fingertips being burned black, it was like some kind of radiation or something that automatically made me felt so ill that right away I turned on the lights, called someone I knew near by that I could go and get the fuck out of there the soon as I could, taking with me just my computer and the few things could grab in the period of one minute, it was past 2;30 AM and I went down to the front desk and as I was calling a taxi cab while being in some real physical and mentally shock, I heard that guy from Nepal calling someone in the phone and saying that the procedure was interrupted, and
when i confronted him about it he grabed the phone and went to the back so I could not keep hearing his conversation, with a smirk on his face that I will never forget for as long as I live, soon after that a taxi arrived taking me to a friend's home where i recovered from the most traumatic moment I had ever experienced, later on I researched about it and came to find out that there is other people out there also that have been and still are victims of these involuntary experiments, also I kept fighting Bank of America and that hotel for the charges of thousands of dollars for damages to that room where the medical
network tried to experiment or who knows what with me, but I don't blame Bank of America for no being being such an incumbent for being one of the many incumbents there is out there is not a choice, for just about anyone can be an incumbent, the ones
who are professionals like for example most people from India and Nepal who are incumbents for money and/or a best friend or a family member can turn into an incumbent because they are forced to work for these secret agencies that are contracted by money powerful networks such as the medical ones for example, and after learning that i created the song "Jurando pero no". But also after that song i created another one, my latest, called "Jesuscristo" for him is the only one I can count and trust in a world where us humans sometimes act as animals, but also finding ways to get along like at this moment in my life. After years and years of hearing people say I'm wrong in believing and probing that HIV never existed, how can they still don't see that surviving so many attacks is because of Jesus?, how blind are they??, for is not me but Jesus Christ that glory goes to, cause i could have been a Joey Stefano long time ago, but because of Jesus Christ I'm still here to be just one of his servers who is not afraid of the physical dead but of what comes after, the dead of the energy inside this human body is what I'm afraid of, the saddest moment comes inside of me when i think of the dead of my energy or spirit or soul or whatever you wanna call the source of my being and what makes me write this what you are reading now. I feel that sharing is what keeps energy existing, and that is my ultimate goal.
issue # 180
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Downloading, uploading, updating, upgrading, testing, scanning, fixing, repairing, configuring, cleaning, restoring, enabling, disabling, defragmenting, running, docking, undocking, locking, unlocking, installing, re installing, deleting, erasing, shedduling, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!, damn! so much fucking crap to go through now days in order to have a computer with fucking problems, fuck me Bill Gates!, it was so fucking nice 10 years ago before AOL morphed into some kind of virus, and the ones like Microsoft started creating all of these problems so they can sell their solutions, mierda!, pero que cabrones!, but i guess we cannot have it all, it's the catch, kind of like the hospitals but not that bad. The reason for complaining is because in the last month i missed a couple of live shows on my website due to my fucking puta computer, and that really fucking piss me off, more then anything, even more then listening to those mentally challenged people from the AAA meetings, or the headaches i used to get from ipods (specially their earphones), or watch a porn that is not bareback (or the ones who keep saying, yeah! fuck yeah! non stop), or not being able to fit in my mouth a cock of a huge black guy because is just too fucking thick and big, and indeed, it was last week when I decided to celebrate my 33rd birthday getting me a parade of cocks going by my both ever hungry holes, and sure i was very generous to myself, cause fuck!, it was the united colors of Benetton parade, missing just the yellow one, mmm!. Some how I was penistrated by different stiff meat measuring 8 inches or bigger, plus their owners were pretty fucking good looking too, yummmmy!. And the best performer who took all the honors was the one with the monster cock who I couldn't fit inside my desperate mouth, after all it was for sure the biggest mother fucker cock up to date I had ever seen in my whole slutty wore life, and affirmative, it felt like being fisted at first, but once he started to fuck me with my legs up, i took it like a man and then i was in heaven, he just pounded my ass in a few long different positions until (of course) unloading deep inside my ultra happy rectum, flooding it really good, he was a 6'4 black man in his 30s, 220 pounds of natural massive muscle, with a big afro hair and driving a huge white truck and with the way he acted it seemed like he had a girlfriend or wife, i hate me for not filming it cause it was the best fuck in the ass i ever had up to date. But lately i did filmed other good fucks almost as hot as that one, i just need to find the time to post it on my website, also some yummy photos like the ones with the assistent of Hening Van Borg who is a very famous german photographer who photographed me a couple of weeks ago here in Los Angeles, CA and his assistant who was also tall and very fucking blackilicious offered his huge man body and cock for the photos we took, mmmm!, he just knew get me into gear cause as I entered the photo shot's location I noticed my music playing some of my music at this location's, what a fucking joy full photo shot that was, and talking about joy full is when I meet with this fuck buddy of mine who few weeks ago fucked me in one of my web cam shows, mmmm!, ay caramba!, he can just go and go and go for my butt hole for hours, and making my love hole so sloppy filling it with tons of precum and cum, he is all big, hairy and muscular with a 8 and a half never satisfied ever hard cock just like a fucking rock, mmmm, we normally meet at his work after business hours, I come in, he pulls the inflatable mattress and ... party time!, mmmm!. fuck! being such a fucking slut is the best, but the bad side effect is that it prevents me from working more on my website, and that fucking sucks, and i could go on and on about many other fulfilling fucks and situations i been having since last time i wrote a journal, but is just that being addicted to sex is such a fucking major blessing that i can only take advantage of it, OINK!, and even better is when i can say it, publish it, and not having to hide it all like some people that pretend to be mother Teresa while they are bigger cock pigs then me, well, almost as me, but sometimes being too honest is confusing, for example i hook up the other day with this big bold macho white bear guy with a major thick cock and while fucking me while I was laying on on him on my back he said, of man!, it feels so good fucking you because you have the body of a 14 year old boy, ahhhh???, did not know what the fuck to say to that, but what I know what to say for sure is that I'm still endlessly thank full to Jesus Christ for such a privilege of honesty, cause it is really fucking awesome to admit it, and sorry for making this journal so short but i got an amazing life to live on present's time, (for whatever time means), and seating here writing is not that much fun, so let's just fucking go out there and fuck like there is not tomorrow, come on already! just go!, go!, go!, for sex is not the only but the best thing of life, mmmmmmmm!!! si cabron!., OINK!
issue # 179
Sunday, February 03, 2008
8:11 AM 2/3/2008
I was just thinking the other day how is it
that I'm not into tennis anymore, i haven't
played or watched like I used to, I don't even
know who won which tournament, also I
noticed how fast time is passing by me, it
feels like it was yesterday when i woke up
on Jesus Christ's birthday, and under the
Christ mas tree I opened gifts, ( and not
from Satan, I mean Santa), i swear it feels
like it was just yesterday, but, so what?,
now, a really fucking and major fucking
amazing event took part last month and
that was the creation of a new song being
completed and posted on my web site, it is
called "Jesucristo", finally!, after starting
on the end of September 2007 and finished
last month (January), damn!, about time i
say!. talking about procrastinating, but the
result is rewarding, and I'm content with it
big fucking time, specially since the music
industry keeps going on the direction I
wanted to go since I started making music
8 years ago, and talking about certain
amount of years, I remembered the other
day that on November of this year my
electronic home is turning 10 years old, ay
caramba!, and yeahhhhhhh!, It's been quite
few months since I'm not taking any kind of
vitamins or supplements, also not going
back to the gym still, I just happen to feel
very secure and totally happy with the way
my body looks, maybe because I don't eat
animals like chicken anymore?, I don't
watch TV, specially avoiding the news at all
cost, uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh! now that's
more fucking damaging for my brain then
politics or poppers, I'm keeping my hair
relatively short, I haven't go out to
nightclubs or parties at all, I haven't
traveled any further then Long Beach where
sex is always fun and everywhere, oink!, and
fucking love it this way cause I guess I got
burned out with traveling, it is just not fun at
all anymore, besides everywhere is the
same thing, I haven't in many months and
hopefully I won't for many months, just
bring New York closer to Los Angeles and I'll
go there, and sorry my fans from the big
apple but thank God technology makes me
be live through my e home/web site not
only to NY but to every city all over planet
earth, and the space, c'mon!, I go live twice
a week for at least on hour each time. And
talking about that, just a few days ago, on
Wednesday i had my best "self pleasuring
exhibitionist time", mmm! maybe because
earlier on that day I had the greatest fuck
ever by the hottest guy ever, very very ever,
and i don't know if was because of his looks
or his way of fucking, he was a tall italian
looking, 6'2, over 200 pounds of nothing but
real massive muscle (not the steroids kind),
all smooth body and a cock that was
fucking huge as well, and
curvy to his right side, mmm!, we meet
online, but as soon as we meet in the 3 d
world he took off his clothes and i was
already melting with them on, so by the
time all of his clothes came out i was
already evaporated in the air, damn!, I could
not fucking believe my fucking eyes, I just
can not think of anyone, not even a co-star
from my movies to be so fucking appetizing,
his already super hard cock did not need
much of my starving throat, it was just too
fucking obvious that my butt-love-hole was
gonna get the time of life, oh man !, all i
could think was him fucking me like a
fucking blow up doll,
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!, fuck!, the lips of
my pac man hole were ready and open and
just fucking desperate for hosting that
amazing hard piece of pretty meat, and in a
matter of seconds he was already
mounting me from behind, and i could see
through this big mirror the most impressive
man i ever been or even seen before in my
life behind me and hugging me so very
tight with his fucking huge muscular arms
while penetrating me, sending goose
bumps all over my body, forgetting
everything and everyone, he put me on
a total trance in which my body felt more
lighter then lettuce, his dick went all the
way in and all the way out increasing the
speed going harder as the time and
different positions passed by, oh wow!,
what i fucking real fucker, and i was just
fucking taking it like a man, but it seems
like he was enjoying it a little more then
he should because he could not hold it for
hours like I needed but for around 30 or 40
minutes only, and then I felt an ocean of
sperm flooding inside my rectum it was a
tsunami, making my butt hole the happiest
as it has ever been before, way way ever,
oh WOW! buenisimo!, then we said bye to
each other and I started to get ready for my
live show, and for a change it was not
delayed, i started just in time, but... the
problem was noticing not until 15 minutes
later, ( 7:15 ), that my web cam was showing
me my butt plug on the web cam's program
only and not in my web site, shit ! how
fucking estupido of me?,so , faster then
George Michael in a public restroom I
switched my web cam onto my web site,
and then, my people started to see me, live
on present's time, just having fun playing
with myself and using for lubrication for my
dear butt plug the gallon of semen from
earlier on when that fucking incredible
hunk fucked me so fucking good making
that generous deposit, I was just so turned
on in that show that my cock was really
fucking ready to orgasm constantly, edging
like crazy for almost two hours, precum,
precum, lots of precum, while showing off
in few different positions while massaging
my prostate with my butt plug toy, and the
orgasm I had was more fantastico and
releasing then I could ask for, mmm!, it felt
like I was Bobby Brown coming out of jail,
oh yeahhhhhhhhhhh!. One night I was so
fucking horny, (of course!), that i hunted
online this amazing muscular black
masseur, and glad was I was taken by him
on this free time, because his 10 inches
cock made my ass close to be ready for
fisting, wow!, he sure can fuck all night long,
i was laying on his bed on one side and he
was behind just pounding and pounding,
hours passed by feeling him unloading few
times one after the other with out taking his
cock out of my man puss, also I was kind of
surprised I was taking it all the way
because not that often i take inside my ever
unsatisfied love hole the biggest cock ever,
and then my cell phone rings, so I had to
share my joy hole with this other
man, a white student with a 8 and a half
cock major thick, he needed my ass too, so,
me being the nice guy i am, I had him pick
me up and take me to his place where he
fucked me using as lubrication just the cum
that I already had inside me from the hot
black muscular 10 inches masseur,
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, he
unloaded his sperm inside my fucky-hole
after pounding it for like an hour, on top of
me while I was laying down on my face and
him being me, oh!, so much pleasure that I
had to have an encore the following week
taking some close ups photo of that black
horse dick, bravo!. Oh! also i must not forget
about this other fucking huge muscular guy
that on his way home from the gym he
wanted to stop by where I live, I went into
his car and we did not move more then 5
blocks and he was already ejaculating in
my throat, is just that he had this puerto
rican look, he was like 6'3 tall, and around
200 of major muscles, and his cock thick
like a can of coke, amazing what the gym
can do, cause his erection was automatic
as soon as I touch his crotch, and not even 5
minutes after he was already feeding me
with his yummy sperm!, mmm!, I guess I'm
going through a big muscle guy period,
well, u cannot eat always the same thing so
one time I did it with this 2 slim trimmed
guys but their cock were huge and not only
the one with the bigger penis fucked me but
also I fucked him too returning the favor,
damn! he sure was the full package, yumm,
then I went to the other room to see what
happened to the host of that little orgy
group and found him sleeping so I started
to fuck him until i came in his ass, and these
other 2 guys with the huge cocks came by
and the one I fucked with started fucking
the host that was sleeping with my cum
inside his ass that i just had unloaded, and
he also breed him too, well, turns out to be
that the host was not really sleeping but
just pretending, dahhh!!!!!!!!!!!, LOL, sorry I
that was a brain fart. another day I had also
a 3way with one white beefy texan big thick
cock guy and this tall skinny thick cock
italian, and we all fucked each other sucked
each other, got each other off, mmmmm!!!,
just like a fucking 3way should always be,
at least for me!, and I could go on and on
about other sexual adventures and other
things I have experienced on my life since
the last time i wrote a journal but then it
would take me days and I can only do it for
hours, I get so horny after wards that i must
have some fucky fucky, yeah, right after
posting this one online, and whoever tells
you that sex is not the best thing out of life
is the biggest fucking liar you'll ever know,
punch him really hard in the nuts and run, ( I
was joking), so, no, no punching anyone just
punching yourself if u don't believe me
when I say that I own to my Jesucristo more
then words can say and that hopefully
someone out there understands that his
love is way bigger then we even fucking
imagine, and yeah, whatever call me PPP;
"porno preacher palmer"., later!.
issue # 178
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Lately i been hating myself for not being responsible as I should, I have not write a journal in over a month and a half, I been a very fucking horny slut,
using almost all of my free time to meet people online and fuck and fuck, like for example with this unbelievable and so talented ass hole of this muscular
and so well proportioned hot latin Adonis, the second time we meet I filmed part of that action, his ass makes my cock grow hard and fucking erect
automatically, penetrating his juicy cavity with my hand while holding my cock and beating off my cock inside his love hole make him one of my favorite fuck
holes ever, but even that feels too good to fist him, is my cock that takes most of the time and pleasure using that fucking piggy culo(ass), for at least a
couple of hours. Some other day I went to this White guy's place, and he had a sling on his patio and it was covered so neighbors wouldn't watch, yumm!,
talking about another major fisting fuck hole, so i fucked until breeding him way deep inside, oh! and i forgot to mention that this buddy of his fucked me
earlier with some real thick cock, and he just would not let go of my ass. Few days ago I hooked up for the second time also with this 6'4 muscular 40 year
old hot masseur who i meet/fuck with first 6 years Ago, and damn! his job or I don't know what made his dick a lot thicker then 6 years ago, damn!, but sure i
took it like a man, for almost half an hour, and right when I was finally getting his 10th, final and fatest inch of his fucking huge monster cock deep
inside my very giving love hole he came, leaving my rectum filled with a huge week old load of his sperm and wanting for more cock and cum, mmmmmmmmmmmmmm!,
There was a day last week when I hooked up with a big black fuck buddy of mine who performed a tag team with another black guy friend of his on me and I just
took those two mo fucka black snakes like a fucking pro, and ... wow, sure they breeded me like there was no tomorrow cause afterwords i felt a river cumin
out of my culo caliente. i remember also few nights ago being picked up by this tall white male who was visiting this other fuckbuddy of mine who is Russian
with the fucking silliest accent that turns me on a lot and makes me stick my cock in his very well accommodating rear end for the longest time, going inside
and out of his ass makes my dick feeling like the happiest one on earth, he is very tiny, few inches shorter then me, and I'm 5'8 tall,(real size), he was
just so easy to move around and maneuver as I wanted, but before fucking&breeding the coolest Russian guy I ever meet, I received a magical impressive blow
job from one of his guest, (the tall white guy who drove me there), it was warm and too exciting, sucking my verga with his fucking warm and juicy and
starving for dick mouth, it was just like a fish's mouth, he took my penis as his own pacifier, (and no, i don't fuck with animals, it was just my
imagination going wild). And what also was not just my wild imagination is this other guy i meet online as well who invited me to his place in West
Hollywood, soon after i arrived he already had his very thick 8 inches and very demanding cock going inside my butt hole, and it felt so good to feel such
strong piece of fat wood strong precumin so much, making my man hole to be so fucking juicy and sloppy that i could not have enough, i did not allowed that
verga to stop penetrating me in and out, i Was just enjoying it way too much and in almost every position there is, but because of the curve of his amazing
fat cock i preferred with my legs up, and then the orgasm he shot inside my culo was an ocean. Once he was done with my asshole I had to have a little
abortion in his bathroom before he drove me home cause I did not wanted to leave some of his own sperm coming out of my butt hole on his car's seat, and
almost forgot to mention that he had the biggest and most complete video porn library collection I ever seen. OH! few days ago I meet this fucking awesome
white guy from Long Beach, CA picking me up here in Los Angeles and taking me to his house and while also watching some fucking amazing porn I fucked his
white smooth fisting hungry butt hole so fucking good, and mostly in my favorite fucking position, from behind laying on the side, que rico!!!!, but his cock
was hard too looking to enter my butt hole, and sure it didn't took much to convince my very giving love hole, so, soon enough I had his nice fucking pretty
polla(cock) visiting the warm and inviting cavity of pleasure in my butt, it was a fucking nice pounding what he gave me, but his butt hole had something that
kept making my pole wanting for more until it was just more edging then I could take, edging my orgasm with such heavenly hole for too long was no happening,
i was precuming more then a priest watching a porn, i had to let it go, so I did that, I injected with my woodpecker a respectable amount of semen depositing
it all the way deep inside that fucking nice and wide open men hole, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!, talking about having a release. ay ay ay!
And is all I can remember at this time about my latest sex adventures. Now I got to post a couple of private sex clips in my ehome/ecasa so my members can
enjoy it, also I been working in not being so fucking late for my live web cam shows, it's so fucked up how much later then the time announced I go live, i
just kick myself for being 15 to 40 minutes late, I do them for an hour or more, all I do in them is be nude enjoying myself, jerk off live to the world.
Finally!!! I'm starting to write the words for the new song that is victim of my procrastination, so fucked up of me, but is on the way and it's called
"Jesucristo" for is about time I make one dedicate to him, besides as soon as I finished creating the music I knew that it was for him but I wasn't
completely sure like now. Since the last time I wrote a journal until now I have meet a very cool famous actress, I don't wanna give too man details because
actors are weird that way, and there was nothing sexual to it at all, at some place here in Los Angeles it was me, her and this friend of mine who introduced
me her, and I got to chat with her for a good while as my friend and her were doing something related to her work , she inspired me to stop eating meat and
go more for vegetables and fruits and sure it's been helping me with the fucking acne, big fucking time, who knew?, are u still clueless of who I'm talking
about?it's Alicia Silverstone, and she is the same as her character from Clueless, I realized a while back that actors and their characters are almost the
same, so she is fucking sweet, happily married and looks the same as always, when she talks it sounds so fucking trendy, like a little girl sometimes, she
gave me all the advises that an animal protector would, and even sent me an email just like she said she would with links to animal cruelty free related
organizations, so I guess she is clueless of who I am, or maybe she does, that is something really hard for me to know from a woman, but from men I know when
they know me even if they said they don't, also I know when a male really does not know me. It took me quite some time to find out if the UFO exist or not,
and sure I got really confused to the point of almost believing it's real, but after i studied the subject and analyzed the information and their sources and
found out that not for nothing Jesus who I trust the most, he is the very core of each living cells of my body and there is no force that can go against him,
no for nothing his birthday is the biggest celebration of the year since many centuries, and it sucks that the devil dresses as light (popes, catholic
church) and make Jesus look bad by involving money as the ultimate insult to God who of course does not it need any money, and some dumb people believe these
evil forces and think that God really wants none and they miss it big time, the fucking devil have it easy with so many dumb people, and yeah people can
just go ahead and think i lost my mind and it's just fine with me, cause serving Jesus even in the most strangest ways known for humans is what I live for.
issue # 177
Friday, October 19, 2007
yeahhhhhhhhhhhh!, there is some really fucking great news, it seems like the war in the middle east is ending within weeks, it looks like the major business
who control this country and the president had enough and want the war to end now before their business get worse and also because if any country attacks us
then they better do it while we are protected by our guys that are now over there, about fucking time!, such a damn long one. Yes, long one like the fuck I
had with this guy I meet online, picked me up and took us to some sleazy motel in the area, and i fucked his hairy, warm, juicy and so fucking open butt
hole while watching some amazing porn from this company called Spunk, ay ay ay!, it was just too hard to watch it cause I was edging and it was just so
fucking hot that i couldn't control myself from ejaculating, so after an hour or so i took a little break and this puerto rican background hot muscle guy
fucked my ass, but in a way that was so fucking suave, it was like having a romantic guy making Love to me while whispering hot stuff in my hears while making
out, it was just so fucking intense, looking into each others eyes and tongue kissing non stop while his fucking pretty nice cock was pounding my love hole
with my legs up and we just couldn't stop, i was just fucking flying in heaven, never knew i could get fucked in such way, we intensely kissed while looking
into our eyes for about half an hour or so but then he just couldn't take it anymore and he started screaming of pleasure and i felt inside my butt hole his
sperm exploding and filling my overjoyed rectum with such huge amount of cum that it felt like a fucking river inside of me, we chilled out for about 15
minutes in that bed in his arms, then my cock had to get off and his ass hole wanted to have my orgasm inside and did not took too long after inserting my
fucking cock that was desperate to ejaculate and breeding him was like being on cloud 9, i couldn't believe how long it lasted that orgasm, it felt it was
forever, then we laid in bed for a while, we cuddled, chat, and he took me back home, haven't see him since then, but i have a feeling that he have a
boyfriend so I don't wanna repeat cause I may get bad karma, besides there is so many hot man out there that, why repeat?, mmmm! and sure i been having
plenty of them lately, like the other night that this 30 year old blond blue eyed guy from Phoenix, Arizona was staying in town and after meeting online we
picked me up and took me to his place where we had to be very quite because his girlfriend would wake up, and damn!, it was another flip flop major fucking
action again, but his time I filled him up with my cum first after an hour of he fucking me, me fucking him, then we rested and he made me sucked his cock to
the point of getting his big load of semen down my throat while i was jerking off and cumin at the same time, mmmmm! wow!, he had it inside his balls for
several days cause it was a lot of protein i swallowed. But unfortunately I'm fucking around the whole time in my life, bummer!, gardening is not as much fun
as sex but sure it makes me feel almost there, i just somehow like it a lot, and I do it in a way that is very detail oriented so when people see the results
they notice the big difference, and making a difference for better brings some hard to explain joy to me. I been also suck a good boy with my web cam shows,
being late sometimes, and missing only one in the past month, hopefully the next one should be with some guy fucking or getting fucked, cause it's been a
while since doing it that way, changing excites me mucho. OH!, also few weeks ago i created a new song that now I have to ad the words to it and I'm in
conflict with myself about what to say in it, cause I don't want people to get the wrong idea, but i think that I'm gonna have some cojones and just do it,
and no, is not political. I was thinking the other day reading one of my fan's emails about traveling, and it's been the longest time since getting out of
town but I just don't feel like doing it at all, i feel that why to travel if I don't have to?, i just will if I must, fuck it!, and OH!, last week after
fucking with this Aussie guy all night long he convinced me to change my hairstyle beside I was already fucking sick of the same shaggy one, so I graved this
pair of scissors and cut-ted my hair really short, and I wonder why didn't I do it before, that much I like it, and so the guys at Beige, the only gay club I
like going out to here in Los Angeles, mmm! at some point I was making out with my tall huge black guy with the biggest lips and penis i had in a long time,
but i discovered after wards that he already have a boyfriend so I left that at that, damn! fucking marriage!, now I'm gonna end this scoop the same way as
usual for I have a happy life thank him, for total mental incapacitate I would have be to not admit in public that Jesus Christ is my eternal boyfriend, the
best one, the perfect one,him , the alfa and omega of all. ohhhhhhhh yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
issue # 176
Monday, September 17, 2007
This is been such a fucking wonderfull year for me so far, allowing myself to *discover*, *fight*, *accept*, *un-say*, *create*, *share*, *connect*,
*disconnect*, *relax*, *prepare for* but for the most part *"enjoy"* so many new things and the usual things. Time can be a real fucking bitch to control and
that is the or a problem that really fucking buggs me, that is why I have not writen a journal in so long or as often as I used to, somehow as time goes by
life gets too fucking overwellming in the choices and decisions I got to make, so if wasnt for my eternal one and only boyfriend Jesuscristo that gives me
clues through my instincts then I wouldn't even be writing this right now or ever, besides, challenges are a very satisfactory part of my life, so fucking
bring it on!, as long as i have great health the rest don't matter that much. But let's just get to the best parts and most juicy ones of my time since my
last journal..., mmmmm! and oh!yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!, burning up in total joy was when few weeks ago when one of my fuck buddies invited me over the
bedroom of his place that was turned into a sex dungeion with 4 differents screens showing 4 different kinds of porn, yeahhhh, the good ones with no idiotic
condoms, mmmm!!!, damn! he sucked my filled with too much sperm hard as a rock cock, taking more joy then usual to that is what I noticed from him, normally
he is known to be just a top, but I knew that eventually he had to get tired of it, and sure I all my persuation tools to take full control of his dying to
get plowed love hole, yeahhh!, I fucked his butt hole in such a clever maner that in no time I had my big cock all the way inside his starving ass hole, to
the point of making him eat my verga(dick) with that hole of his that not longer had to beg to my friend's brain to get some real hot major fucking
satisfaction, and feeling and seeing this took me to the highest level of satisfaciton like only few times I have experienced and decided to take it another
nutch higher by taking advantage of that trance situation he was in and making him promised me that he would be a cock wore slut for the night and take as
many loads for as many cocks as possible after me breeding him love-hole, and his afirmative quick response only made me orgasm inside of him in a bigger and
better way then ever, and not too long after he was getting inpregnated by this kid carriend a major tool between his legs that hard so hard and mean that
my buddy could not longer control his expessions of joy like he never felt, after all of these years finally I saw him lose total control and just fucking
surrender to some of his most obstructed fantasies and WOW, seen it while i was fucking this other pig big-juicy-slutty beefy butt in chaps was pure heaven
damn!, what a hungry love hole he had!, to the point that afterwards he took to his place and I fucked him in there again while his dog had the front view.
Another time I meet this tall and muscular beefy black guy and went to his place, and after cleanning my love hole I found him in his bed waiting for me
witht his massive tool, and since I haven't been much of a bottom lately it took a little while to make that piece of meat to penetrate me, but once I was
open he just fucked me in some positions that I wish there was a video camera to record it, cause damn!, he just knew how to fucking pound some ass, like if
i was a fucking blow doll, and for so long that i fell at sleep while he was fucking me, and woke me up the next morning with his dick, then he started
fucking me again, and what a great kisser, oh! those big lips and tongue drove me to the edge constantly and after he unload it this giant amount of sperm I
unload it mine and that is what i call starting the day in a good way, mmmm!!. In another night I meet this other guy who was white tall, skinny, shaved
head, goatee, blue eyes and with s butthole to fuck for days non stop, but i fucked only for 2 or 3 hours while watching some bareback porn from the good old
days, good kisser too that mother fucker. and i did it from behind while he was laying down on his side for it is my favorite position to fuck, edging the
whole time, edging means getting closer to cum. Another time i meet with other good neighbor with entusiasm to help other members of the comunity for after
picking me up from this house where i live and taking me to his apartment proceeded to provide me with the best blow job i can remember, and all my ability
for edging was destroyed by such an amazing talent, it was just too much and after 30 minutes my sweet white protein erupted from my cock and was swallowed
by this real trirsty neighbor leaving him with the desire to keep on sucking some cock, but it was really late at night and I had to go to sleep and I can go
on with more and more exciting situations i experienced in this past weeks, but I have to work tomorrow, oh yeah! i forgot to mention that I work part time
as a gardner, believe it or not I just enjoy it big time, and it is some real hard work, (specially on hot days) but it makes me feel so fucking good that
it's been almost 2 months since I started and keeps my body is such good shape that I don't even know what a gym is, I don't play or watch tennis anymore, I
don't watch tv or go to the movies but alsmot made it to see "the Transformers", no more bathouses. The only bad side effect is that i haven't done any photo
shots, songs, journals, apereances at night clubs, interviews, or movies, only I kept doing my webcam shows on saturdays on website where is a moment's time
for me and my world wide fans/electronic lovers only, they get to see me live and direct nude jerk off enjoying myself with myself. But things are already
changing for I already went to this recording studio here in Los Angeles last week and I started with the creation of a new song, also I'm in talks for the
filming of a new movie, hopefully this week I'll take some pics to post on my website, and right now I'm writing and posting this journal also for mt webite,
so I'm feeling so much better, keeping my fans happy is been a priority for the past ten years for sometimes I see my fans as they are Jesus Christ making me
feel never lonely, so my endless gratitud goes to him who i own more then this life of mine.12:27 AM 9/17/2007
issue # 175
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
I am listening to some of my own music as I'm writing a new journal in over a month, and damn! I should listen to my own music more often, cause it sure refills me inside better then any stimulant, making me feel like I'm all I want, I'm all I need, yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!, mmmmmmmmm!, but don't get me wrong!, cause I don't wanna sound like one of those freaks from the AA meetings who are so fucking bitter and know it all, for if they know you are someone that once in a while would drink a beer or do some drug, (not even if is once in a very while) would be totally unacceptable, they'll stop talking to you, they think you are unworthy and a lot less then they are because they want you to be the same or more miserable as they are, they want you to follow every fucking rule of their stupid cult even if it doesn't make sense to them or you, their are just really fucking spooky, dark and very contradicting people. but again!, don't get me wrong!, cause I'm not an alcoholic or being hooked on any drug, actually, I been lately doing the master cleansing diet which consist in getting rid of toxins from your body, spirit and mind, it is sort of a fasting process that includes lemons or limes, cayenne pepper and other non man made stuff and it teaches you how amazing the human body can be, but no fucking way I'm doing the 40 days fasting that Jesus once did, I just do it on my own way, they one that works fine with me, and it clears my body, spirit and mind so much to the point of finding out tons of things like who is my friend and who was not all along, (like these couple of very bitter/judgmental and hypocrites old queens from Portland, OR for example). Discovering that I'm so much better off being alone then in bad company was really revealing, the stress and other negative crap just goes away, but it make you search for things that matter, in my case a place to call home for a long term, so, few weeks ago I went to Portland, OR wanting to find out if there is where I belong, but it took just few days for me to find out that it was not, actually the gay world in there is crumbling down fast, from few gay sex clubs and bathhouses back when I used to live there over 2 years ago is now reduced to just one pathetic bathhouse, it's so sad to see that town became just another one with tons of gay people being content with their rights and freedom taken away that I just had to get the fuck out of there, what a fucking shame!, so I'm still looking around wanting to find that place to be in a long term, just like this new song I created called "Jurando pero no" that I posted online in my website right after my last journal, (over a month ago, and also I photographed myself to update the "photo gallery" of my website), and the result of it was very very very much satisfactory, based on the opinions of some of my people, besides I really fucking love it big time too. Lately I have not been in time for my live web cam shows that I been doing almost every Saturday....., but this last Saturday I was all charged, very on and in time, and as a result I had the record of most viewers ever, FUCK YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!, I have never had so many people watching me have some good time like when I was a fucking horny teenager getting myself off for around an hour, mmmmmmmmmm! and I didn't even had my hair shorter and dark as right now,( I changed my hair yesterday), it was just a gift from heaven since it was done on Saturday, July 7, 2007 which was 7-7-7, a day that won't repeat in another hundred years, WooooooooooooooW!, no wonder I had so much fun doing it!, it actually was my favorite one ever by far, mmmmmmmmmm!!!, maybe because I was thinking of that day over a week ago when I visited this new good looking new acquaintance, in a really summer hot after noon here in Los Angeles and I discovered in his dvd player this movie he made of himself in where he uses this fucking huge dildo to fuck his own amazing stretched out incredible juicy, soft and tender butt hole of his with such a passion that automatically I got the hardest hard on I ever got, it just made my cock turn into a piece of steel, and it did not took too many strokes before I unloaded a real major amount of sperm out of me, that release was so fucking intense that I did not cared for anything else at the time, I just had to released my fucking raging cock, and sure he took it as a real compliment, cause he told me he`would get me some copies, and now I just cannot fucking waiting to get some of his self made porn movies, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!, damn! I need to see more. Such situation with this new acquaintance makes me so fucking excited with the prospect of meeting more and more new people, mmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!, friends change, some of them never were friends, the world change, nano technology is fucking crazy & incredible, the republicans always leave the country all financially destroyed, then the democrats have to rebuild it, LOL, funny but hard to deal with, but........ the great thing from life is that no matter what, if I can remember that Jesus Christ is always there to be reached, then life becomes all magical again, and just life itself is the biggest gift I can ever receive, and acknowledging him as the one giving such a gift by thanking him, makes my senses to intensify to the highest levels, so all the glory and honor to my higher power, the all omnipotent and all mighty Jesus Christ.
issue # 174
Thursday, June 07, 2007
I had never before in the past 9 years that I started writing my journals-bloogs-scoops spent so long without writing one, it's been over a month, but too many unbelieveable
things had happened that didn't gave me the enough desire to do so. Obviously there is not fucking way I can write about everything, but what I think are the most important
ones, let's start with the good ones, like the time I moved out from this roomate who it seems to me he enjoyed too much complicating my life, all those stranges gasses in
that apartment were too much for me, but I stayed in there only for one month, the weakness and dizzyness from the strange gasses together with cluster headheachs and the
endless colonies of bugs and bacterias from that full carpeted apartment were literally fucking killing me, then I found out that he went through tons and tons of different
roomates before me with even on of them suing him who knows for what, and don't really wanna even know what or why, but I do know now that in the past he worked for A
R Research & Referral Group Inc. Social Sciences and Humanities, also for Elkin Weiss and Companies Inc., Medical Asset Managment Inc., into many other spooky jobs, i knew
him as David, but his boyfriend would call him Trevor, so, who knows? and by now I don't give a fuck anyfucking way. I'm so fucking gone from now, thank God!. ButHe was
not the only one that Jesus protected me from, cuz many other coorporations, medical coalitions, and anti human rights groups, were also trying to put me down big fucking
time, but at the end I kept my peace and good health in exchange of me not longer being a porn star and a dissident for HIV FRAUD and other health issues. Right now I'm
extremely close from posting on my website a brand new musical creation of mine, a song that should reflect my past few weeks and present. After getting emails from some
really great people in my life I realized that this planet is all pretty much the same and no were I go there might be the same crap, but, here in LA is just too much for me, that
is why hopefully by the time I'll write my next journal I should be already out of LA, not too easy of a task as it may seem, but I know I can and it may not have to be another
country, even though few weeks ago I stayed at the Holiday Inn located in Silverlake, CA in a Saturday night checking in around midnight when is hard to find availability but
some how not only I got a room but I got some nice discount, little I knew the fucking catch I had to pay for, it was the most fucking horrible situation I ever had in my all
fucking life, the room was a 502 or 508 and it was the closest one to this fucking spooky hopital which for me translate into hellspital, and the sticking feeling in the air of that
room was just too fucking much, so I turned off the Air condictioning but there was still this very cold air still blowing a little bet, so, I unplugged it, but still that sticky really
cold air would not fucking go away, the I covered with the bed covers and I openned that window with a view to that strange building roof, and even after sealing off with duct
tape all of the air and water holes from that room, that very cold sticky air orliquid gas was present, the humidity was bigger then miami after the rain, and then...at one point
everytime I tried reaching with my arms that window I felt some electric shock waves, no matter how many times I tried, and I started to feel so aweful, kind of like dying and
so fucking dizzy that I freaked out and took all I could from my belongings as fast as I could running to the front desk, and sorry! but I was not about to be an unvoluntered
human guinea pig at all, fuck now!, and once donwsntairs in the lobby the guy working there who looked like from Nepal was talking with someone in the phone and when I
heard him saying that the project was interrupted, quickly he moved to the back of the front desk to continues that conversation in a way that I couldn't hear it, it was around 3
AM and my taxi cab finally arrived taking me to someone's place I know near by and for the rest of that night I was very traumatized and in a state of a bad shock, and I still
have nightmares about it, hopefully I was not exposed to anything permanent. But the fucked up thing is that not only I got to go through that, but days later I discover
through my bank that the owner-manager of that Holiday Inn who of course is Indian(from India) tried charging me like 10 times more the prize of that room when I checked
in, making my life even more of a hell, and as today he still won't let go, that is why I'm mentioning this fucked up episode, cause i wasn't gonna, I don't ever want to have to
tell this kinds of situations to no one, no ever!, then like a week after again he tried charging my bank account for like 20 times more of the price of the stay in that hell-room,
and in the most misterious ways, my wallet with the receit of that hotel's stay disapiered making it even more complicated for me. God and the people who knows me well
understand I'm not a racist but somehow it seems to me like there is always people from India and Nepal ( who always are together) trying to make my life hell, i just don't
fucking get it, maybe all the 7 elevens, all the motels and most hotels and most taxi cabs in USA are not enough?, so now they are taking over the healthcare system too?.
Honestly I don't give a fuck what they do as long as they leave me the fuck alone, now everytime I come accross anyone from India or Nepal I just want to run away from
them, and sorry if I sound like a racist but I'm not, I even got gang banged by a group of black men in one of my movies to showed I'm not a racist at all, but what the fuck
can i do?. Days after that I flew to Texas wanting to forget that shit, and just enjoy that invitation from one of my most sweet pigs lovers-fans, and sure he deserves the
fucking pig tittle for sure, yeahhh!, after he picked me up at the airport he took us to his place and after a shower we started with him wanting to fuck my very tight hole, and
yes!, tight for real!, for it hasnt' been fucked much lately since not getting fucked much due to so much crap going on, so instead, I just fucking took control of his fucking
yummy nice shape mushroom cock with my juicy mouth, and we just couldn't have enough of it, then he fucked me some to the point of him unloading some fucking freaky
nice orgasm of sperm deep inside my unfucked for too long love-hole, mmmm!!!, then I followed his request of just sucking his unsatiable dick that was more of my own
pacifier toy then a penis and I kept on playing with it with my lips, tongue, mouth and deep hungry juicy throat, but at some point I had to enter that fucking yummy wide
open and too well trained inviting butt hole of his with my verga(cock) that was just fucking dying for some major action, and from behind while he was laying down on his
side was the way to go, I was edging for the longest, and after taking few breaks and already few hours of being in heaven that night I turned him on his back with his legs on
my shoulders and fucked him in a way that would hit and massage his g-spot on his prostate to the point of him jerking off this nice big load of semen while I literally I fucked
the cum out of him, then I pulled out my cock and came all over his body, mmm!!!!!!!!, talking about some real long time waiting for release, and now that I'm being
transported back into some juicy time, now I need some more fucking action, mmmm!!, maybe a shower and hunting for some fucky fucky would just fucking do it, sorry fuck
buddies and fans, but my electronic book organizer broke and have no way to contact you, so, some fresh new meat is being required soon!!!, yesssss!, as part of my farewell
from Los Angeles, now it's time to stretch out this botom love hole of mine back to the fullest potential, OINK!,and make my cock be in pain from so much fucking action, and
... of course... I'm thanking my Jesus Christ for being inside my heart as my eternal boyfriend, the best one I could ever ask for, cause instead of being jelouse he sure seems
to be very glad I love-connect-fuck with others in the most loveable ways as possible, him loving me just the way is the best way for me as I feel.
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. BTW as soon as I can replace my logitech webcam for some other brand I should be able to photograph my current self, but not
being all oiled up right after fucking, tried that few days ago and sure it did not worked out quite as well as I thought. Life is so fucking good!.
issue # 173
Friday, April 27, 2007
I apoligize to everybody for what I wrote earlier, that was a total mistake of mine for such does do not speak well and give power to Jesus christ over any attackers, I'm gonna have to start making some changes in my day's routine, so I can cope better with any challenge, just like the Williams in tennis, butin a few days I'll write about this new fetish I wound last week, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!, damn!
issue # 172
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Today Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007 It's been one week since I turned 32 years old, but i feel like 21, which is the age of one of my two co-stars from my last movie scene I filmed few weeks ago. On the day before my birthday I played tennis for the first time this year, (Serena Williams keeps inspiring me), it felt so fucking good that afterwards I even worked out my legs, and after a shower this rad friend of mine drove us for shopping on the way to Palm Springs and, we slept there in some hotel, and woke up on my birthday in Palm Springs, nothing crazy at all, just shopping and hanging out with my pal and his doggy, then we drove back to Los Angeles. On the day after my B day I worked out my chest, and I'm all ready to be back to the gym often, like in the good old fucking times. The day after, on Thursday I moved into this new apartment here in Los Angeles, CA, and spent the next following days cleaning, placing, organizing it, and by now I feel at home, and this new roommate was not a friend or an acquaintance like the one before, and sure it seems better this way because in there I even lost the hard drive from my notebook computer, but this new home have more giga bites any fucking way and was not working right also. 3 days ago on Saturday , I did my web cam show as every Saturday like in the past few weeks, and reaching finally some real consistency about not missing my shows on my website, besides they are tons of fun for me. After that web cam show i was kind of called to duty at the "Slammer", which is some real fun sex club here in LA, and it was packed with lots of horny men that were walking, fuking and sucking around, mmm! heaven?, I just went for the glory holes, yeahhh!, at some point I had this really tall white blond german guy pull out his fucking big and long cock to be sucked by my hungry throat and introduced it inside my juicy and warm rectum, also I got fucked by some hot muscle black guy, and by another muscular asian guy with some decent size and very fucking hard cock, but at one point there was this guy with a hot mustache and really tight jeans that were holding this monster hard cock, and sure it was once he unzipped his jeans and pull it out, I sucked and stick it in my butt hole quite few times in those 40 minutes we played, mmm!, then I had this blond stocky blond guy fucking me through a glory hole, and later on I fucked him and dumped my load insie his already abused and inviting fucking sweet ass hole, and now I should get ready to go have some fun at Beige, my favorite nightclub here in Los Angeles. May Jesus Christ allow me to be the best I can be and always keep me the closest to him as possible.
Issue # 171
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
On Wednesday morning, March 7, 2007 I went to LAX airport to catch a first class flight to Texas and meet with this really cool guy who wanted to meet me in person for 4 years as he said, (and showed), so it made me want him to meet me in person too, soon after arriving to Texas I went to some big local leather store and he got me a fucking hot leather uniform, a total new one like I have never used before, MMM! ouuuuu!!!!, ( I should do a photo shot with), mmm!!!, then we went to the local organic Whole Foods to prepare for what it could be a long physical night, and sure it was fucking long&fun cause what a fucking good cock sucking job he does!, takes directions with tons of real fucking pleasure, so I just fucking surrendered to some real new role play. Dying to fucking try some new way of sex, I found it, but no, it was not me fucking a female in any scene for any movie, I looked around and noticed some European porn into this new clothed sex trend, for it can be really fucking cold but sure that can still make it to be so really fucking hot, a brand whole new way that turns me on so much, more I never knew. Once inside his big home, we showered and got ready, he I was done I walked down stairs to the porn room were he was waiting for me, and I showed up all in leather from head to toes, including a leather hut, only my cock and butt hole where nude, and we really enjoyed too much playing all night that way, so much fun that 2 days later, on Friday, March 9, 2007, I went to Lax and took a flight to San Diego in a small airplane that feels you are on a trip with your family, so I slept good. George from SX Video picked me up one hour later at that United Airlines commute area exit and after getting new tennis shoes on the way to SX Video's studios, and few other things I needed for my scene in this new movie called "Sleazers ll" (or something like that). And of course it was my very first full clothing sex ever to be filmed and second one not being filmed, I did not created the trend but sure I's like to put it out, anytime would be fucking great. The were these two real hot guys dressed in security uniforms with their fucking full erected penis unzipped in each side of my face's chics and my position was on my knees while being photographed by Rodrigo, a brand new fucking great photographer, and between takes I could not take it and I was sucking them all I could, and the 21 year old's cock from Michigan had a real fucking thick beer can fucking mean tool. The story for this scene was about them finding me sleeping on top of these strippers/gogoboy's pedestals and after getting real close to me they noticed the hole in the back of my tight black jeans and one of them introduced their security sticks inside my butt hole and I woke up, and I started to move my butt hole with pleasure, it was a major fucking hot & new fucking feeling to know I was gonna get fucked by them both in more then one position in a whole new way, they even double fucked me so fucking good, unfortunately Gary and this 2 kids did not understood this clothing sex fettish that it's been around since the late 1960's because few minutes after the scene started they fucking took off their uniforms, but maybe some day I'll get to do it %100 the right way, still I was content and fucking happy for being only my first attempt of it on film. After one of them ejaculated in my mouth and face, the other one with his real thick monster cock fucked me all he could until he just released that fucking load inside my really fucking abused butt hole, cause sure I took those fuckers like a fucking mancunt, and after using me to get a load off them, the one with the thickest cock told me to get the fuck out soon or the'll comeback to fucking use me again, and as they were leaving I started jerking off and had some amazing fucking major orgasm shooting a fucking nice load all over my black tight jeans, falling this way to fall at sleep again on this strippers/go-go boys's pedestal, (of course!). Few hours later in that evening I flew back to LA, CA. Lately I been having some retarded attempts to comeback into using my personal computer that now have a brand new internal hard drive because they one I had for the past years is gone, I lost it over a week ago, so also I been looking for a different place to live, maybe still here in LA or maybe Portland, OR, or who knows?. Also I wanna celebrate my soon to be birthday performing that night live a new song in some really cool gay bar for my east coast fans, as usual. NYC may really need me at Stonewall this year, but they will get right tickets from the cops for indecent sexual behaviors, and also it seems like now days cops in NYC are trying to catch scoulpers drug dealers only in gay so they can close it down, but not with straights bars, so what the fuckl?, where the fucking is Hillary Healthcare Clinton doing in NY politics for gays?, good I'm not republican or democrat or have any political title. But them getting rid of the legendary Roxy where I did my very first birthday musical show in the year 2000 was too fucking much!. Somehow my life is being very challenging lately, I did not know that my beliefs about certain fraud can cost my privacy more then I ever dreamed, sometimes i feel like a puppet, and is like a roller coaster like the ones in the fairgrounds, it takes you all the way down and all the way up, constantly, mmm!, and that explains why I rather not taking the mechanical ones, like also I'm not interested in being part of any Tally ho games or being one of their llamas, LOL, people who show a personality to the world of the Internet that is not their real one, never really was my thing, besides, by now I'm used to being the way I'm, so take note all of you freaky modern money mercenaries, that Jesus, his mother and angels are with me. Was it a dream that healthnet.com or/with other similar pharmaceutical companies keep on trying to bring me down because of my belief there is a huge fraud?, how those bets are doing?, how many people took notice that only a very short period of time passed between the famous Ana Nicole Smith confessed in an interniew on TV about never taking those fucking diet pills and got paid a lot for it and her dead?, and even more fucked up is that media wont talk or repeat that interview's broadcasting. But thank God most people still use their common sense still, even if they ignore my protector who I live for, the one I mention at the end of my journals, FUCK SI!, Jesucristo es mi novio! that gives me my best self.
issue # 70
Sunday, February 11, 2007
As the days go by I can see more and more all the possibilities of me feeling good with myself by myself, and then I don't feel the need to change anyone, and accept people just like they are. Finally I posted a new song on my web site!!!, it's called "Rocky", and I created it in memory of the coolest porn star and co-star I have ever meet, It fucking took so much out of me, feeling his energy all around me making me do this song, what to say in it, and even where to write the lyrics, (which
was at the San Vicente Inn where I have a special pass), very weird, it was like I had not choice, and some people might think that revenge drove me to it, but honestly it wasn't, he was my favorite co-star from the fucking shrinking condom porn,(he only did porn with condoms), he was so fucking nice that became naive, the perfect kind of victim for the fucking huge monster medical group, I believe they kill him very slowly, who knows what the fuck they injected him with, probably with chemo and/or AZT, to the point of making him to develop lymphoma's, hospitalized for the period of over 6 months, it seems that he took his last breath around Jesus's birthday last year. But finally this song is out, and by now I feel lots of relief. The combination of actions between electronic and human cell's can bring such a fascinating product such as creating
a song, and I don't create songs with the intention of making money, it would fucking ruin them, that is why still is the only free access to my electronic house, and I have never dreamed of any Grammy or any awards other then people enjoying my songs, and actually some do!, fucking WOW!. Some people might think that this new song "Rocky" was driven by revenge, but no, it was not at all. 2 Saturdays nights ago i dressed my leather chaps, red jockstrap, leather boots, harness and jacket and some friends picked me up and we went to the local leather bar "Eagle" here in Los Angeles, and had some real good time just hanging with them for around an hour, very different night club then "Beige" where I went few days earlier with this new friend Joseph who invited me for diner, it was fucking yummy!, we also cruised that place filled with lots of yummy specimens, damn!, such a fucking nice eye candy time, but the real fucking candy was the other day when I meet this fuck buddy/fan with benefits of mine of years, fuck!, I just love fucking that love-hole while watching some bareback porn and spend hours just going for it, mmm!!!, it's fucking eternal heaven to penetrate his love-hole with my hands, dildo, foot, but for the most part with my fucking never satisfied dick in and out of that beyond generous man-butt- hole of his, forgetting about space and time. Last week I also had another long fucking session too, but with a brand new very giving butt hole, and he was very good looking, great blond hair(but no the gay-army cut), muscular, sexy, and masculine in addition of being a real fucking pig, yeahhhhhhhh!!!, all the fucking right ingredients, he sucked my pacifier for as long as I wanted, and fucked his ever hungry incredible yummy and stretched out mangina to die for also as long as I demanded, so fucking nice, such a juicy ass hole that was already fucking lubricated with other man's sperm from before i arrived, he was able to just fucking take my taco-verga(cock) for the fucking longest, a real %100 fucking bottom that very well deserved that fucking tittle for fucking sure, damn!, and him being so fucking submissive only made that fucking encounter extra sweet. Last Thursday night I went to "Tigerheat" which is a club for 18 and over guys, and it was fucking cool until this tall black so fucking annoying security guy called Simon kept annoying me as usual with the VIP bullshit wrist band to the point of making me leave that fucking club and not wanting to never ever go back there, so it would have to be "Rage" if I want some twinky club on Thursdays, and thanks to the guys from "Cock/Block" for mailing me their exclusive membership card, mmm! glad I was qualified, and sure I cannot fucking wait for the February 18Th party, sounds like a lot of hot sex with hot guys a la Europe = bingo!, I hope I can fucking make it, si carajo!!!. 2 days ago on Saturday at 6PM PST I went live to the world through my web cam, no interruptions at all, perfect Internet connection, awesome lighting, and fucking great set up, I just really enjoyed big fucking time, just me naked jerking my fucking hard verga(cock) for an hour, I was only wearing my leather harness. Very, very soon I should be doing a photo shot with some real amazing photographer, about time!. Sorry guys that lately I'm not performing my own music live all over the night clubs like I used to, but I really don't feel like traveling anymore like I used to, so, I hope God makes a miracle and gives me back that passion so I can go to NYC at the end of March to celebrate my 32ND birthday like I usually do, but sure I believe in miracles since they happen to me all the fucking time, and fuck yeah indeed!. Hopefully Jesus Christ will keep being what the KOG is for the UK people, but only a lot more, for he is all omnipotent and to him I own it all and live for.
issue # 69
Monday, January 29, 2007
I think I had a really fucking crazy dream not long ago, it was about the reason and fixing way of the current weather situation all over this planet, really fucking weird cause some how I saw Rocky(porn star) turning into a star of fire in became part of the sun that was make out of all the brightest people that ever lived on planet earth. amd he was sending a message that the space, the sun, the space and everything in it like the planets is what we are, and when we die our physical side becomes part of the ground here on earth earth and of many other material things, but the energy part of humans called soul, spirit, conscience and so and so goes to either space or sun, depending in what kind of life we lived on earth, the sun losing itself or leaving because the little attraction to a planet that seems to be filled with the opposite of what the sun is made of, creating this current weather. And sure it sounds like an episode of that tv show "The twilight zone" cause the world not having enough shinning stars bright positive loving people is the reason for the sun to become burned out or go away from earth is not too scientific but then again since this life we are living have us always connected by the material with the energy, then it might not be so fucked up, yeah right!, LOL. I'm really going fucking nuts, and for sure in my dreams, like the way I felt when I watched Serena Williams win the Australian Open, but at 25 years old most people accomplish the most, cause still when you are about to be 32 like me you can still accomplish things like the creation of a new song, like the one I'm working on, and for sure it's been taking lots out me to make it, like I died and resurrected few times in the process. No more bathhouses stories for a while, I'm enjoying winter and doing my part for a fucking change, it's a wonderful life fucking awesome when we can change it often in so many kind of ways, and trusting & working for my protector Jesucristo is the ultimate reward I have ever experienced.
issue # 68
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
I started this year, 2007 learning more then I could ever imagined, and I just cannot fucking explain it at all to anyone, to anyone, but sure it is really very fascinating because understanding something that did not make sense for so long took tons of stress out of me. I do not longer work out at the gym anymore so I do not longer have a buff body, so it's been few months since I have a very slim, cut up and well defined body that for some people included me fucking love it cause it seems like it took off few years from me, and others don't like it because they are into muscle buff bodies or they presume that I'm sick or something which is not the case. I switched from a PC computer to a MAC but now days I'm giving up on owning a personal computer, is just that I realized that I couldn't let a fucking machine take control of me and the time that is so fucking short in this life, so instead I'm enjoying life a lot more, which is the main reason for me to not write this journals more often, so I officially apologise to all of my fans for it, and i hope they know that I wouldn't forget them, that is why I been doing my live webcam shows that now days it's me fucking some fuck buddies of mine, or rarely me getting fucked, it feels like doing a mini porn, lots of close ups of cock sliding into some fucking hot juicy, warm and hungry hole, mmmm!!, I just fucking get off a lot being an exibicionist transmiting to my fans all over this planet, and that is a priority for me even that sometimes I miss a show here and there, and it'sbeen moved to 6PM PST (only through my website). Now days I'm meeting and connecting with lots of new people, and still working on some ideas that hopefully soon should materialise into some creations that I can post on my electronic casa. I'm still living in Hollywood, CA but I never know when that can change, and I really don't feel like traveling that much at all even that I'm gonna have to push myself to do it at least for my birthday cumin up in around 2 months hopefully in NYC. And this is the part in where I have to say that it may be truth or fiction the following that you are about to read............ "in the last few hours of the year 2006 I was in line outside this local gay bathhouse here in Los Angeles with this ex-fuck buddy of mine that few days before I fucked for around 4 hours non stop, he is or looks a lot like some real famous actor, and that night I kind of ignored him for my very hungry love holes were so very hungry and demanding taking all kind of cocks and loads of sperm, making the sperm of all of these man go dripping down my legs, at some point I broke my record of size cock taking an around 12 inches cock from this 6'7 tall balck man and I had to stand on top of the bed in order to fit the level of his cock into my butt hole, and sure it was good that he did not took more then around 15 minutes to get me fucking pregnant cause sure it was really fucking challenging, but I took it like a real fucking macho man, and of course I kept on taking quite few other more cocks, mainly there was latin and black ones in this particular bathhouse, then in the early first morning of this fucking amazing 2007 this very famous actor or look alike famous actor took us for breakfast at Dennys and then we went to sleep together and started this new year together, but no romance, no fucking way!. I fucking enjoy way too much getting fucked, pregnant and inpregnating other man to get stocked with just one, too many fucking horny hot man for me!, And from now and on whatever you are about to read is confirmed to be truth"............It's been just fucking awesome to discover stuff that I cannot even explain and no one could ever guess, too complex,but is just making a lot of differnce in my life and for the better, I'm enjoying my life a lot more then ever before, not being controled by a fucking machine anymore made it for sure, and I have to thank my higher power Jesus Chirst for that and all the glory for him from me always and I keep on having faith in him that there is the best eternity that I can not even begin to imagine for me after this short life cause sure I like thinking what eternity means, and too bad for the ones who won't get a fucking clue.
issue # 67
Thursday, December 21, 2006
One of my favorites, or my favorite co star ever won't be able to reached in person anymore, Rocky died few weeks ago, but still lives in mine and many other's heart and more then ever actually. and long after still he will live forever in "Palmer's Lust", for me he is not dead at all, I just won't see him much as usual and sure I can feel his energy around me as I write this because I remember how much he really liked me, no other porn star liked me more then him. So please my fans if you or anyone you love unfortunately ends up in the hospital please make sure they understand that you are straight, have a girlfriend and a baby, and all that straight fantasy crap like you hate sex, and only do it with your girlfriend cause you are scared to catch hiv, bla bla and all they want to hear, please trust me in this one!, I don't see people working in sex being too wellcomed into the hospitals, be way extra careful with any kind of hospital or clinic and watch out for those injections that can develop into dead within half a year.
issue # 66
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
I'm experiencing happiness in some really new&improved ways, anticipating & directing my only life better then ever before because with the addition of living in the moment & having tons of fun every minute of it, mucho sexo!, so, come on!, what the fuck!, I am the one who gets to be Jeff Palmer! fuck yeahhh man!!, feeling a lot more fucking confident then ever and is only getting better, asking and listening before talking but I don't give a fuck what people's perception of me are, results is what counts to me, so I just fucking love to be out and be recognized every day of my fucking amazing life, specially recognized by hot horny guys, oh yes!! I'm often meeting&connecting with tons of all kinds of new people, fucking OINK!, I'm becoming more and more empowered as time goes by, to the highest levels of efficiency, serving my higher power energy Jesus Christ, (happy birthday boyfriend!), his HS now controls me and I'm falling in love more and more with this fucking perfect energy, never felt less lonely in my life and he is showing me all kinds of unbelieveable hidden tools & formulas. The HS's control over me started a day or two before my last journal, he gets rid of fear, worries, stress, and so many other fucked up feelings out of me. Now I imagine & see what to do and with the right timing, acquiring a new strength of instincts to know when someone is being really truthful and i know what i just said MAY sound really fucking insane to some people out there all over this planet, so I apologize to them, I'm sorry for making you feel that way so please do not fucking come back to read anything else I write ever again, thank you very fucking much!. What you are about to read might be truth or fiction, real fans always know best!, ............"one fucking day all of the sudden I was in this private man's club here in Los Angeles, CA and in there was a bunch of fucking hot horny man fucking and getting fucked, so, I was naked within minutes of entering that place and my skill full butt hole was already very fucking clean and well fucking lubricated with a prostate attached to it that was fucking dying to be rubbed the right way by the most cocks as possible, all kinds of shapes and sizes were well cum, the only fucking requirement was to have a fucking generous amount of fucking sperm to fucking feed my fucking starving love holes of mine, and my very fucking ready cock of mine was already fucking pre cuming with some fucking major anticipation. It was way too fucking hard to remember or count them all. I started walking and I saw this fucking handsome guy, he followed me and invited me inside to one of those much fucking pleasant full mirrors rooms, it looke like he was in his mid 30's, white, blonde, blue eyes, muscular beefy fucking hot body with some very inviting ass hole already filled up and lubricated with some other man's sperm, damn!, he knew I was Jeff Palmer because he acted nervous when he first saw me there, and admiting it was the very first thing he said to me, really fucking awesome!, and instantly he made my cock to be rock hard and with his well fucking talented juicy fish mouth&throat, and right away my fucking cock full of cum went inside his fucking exquisite butt hole already fucking filled up with other man's sperm, it felt like heaven, I fucked it for the longest as I could while watching every angle through those mirrors, but his fucking bubble butt was too fucking pleasant and my balls were so fucking huge and begging to just fucking eject already some fucking major first load of semen, so I shot that fuckikng load of cum deep inside him, mmmm!, got him so fucking pregnant then George Michael in a fucking gay public area at night, then I went for a shower and soon after he started to fuck my over heated fucking culo
caliente ( ass in heat ) in a way that we could even fucking see clearly his fucking nice thick white cock going all the way in and out of this hungry rectum of mine, we tongue kissed like fucking crazy, and that probably was what made him fucking ejaculate only after around 30 minutes a fucking river of sperm filling me up me really fucking good, wow!, and his fucking balls where like 3 times bigger then mine, so once my butt hole received that ultimate fucking lubrication made of pure clean fresh semen, I kept adding more and more, specially in that fucking steam room where I just removed the towels from this good looking guy's waist, he looked in his late 30's seating there with his fucking raging and hard as a fucking rock thick cock and with out anyone saying one word I just fucking seated on it and started riding it but it only lasted like 5 minutes because because then he fucking downloaded his first fucking huge raw ejaculation deep inside my fucking love hole while sucking this other guy's cock that was also ejaculating at the very same time my other hole was being filled too, so I just fudcking had both love holes of mine filled up at the same fucking time with mucho esperma, (later on that night the guy fucking my butt hole performed the best encore I ever had with his really fucking huge thick cock with kind of pointy end, like a pine kind of, mmm!!!, very fucking hairy too), then this other guy who watched all of that invited me over for a little walk and right in one of those alley's walk ways he lifted my towel from behind and just fucking sticked his really fucking hard like a fucking rock penis inside my extra fucking juicy&warm butt hole, and not even a couple of minutes after he was breeding me shooting his cum deep inside of me, that night I kept on collecting on so many fucking loads, fucking OINK! and there were few guys in their very early 20's fucking me and me fucking them like there is no tomorrow, dumping loads in me as wel like this 21 tall black perfect face, body and cock guyl, In that place I also fucked some other exquisite stretched out & juiced up cum holes avoiding the tight ones, I was the best samaritan attending all kinds of well flavored cocks and ass races in need because I fucking made sure to have at least one latin, one black, white and one asian cock and/or ass holes, I sucked&swallowed dicks&sperm, I had all the fucking ass I could, my never satisfying verga (dick) was fucking raw penetrating one delicioso man's hole after the other and unloading inside two of those quite few man raw butts while most people here in Los Angeles, CA were sleeping. Several hours later after a good fucking shower, food and rest I dealt with some errands and other things, and afterwards I even had time to meet with this guy who had requested meeting me in person few days earlier, and he seemed very stunned to see me and meet me in person and for me it was so fucking awesome to see that, totally fucking got off!, after our meeting we decided that we wanted to know each other better and sure we fucking did cause few minutes after that decision he was sucking my rock hard cock for the fucking longest time, until his jaw was fucking numb, then he fucked me from with some real fucking passion, and few different positions, and some fucking great wet friction with so much of his fucking precum inside my raw hole, he tried fucking me last for a long time but just couldn't and fucking went for it and spermed me nice and deep inside my wanting more anal cavity. Sure there was quite few other man I fucked with that night but it will take way too fucking long to fucking explain them as well, so now the part of my journal that can be true of fiction is ending right now and what you are about to read is confirmed by me to be true"....... Now days I'm talking with few gay bareback porn companies and seeing which one should be the one to do my very next fucking movie with, but at the right timing, also a week ago I meet here in Los Angeles, CA ( where I still live) with Lee from Leestudiosnyc.com, he took some fucking real ravishing photos of the current me, hopefully a lot sooner then
later some of them should make it on my website, fucking hurry up Lee! and te amo Lee!. Even that I missed a couple of my live webcam shows still I managed to do one few days ago on Saturday December 16 of this ending 2006 year at 4 PM PST, and one of my friend's thick cock made it into that fucking exciting live sex show fucking my hole for almost half an hour with great close ups but he kept on getting too close to ejaculate many times, (those online close ups looked so fucking hot!), and after getting off inside my world wide live web butt hole I fucking jerked myself off for another 20 minutes and then I had some fucking real full filling live world wide orgasm. Lately I got some fucking amazing ideas to hopefully turn them into reality, but now this fucking journal of mine is cuming to an end but wishing to write another one again the sooner then later, if my higher power energy Jesus Christ decide it that way, submitted only to him is my best reality ever, fuck yeah I say!.
issue # 65
Monday, December 04, 2006
Today I'm so happy and grateful now that... I know what I want from life, I know my potential to feel good so I asking no one to be different so that i can feel good, everything is going well for me, I'm optimistic, I'm healthy, I want to keep creating more music and perform it live, I want to keep doing movies and be a director one day, I'm stress free, I'm working out once or twice a week, I'm wiser, I enjoy all the energy around me, I want honesty from my people, I see only the best of my life, I keep on learning every day, my goal in life is to be the most successful adult entertainer in the history of pornography, I have faith in Jesus Christ who is my only lover/partner and higher power, and I'm extremely grateful to him for me being me Jeff Palmer.
issue # 64
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
I know there is some people wondering how I’m really doing now days, so, stop reading if you already know I’m doing well. This gentleman I know called me today and we spent around over hour and a half just having some real exciting time, (specially when asked to give him a hand, mmm!), very intense!, mmm! just thinking about it makes my stick want for more love dovey holes, but I got to go to sleep soon tonight bcause last night my banana was also fucking sliding in and out of this monkey’s mouth and love hole in West Hollywood, yeah!, I’m making up for all the past year being secluded and now I'm going out to "Beige", other clubs, meet new people, and all about my new freedom, I know my current roommate here in LA since 1996, we never had sex and doesn’t bother me rumors I heard of being otherwise. No time, not care for belonging to one man if he is into the monogamy bull shit crap that is 2 guys fucking around on each other without getting caught, never admitting it or game over, and blame the technology not me, endless new ways for men to connect, mmm! easier, faster, more often, that man fucking with this man, and that guy, here, and there, everywhere, all the time, always a new cock, new ass, daaaamn!, my new diet!, mucho satisfaction for my cazzo. I’m sooooooo thankful to my 1 & only eternal boyfriend Jesus Christ who woke me up from some weird dream, mmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!! Life is so fucking good now! just by using the reason’s why my God resurrected I get the ultimate protection ever, even if the HIV Fraud machine tries to frame me into being a child molester or some kind of guy with some other fucked up thing like manipulating my DNA or genes, or even try to kill me. So, under the all mighty name of Jesus Christ I order any evil force to stop intruding my life and to never return, under the mightiest name of Jesus Christ, giving this way meaning to the reasons of his sacrifice for us humans.
issue # 163
Sunday, November 26, 2006
fuck yeahh!, finally this fucked up year is over!. There is so much fucking strange stuff going on in my life, way too many fucked up people in Los Angeles, CA., thinking they are so fucking cool for trying to put others down in the most bizarre ways, LOL, really though town for who is strong and smart, keeping myself really quite about lots of thing I have learned lately. I really feel like I'm finally enjoying some few new ways of living, doing a lot of walking around this town like if I was in NYC, and as result my waist size is now smaller, lost body fat, no gas, no pollution and no insurance or mechanich problems for me, so there yu go Jacky! (and tell me with who you hang out and i tell you who you are), also this week I went back to the gym, tanning, and looking for a new studio to make some new music, hopefully in few days I'll do a new photoshot too. Yesterday Saturday I did my live webcam show at this friend's apt. and started with his hard thick cock going in and out of my hungry and very soft and tender butt hole, he fucked my for around 30 minutes while he was edging/holding his cum the whole time, damn!, it looked fucking hot on the screen, and soon after he finally ejaculated in my ass hole i jerked off a nice load of cum of my own, mmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!, it was my first ever llive sex webcam show, hopefully I'm not spoiling my people cause I think they are like my butt hole and cock, always want some more!.
(The following that you'll read can be real or can be fiction, I cannot confirm it, this is a free country but not too free for total freedom of speech with out negative consequences)... One evening the other day I was so fucking horny and with out a computer or real friends and so fucking horny, so?, time for church!, yeah! I went the fucking local gay bath house!, mmm!, damn! i couldn't take my clothes off fast enough to go find that hot black guy that I saw as I was entering that house of sex, once i found him I pulled this fucking huge 9 inches thick black cock from under his towel all hard rock erected and I just lifted that towel, turned around and introduced deep inside my juiced up butt hole and he started fucking me from behind while standing up and me bending over some, and after like 5 minutes he dumped his big load inside my rectum, and it look like he just came out of jail cause he was full of cum, major fucking tsunami of sperm inside of me and this albino hairy blond very muscular man saw us and once the black guy's turn was over then this other guy took advantage and made his cock find the way into my the ocean of cum inside my love hole and fucked me as well dumping his load as well, and kept on walking around hunting this time for a butt hole nastier or as nasty as mine to just fuck and feel that fucking awesome friction of skin2skin with lots of sperm in between, and sure I found these smooth latin boys laying on their stomach taking one after another cock, I fucked every fucking stretched out abused fill of cum butt hole i could find, and of course I paid some attention to their bodies and faces, that night I fucked, got fucked a lot (included by some few monster huge cocks), sucked&got sucked mucho!, ate cum from both holes to my heart's content, enjoying the best out of life, yeahhh! "fucking raw sex", love can be deceiving, hurt you, make you lose time and personal dreams because is blind most always, and no one to blame because we are talking about another fucking horny sexual male like me and you, and I could go on and on with other hot stories but no time with all the shit I got to do now days. So it seems to me that giving my soul, spirit, heart, mind, body and all that makes me to the mightiest energy was my most wise decision ever, belonging now to the king of kings and lord of lords Jesus Christ, should give me the ultimate protection and the happiest road to take as my guide i trust in him one thousand percent.
issue # 162
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Hey people!, sorry that took me so long to write in this journal of mine but been too busy living life, mmmm! it's been just fucking awesome lately, being single is getting better as the days goes by, I don't go to the computer science classes anymore, the online world is a little too fucking spooky for me right now, my comuter was attached and need to fix it, I'm changing my emails, phone numbers and all that, there is already some cool folks wanting to help me out with it, mmmm! maybe I'll feel afterwards like I own them a good fuck?, mmmmm!. I'm still living at Bob's apt. here in Hollywood, who I know for many years, and very greatful to him, but I'm already looking around for some change, some new cool place to live. I'm working now days in my next movie, doing my next webcam shows on Saturdays, maybe a new phøtoshot?, re locating myself into another city?, no fucking clue yet, now days my life is just fucking fine and wondeful, and very soon I should post another journal, a real kinky one cause today I don't have much time and had to post this here. Lately my life has changed, I learned a lots of things that I keeping in secret, sorry!, but being unfairly framed is not in one of my things to do list because Jesus Christ exists can really kick HIV FRAUD MACHINE's ass, that is why I'm always thankful to my God Jesus Christ, The HIV/FRAUD machine might be trying to put my body, but not my legacy.
issue # 161
Monday, October 23, 2006
Last Thursday i was so excited for getting some real high scores at the school, that I celebrate it by going to some local gay bathhouse here in LA, and it was past midnight but there was plenty of pigs wanting what I was wanted, one I was in my room I got naked and went out for a walk and found this muscular shaved head tattoo guy and he invited me inside his room, his nipples were huge and yummy, his cock was nice and thick with some metal cockring and he fucked me for the longest while we could see each other in those huge mirrors and it was better then watching porn, after a long while he dumped his seed inside my butt hole, really fucking good, then ass soon as I saw this really fucking other fucking hot muscular and soft pig in his late 30's who passed by my room I automatically invited him into my room and I just fucked him silly for the longest, he fucked me too and I kept on fucking him, completely total fucking flip flop fuck, he was such fucking good kisser, we could not stop kissing and fucking like pigs, we even invited this other guy who was muscular but he didn't care much for him, then again i went walking around and right next door there was this black guy with some fucking nice juicy erected grande penis and of course I went inside and sucked it and installed it deep inside my ass, he was quite good looking, fucked me really hard and dumped some really fucking big load deep inside me, then, I took off and saw this really tall, hairy and skinny guy in his room with his legs up and he was such a fucking pig about it that I had to fucked him for a little while at least, and then I found the best looking guy I have ever seen and ever fucked me, I think he was a porn star or some hot-perfect-bisexual because damn!, his face, his bodybuilder hairy body, and his fucking cock was just way too fucking much and there he was in his room just jerking off all by himself, so he invited me, I cum in close the room's door and few seconds after I turned around and offered him my butt hole and because it was already fucked and open and filled with other man's sperm he fucking went crazy fucking me really fucking hard from behind, right in front of those mirrors i saw live these big hairy bodybuilder fucking me, so fucking good! got fucked by the hottest guy i ever seen, and after like 20 minutes of that position he laid me in his bed with my legs up while all of this huge hairy pecs and muscles was on top of me just pounding my beyond submitted and the happiest love hole ever, and after receiving a fucking huge deposit of his semen inside my ultra hungry slut hole was fucking fantastico, some of my best ones ever. I thanked him and kept on walking and I saw the second guy of that night,( the flip flop fuck) and of course we did some more flip flops for another good long while, then I went to my room and soon after I had a young la latin visitor with some really hard cock full of sperm that ejaculated inside my mouth after 10 minutes of me sucking it, then I went out of my room and I saw this room with the door open and this guy laying down on his stomach, sunny side up, and he butt hole was already abused and filled with others man's sperm and he looked like a cholo or a mexican gangster, tattoos, very fucking macho, and i fucked him for the longest time but I kept on being on the edge and getting close to cum too many times, so I stopped and went to my room and in there I had another visitor, he was the Brazilian guy who fucked me years ago who used to fuck me in the bathhouses, and his cock was way fucking thick, one of the thickest I know, and he fucked me really fucking good and after breeding me with his semen I went to the shower and the Jacuzzi, then I went back to the cholo guy and fucked him again, this time he had more cum inside his ass hole then before and turned me on so much that I only lasted around 15 minutes, wishing I could do it for 10.000 minutes ejaculation long. Finally around 5 am I went home and watched some hot porn on the Internet and jerked off thinking of all the fucking hot sex I just had in just few hours before and how fucking hot it was, so fucking intense!, last Friday I was too fucking tired from such fucking big sex marathon and took it easy did not go out, and on Saturday I was energized and ready for a good web cam Show. I asked this acquaintance of mine R who's just so fucking cool that makes me want to be his boyfriend or really good friend, cause letting me use his place and cam was so fucking awesome, the show went really god, not dildo or ass shot this time, I jerked off from 3:52 PM PST to 4:52 PM PST and got off in this furniture's glass desk with glass and moving the camera around was the best fucking thing, then we meet with one of his friends who reminded me of my ex lover papito, LOL, too fucked up funny!, and 3 of us went for diner, we had a reservation at "Numbers" which is the only restaurant in LA for sugar daddies and their boys, LOL, it was so fucking weird because non of us are sugar daddies, well, maybe one, it actually wasn't that bad, the place is like the 70's with amazing food and service, fucking hot guys, terrible DJ, and cool terrace, and fucking awesome! 2 C my good old friend Victor in there, then we went to Ultra Suede and I just fucking danced my ass off, was just feeling way too good, and my friend R was there on the side of the dance floor just watching me dance and being very cool by just mainly looking at me only to the point of making it look like he was my boyfriend and then of course the same all same that always happens to me, some guy without T short started flirting, dancing, just going for my friend R's attention thinking he was stealing my boyfriend, it was just funny to me, and after dancing until 3 AM we both took off and went back to his apartment in WeHo and went to sleep, i was too fucking tired to play around, so, nothing happened other then making out earlier on a little bet. The next morning Sunday 22, (yesterday) he took me back home here in Hollywood and I ate, and took off to meet these guys, one of them I hooked up with him before and he contacted me to make me fuck his friend who is all fucking tied up and blind folded, first he sucked my cock making it really fucking hard and when I started fucking his hole i noticed that it was already filled with so much sperm, that feeling inside, mmm. so typical of a soft and tender texture of sperm inside a raw ass, and after around 15 minutes they told me that I was free to shoot my load whenever I wanted cause there were other guys lined up to come by, his butt was really fucking abused already, then, I went back home and did some more homework for school and then I went to the San Vicente Inn and FUCK YEAHHHH!, it was fucking fiesta time!, I meet with this guy cumin from Palm Springs around 7 PM, once inside his room I made him suck my cock and he made hard and I started fucking him right away, then I took off my clothes and went walking around and saw this shaved head buff muscular bottom smooth boy with a big fucking mangina and I just fucked him really good, then I kept on walking and saw this guy that looked Brazilian but he was not with blue eyes and a fucking nice cock that I sucked for a good 20 minutes, then I went out to meet this guy I came with and fucked him really good for another 20 minutes or so and this guy showed up at the door that was open and I invited him to share my friend's ass and he fucked my friend with his fucking big cock, we both kept going back and forward with his ass, taking turns and sharing while tongue kissing desperately, fucking nuts!, then he just dumped his load inside his ass and right away I started fucking him too so I could feel that fucking creamy yummy load with my hard cock pounding in and out of that fucking pig ass, by that point we had in there this hot this latin guy that I invited in, great cock sucker, like a master cock sucker, then I went to the muscular shaved guy's room where I fucked earlier on and he I fucked him and his friend with a huge monster cock, then I saw this other one guy that I was sucking earlier fucking him and dumping his load in his ass and then right away I fucked his hole that was warm and juicy to the fullest, then I came back to my friend's room and fucked him some more and this other guy with the big cock came back again and this time he wanted me to suck his cock while i was fucking my friend and he shot his load inside my mouth while I kept on fucking my friend with the Latin kid watching all this action very excited, then this big dick guy leaves and I go back to the room of this other guy and his bed he had this tall porn star with the biggest cock and I saw this guy seating on it but it was too big even for this fucking hot mangina boy, so he left and I started fucking him, yeah the guy with the fucking monster cock, his hole was as good or better then his cock, filled with lots of cum and I fucked him for the fucking longest while he fucked this Latin boy legs up who had a big chorizo himself but not as monster as the guy that I was fucking while kissing like crazy for he was just a pro at kissing, then i came back to my friend's room and I fucked him really fucking good for a good fucking while until I couldn't take it anymore and I shoot my load deep inside his perfect juicy anal cavity, it was heaven fucking him for the longest I did, now I love to be free from so much bull shit that comes along when I have just one lover that will be a challenge for some competitive seducer/slut/no moral fag like always happens. But at the end of the day all those "g spots" and "cer*****s" actually helped me out, on day one of them is a scorpion, no offense my scorpions fans!, TJs, and the other one who made sure to showed me one day on myspace stuff about Eli**a bull shit crap open eyes finally and no more of that, YEAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!, I cannot fucking wait to listen to my own song "Easy" over and over and over. Now I'm way too tired and got to take a little rest, yesterday it was a real happy and very fucking exciting day because Jesus Christ is God to me, and lovers come after.
issue # 160
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Few days ago on Saturday I had my web cam show in a location that wasn't good for the special electronic connection I need for those kind of shows, but today actually I found a really good one ready for my next one a few days. After I wrote last time here I had few feeling low days, but last night Tuesday it ended, instead of going to my eternal favorite night club Beige I meet with this really cool school acting teacher who won the opportunity of me giving him a massage and went to this house around 10:30 PM and I was way fucking horny, days, and days! of not getting off since Saturday!!!, WOW, not even jerking off!, so I did that and jerked off into his pubs and he sure he didn't mind because he jerked off too, LOL, I felt like it was a big fucking failure to launch masseur for getting all fucking sexual at the end, and a taxi took me back home here in Hollywood, CA, on the way I finally answered all these missed phone calls from this boy I meet a week ago or so, the 22 years old boy who fucked me so good then and last night as well, this time we fucking kissed a lot more fucking crazy like then before, he sucked my cock making it really hard, then he starts fucking me with my legs in the air, and really hard, his face and body are perfect and buff and the fact that he is not too tall is actually not too bad at all because my body's size matching his felt so fucking right, both of us naked and making out like 2 fucking horny teenagers, it could have been an amazing porn scene, and probably it was, but he is so fucking good looking and honest about being a slut like me that it is way too fucking refreshing, just what I need right now, sent from heaven 2 me, and damn!, he wanted me to cum while he was fucking me and sure I fucking did, mmm!, he fucking shot this fucking huge load all over my torso and it was just like a fucking shower of cum, mmmm! and right away he put it back inside my happy butt hole cause he can keep it hard for a good while even after cumin, and then I fucking shot my load so fucking good, it was so fucking releasing, I felt like in High School where most people's best time ever is, going to school and fucking with a guy 9 years younger, then we went walking to the 7 eleven while holding hands, smoking, and constantly kissing, then we came back to his apartment, I think his name is Ren, not sure, a trainer in 24 hour fitness/ Burlesque boy, we smoked and in bed while holding him from behind really hard I pulled hard his hair back, smacked him on his face, verbally abused him the right way, he can just be such a fucking food nasty pig, kissed his ears from behind while spanking his ass really hard that made my cock went really hard while I was being very verbal and a pig, and I just fucked his incredible butt hole so fucking good, I fucked him for a good while until he came all over his stomach and I pull it out before cumin so my cum would mix in his stomach and make pancakes, very attentive to me making me like him even more, asking me if I was hungry and made me soup, what did I need, this and that, kissing constantly if close to one another, and sleeping together in his small bed that make us sleep closer into each other's arms or else, holding constantly while sleeping for hours, and I guess that is one advantage of not having too much money in your hands cause then you lose grip of what really matters in life and not what other fucking greedy people desires and ways of life are, I feel so much better already that I gonna try going to go to his burlesque show here in Hollywood, CA near by soon on Friday. This morning we woke up around 11 am, so we slept and cuddle for around 6 hours, and he wouldn't let me go at first and made me feel fucking great, but I had to go next block which is where I'm staying at cause I have few things to do today, like writing this journal for example to all my people, to tell them that I'm planning in connecting my web cam every time or most times I go online, or while I'm studying at any time or any day except Saturdays because is the day that goes xrated, now I'm getting ready to finish my homework from school, maybe give a massage later on today and/or connect my web cam, go to the gym, today I feel like I just woke up from a long strange dream and feel great to be awake, fuck yeah!. thanks to my eternal boyfriend Jesus Christ.
issue # 159
Friday, October 13, 2006
Last night I slept with somebody else other then the same guy from the past several months, and it felt so powerful, it wasn't about sex, it was about having that company out there, waking up smiling and not being able to stop smiling looking at the window out side the balcony looking at the city of Hollywood from this all the way up Hollywood hills house, and the person I slept with was really good looking phycially, mmm!, feel new today. I went to the gym a couple of days ago after of 2 months of no going, I'm so excited to be actually not as good as before but even better, I decided to be a masseur, is legal and won't sucked the soul away from me. Now I have to talk to this guy I just meet from Seatlle who is so fucking good looking.
issue # 158
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
I been studying all day today for tomorrow I got a test at school, ay ay ay!, and I'm learning everything about computers all kind of electronic devices, and some of them look so familiar to me because for the past year I would see all kinds of electronic gadgets where I lived up to a month at my bitch boy's house, never had a fucking clue why he would live his Mac laptop w/ huge RAM turned on while he was at work, smart phone, that FireWire Bus card, his smart phone capable of making calls but not receiving, his phone card, the printer, this bluetooth and other devices he never used in front of me like the scanner or printer, not knowing that he uses all these to help him hook up and fuck around secretly, but lately, specially today I just learned all about them and how they work all together for obvious secret real reasons, no wonder he explain why how all that stuff works, I feel like a fucking dumb ass right now, LOL, actually by now it's cool with me knowing that as a matter of fact my ex bitch boy is constantly hiring all kind of male hookers, masseurs and strippers as I write this, so, is all good!, just un poquito weird only, and sorry guys for turning you into my fucking shrink, you guys are my best therapy, just little bummed out cause I found out that after all is true that not because I changed it means others can, not matter how much i try, and yeah it makes me laugh right now just thinking how much I tried with him hiring for a year left and right masseurs and hookers behind me, LOL, few months after I moved in I found in the garage hundreds of printed pages of Hooker's photos and information all the way back, from the year 2,000, LOL, Damn! hundreds!, all kind of shapes and sizes, LOL, he destroyed them right after I showed him, but hey! I wasn't wasting my fucking time!, fuck no!, that was the fucking game actually, and I just had enough of that fucking bull shit fucking game, I'm not proud I played, so much that 2 night ago i told him to his face that I fucked around too, but course, he would not confess, but knowing that he suffers from self aggrandizing syndrome and it shows when deceiving happens, I understood this is Los Angeles, maybe this pirate skull on his neck or the big skull with huge wings on his chest where a sign?, not into tattoos anymore, no fucking way! Sorry guys that I got not much of a sexual adventure in this journal, but, knowing as a fact, confirmed 150% that as a matter of fact my ex bitch boy's right now and most part of his next free time is printing hooker's photos and information pages and pages from those website, calling them from his PDA 1 way, means only he makes the calls while telling his friends when they call him that I'm a fucking asshole and that he doesn't feel like talking because he just break up, and go back hiring and fucking around with hookers because they are the most discreet and easy fucks, makes me feel a little strange, but actually sounds kind of fucking hot in a weird fucked up way, LOL, I'm only fucking kidding!, no really into fucking with him again, fuck no!, is just that I just need lots of more fucking then that!!. Hopefully maybe tomorrow I'll get some ass and cock, but only after my test at school, mmm!. Finally I'm fucking single and slut again! just like I should have always been, cause in LA all of these self aggrandizing people live so fucking scared of being judged so much that they just check out of reality and go lying left and right to keep up with all that fucking bull shit image game crap with out never confessing. Thanks and the glory to Jesus Christ for now keeping away from the hypocrites who extracted out of me so much energy and life that is coming back to me very quick.
issue # 157
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Today is a really fucking cool day, and when I re read it today again I just fucking freaked out so bad that I had to fucking erase lots of what I wrote, LOL, sorry, so fucking embarrasing, feeling like a fucking damn ass, sorry guys, i acted like such freak getting to fucking into. LOL, thank God for Bob Marley!
issue # 156
Friday, October 06, 2006
Yesterday on Thursday around noon I went to the Dash's stop and I noticed in the small street with stop signs how much drivers can cruise a guy standing on the street, WOW!, and I was in the mood of looking too, not long after I got this guy offering me a ride to my school, sure I took it and on the way he made me suck his mushroom head fucking nice cock while he was driving, and sure after swallowing a huge massive amount of sperm not even a minute after I started sucking his hard piece of wood I believed him that he didn't have an orgasm in 3 days, exchange phone numbers and I went to the school, after that I came back home here in Hollywood, CA where I'm staying now with my friend B** and 1 block before arriving I see this 22 year old fucking hot good-looking blond kid that was dressing really fucking hip come across my path and he had an amazing body also and we both automatically turned around and we passed each other by and smiling we introduced each other, exchange phone numbers and kissed, once I was back home, I did laundry, checked emails, made phone calls and planned a couple of meetings with some eager fans wanting to meet me now that I'm finally single, I took a shower, I ate, and soon after it was time for me to take the transportation car that this special fan who arranged for me to go to his fucking huge house to meet him and I had a fucking awesome time, I started giving him a massage and soon after he just turned around and I started sucking on his cock, he got off and then I called this other 20 year old fan from Orange County who I spoke with earlier and he picked me up and then he took me to this really small gay club called "Fubar" and it was packed around 11:30 PM, but I went in took a look around and five minutes after I was out the door and this kid fan picked me up in his Range Rover and soon after that I went to one of the local gay hot bathhouse's here in Hollywood and YEAHHHH! it was fucky fucky time!, I went straight to the bathrooms where I proceeded to clean my hungry starving butt hole, I lubricate it and went straight in hunt of man, I found this really tall dark hair very muscular tanned guy with a fucking big hard cock and automatically we went inside his room and right away he lubricated his cock and started to fuck me from behind then with my legs up and went back from behind while looking at the mirror and it could have been a really fucking hot scene for a movie for sure, and after a while he just got me pregnant with some major load of cum, I left his room and then I was ready to fuck some nice hole, so i meet this white blond guy with a great tan, and really smooth, he was such a fucking pig that once inside his room he just started sucking on my cock and once it was hard as a rock, I just started fucking him really good and his butt hole was like a fucking pussy, so open and soft and juicy, YUMMY!, and I couldn't take it anymore and I just filled his hole with my big load of cum, DAMN! it felt so fucking good!, then we chatted a little bet and then I kept on walking around for more sex, then this muscular guy who fucked me earlier was ready for a second round, and this time it was in my room and he fucked me longer then before, damn! he really knew how to fuck some ass, I was in heaven!, he unloaded more cum inside me and I kept on walking around with my butt hole dripping cum all the way down to my left, and found some other guys who fucked me and dumped their load inside my hungry hole, swallowed some cum from a couple of other guys and then I came back to the fucking hot blond smooth pussy pig man and just fucked him again, but It was time for me to meet with this kid I meet earlier that day, so I took off and meet with him at his apt. which is one block away from where I''m staying now days and he just fucked me like a fucking maniac, such fucking hard cock and even that he was tired he came twice inside my ass, then I took off to come back here home where I'm writing this and ready to take a nice rest, so much fucking action this early morning that I'm taking today off, but not without before writing it in this journal of mine,. Just so you guys know I'm not planning in going to the bathhouse again soon, I have lots of stuff to work on, so it may be a while, but still I should have plenty of my exciting fucking times, life is so fucking good again, and some people may wonder how can I be such a slut so soon again after breaking wiht someone, but who cares? I'm fucking single and fucking ready for romance, and then you know is time to go for sure once they start pulling out the secret gadgets devices on you, so I'll just stick with my Jesus Christ and my fans, who knows who'll be next?, so all my endless devotion to him.
issue # 55
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
YES !!!, Today is an amazing day!!!, I just find out that there is an opportunity for me to Miami very soon for a top secret to do a solo video shot and a solo photo shot for this major company!!!, I think I’m going there around Wednesday, October 11, also I might go to NYC for a secret special event next month. FUCK YEAHHHHHH! I cannot fucking wait!!! I wish I was there right now !!!. I really feel that I revised my last scoop/journal (my worst one ever) 3 years ago and it was actually few days ago in September 29, the day after I shoot my August/September photo gallery for my website that now that I’m looking back to it I see a guy dying to get fucked good and have lots of more fun, it’s like is been few years ago, but it wasn’t, WOW! I just fucking love my life right now so much that I got to be pretty fucking retarded to put myself in such vulnerable position again, sorry guys!, and for the ones who have been hanging with me all along muchas gracias mis amores, I have haven’t had this fucking good in over few months, exactly from the day I became sober in April 19, LOL, now I don’t have to fucking take one at the time to reach happiness, HaPPiNNeSS is aqui!, here!, I have so many plans, and so little time, YES!, I fucking want go on the streets right now in this fucking amazing day and start jumping, I just cannot stop smiling, this learning experience was the hardest I ever had, so the reward must be fucking bigger then I ever thought, I just want to go on the streets right now of this sunny Los Angeles and like Rafael Nadal winning Wimbledon, but I got to take a fucking shower now, eat something and go hang out with some friends and maybe I’ll get to make out with some fucking hot guy out there tonight at Michey’s, in West Hollywood, is just that now days there is a lot of fucking studying to do with my homework from school, Muchas Gracias Jesuscristo por ser tan bueno y dejarme hacerte tu novio de nuevo, y disculpame por haberte puesto en segundo lugar por tanto tiempo.
issue # 154
Friday, September 29, 2006
It's been few weeks since I'm not longer living with my ex-slut boy, lately we were hanging out, having sex and sleeping together, but as today is completely over, and all i wanna say is that he was the most deceiving boyfriend I ever had and I ever will. Last week we went to see our last movie together and is my favorite one since watching "The X men 3" called "The illusionist", who could confuse and make people believe something that was no truth to be truth, at least this character from the movie got to apologize at one point, unlike my ex-bitch boy fuck! it was just pure entertainment in it's best form. Yesterday I went for the first time ever to a therapist counselor and I'm fucking done with it, to the point that I wondered why I fucking wasted my time, to the pooint of seeing myself to be whole new again, going back to the one I used to be, but no!, this is not a theraphist from the fucking Gay and Lesbian Center, they fucking sucked, when you go there they expect you to fill up around literaly 50 pages application form, which is more bull shit then I can take, the most stupid questions you can ever think of are in that fucking retarded application form, so I just fucking took off feeling really bad for all those fags and dykes who were willing to put out with that kind of crap hoping they didn't feel like fucking commiting suicide like I would if I had to do what they were fucking doing. Watching the first episode of this new English telenovela starring B* D***k who is wan an aquantance of mine called "Fashion House" was just terrible on the first episode, but after watching the rest of the episodes it has becomed more fucking addictive then Michael Jackson's trips to Thailand, unfortunately I won't be watching it again, cause I don't wanna be reminded of certain bull shitter, and is it me or that actor that plays Luke is so fucking eatable and rape material? fuck yeah!, fucking indeed!. Not too much of going to the gym this month, but I'm keeping on doing my really fucking exciting live webcam shows on Saturdays where I fuck my rectum, massage my prostate while jerking off with my loyal glass dildo, mmm! I just cannot fucking have any other fucking kind of fucking dildo then glass ones, hopefully I'll have a new colorfull one for Christmas, and hopefully I won't find any of fucking Santa Clauss's feces remains in it. I been such fucking good little boy since this fall this year started by not only not missing any of my twice a week classes at school here in Los Angeles, CA, but also getting some fucking decent scores, yes, school score that is. Life seems like getting a lot better since last time I wrote in my journal, nothing slutty yet from me, but I can feel very soon becoming who I used to be on my next journal, I know that my life goes on and that there is no more chances with that fag full of bull shit, his accomplice also gipsy Cerv***o or is he filipino?, never losing time by getting fucked by lot's of NSA cocks, cause I'm not touching that again anytime soon, Damn!, LOL was I dumb or what?, but I don't give a fuck anymore!, New LIFE 4 ME!!!, i have no clue what the future may bring, and sure I'm still glad and beyond thankful to my Jesus Christ for his compassion and companion that gives me passion for him for he is always been, is and should be my only boyfriend ever.
issue# 153
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Damn it!! takes me few weeks each time I write in this fucking journal of mine, so sorry guys!. Few Weeks ago my latest movie for SX Video came out but I'm featured in the cover box and in just one scene, so I may have to do something about doing a major one some time in the near future where I can try to overdo myself. Last week I started going to College here in Los Angeles, won't say what is it that I'm studying, but I can say that it feels just fucking amazing to learn very useful stuff almost as good as nice and sweet as sex. The last few days have been kind of difficult for me, on September 11th I moved out my bitch boy's house, and I wish the best for him, but leaving Mickey, the fucking sweetest and cute dog I have ever loved and seen before in my life breaks my fucking heart. Now days besides reading and learning so much crap I 'm just planning on a whole new life for myself, unfortunately one of the bad side effects of living in 2006 where in this world being gay is so accepted there is just too many gay and bi males making it harder to have an honest relation between 2 and avoid so many tentative moments so I'm out of that fucked up bull shit world, I would have kept myself in it if it was a cowboy in 1940, life is too fucking short, and adaptation to the ever changing current times it's a must for me, so I guess that being sober really helps your mind works a lot more clear, sorry marihuana!, hopefully my next scoop is gonna be the sluttiest one in over a year, damn!, of course that miracles exist that is why there is exemptions to every rule, but they are not often and they come only from God when he decides. Last night I went out to "Beige" at Falcon restaurant here on Hollywood where I'm currently living and it felt really fucking refreshing to just go fucking loco for a while and try to escape this recent breakup and world of joy and deceiving I been submitted too and change it to just joy. But living now days with my good friend Bob makes my life a lot happier, he is the father I always wished to have. So now I'm just gonna let God guide me to what and/or where I will go from now and on in this very exciting life of mine, so thanking Jesus Christ is never ending must from me for his kingdom and power is the only one that always prevails and i just want to love one another without restrictions from my untrusting heart due to the decieving, lies, jelousy and all kinds of negative feelings of this world, so may he keep helping me for he is my Lord and Lord of Lords.
issue # 152
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Well, this is my second journal in this whole
month of August that is almost over, and I wanted to just report that I been doing just fine and still living with my bitch boy, sucking his fucking nice fat cock almost everyday and drinking his yummy cum. I been taking this month of August very easy, it's been a kind of a real fucking boring month, more boring then listening to the Pope talk, but my live web cam shows on my website have been saving what's left of my sanity, I been doing them almost every Saturday, cause, damn! I have so much fun doing them since I'm a real fucking exhibitionist pig, obviously, knowing that there is some nasty man all over the world watching me live fucking my own butt hole with my glass dildo while stroking my cock bring so much fucking joy, stroking my cock while my prostate is been massaged by my dildo just fucking makes me mucho loco, This month I haven't done any photo shot but I'm planning in doing one very soon, also I'm gonna start working in a new song hopefully very soon. Few weeks ago my bitch boy and I went to Laguna Beach and we stayed at this 5 star"Le Montage" hotel for that weekend for it was the wedding of Mark and Meredith who are good friends of ours, I had to wear a tuxedo and dance with lots of different woman and somehow still I had fun. But that was not the only wedding I went this month, last Saturday actually I went to another one here in LA but it was a much lower scale then the previous one, and a lot more fucking boring too!. The day after, on Sunday I went to the Sunset Junction celebration during the day here in the Silverlake neighborhood, and it's nothing but the Latin gay Festival with a bunch of
musical performers wannabes, I mini fairground, and a bunch of tents with lots of un-useful crap, but the cruising is what is all about, but my photo taken by some fans and getting to walk and interact with fags was worth my time being there. Yesterday my bitch boy and I drove to B* D**k's ranch in Santa Barbara, she was fantastic as usual, her ranch is huge and
fucking amazing, and in few days her new TV show which is a telenovela for My Network Channel on cable will come out. In this month I been watching tons of shows on TV and somehow it paid off cause watching one of those entertainment news I found out that Britney Spears donated her autographs to some fucking horrible bull shit charity for children who are being poisoned with the lethal HIV medications which is nothing but pure poison, so I decided to take her songs out of my I Pod cause I'm not listening to her fucking music again, what a fucking fat cunt!. And to finally end this journal of mine I just want to thank Jesus Christ as usual for him being my higher power and always being so compassionate towards this really low level human being that I am.
issue # 151
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Ay Caramba! It's been so fucking long since writing in here that I just feel so fucking bad about it, but after filming last month, creating and posting a new song and a new nude lay out on my site kind of like I felt like taking a little fucking break, besides 2 weeks ago our home was with out electricity for like 4 days so we stayed at our girlfriend Deanene, all the fucking hot weather melted the cables in the hood and the transformers exploded and all that fucking crap, besides not too many exciting things have happened since then, going to some fucking boring AA meetings, doing my webcam shows on Saturdays where I get to get off live in front of my fans while fucking myself with my glass dildo and making sweet love to my bitch boy almost everyday. Like 2 mondays ago this really cool actor Josh Charles who was in the movies "S.W.A.T", "Dead Poets Society" and "Don't tell mom the baby-sitter's dead" came over to visit my bitch boy and me, he is really laid back, very fucking good looking and straight. Lately I been going around the Internet discovering "YouTube", and I noticed that there is just too many people now days doing blogs which is actually something I started doing back in 1998, and I even remember at the time I was working for Falcon Studios and this guy in charge at the time John Rutherford was really against the idea, well it turns out that now days even him does have one too, LOL, I also found out this really fucking cool website www.Thomasco.blogspot.com and in their April 2006 issue they did a review of my songs "Chinese" and "Faggot", which gave me a nice smile to my face. I read about the singer George Michael's current cheating situation that makes me wonder.. can he afford to hire hookers instead of cruising for cock?. My bitch boy and I have been watching lots of TV like "Project Runway" and I happen to have meet few months ago once in my neighborhood one of the contestants, "Jeffrey Sebelia" by being introduced by his wife Melanie who is an acquaintance of mine, they were taking their baby for a walk and I happen to know, but not through her, but by some other sources that he will be one of the 3 guys left in the whole entire competition at the very end, so kind of like I know the future.. We also watched this fucking amazing russian movie called "Night watch" , we also fucking loved "Hills have eyes" that was so fucking amazing, and this acquaintance of ours who is the son of Wes Craven is already writing the second part of this fucking cool horror movie. Few days ago on Wednesday we went to see Jennifer Greenhut play at "Whisky" on Sunset Bv on Hollywood, it was some fucking nice rock and roll time. I'm now in the process of finding a new porn company to do some movies with, it's not gonna be easy but I think I will give it a try, it always refreshes me, and still I feel like I have few more years before I get too fucking old. My good friend Ben Patrick and his boyfriend Phil invited me today Saturday to this Pool Party, he was one of the hosts for "Equality California 2006, Splash 4", so I decided not to do my web cam show today, I'll just do it next Saturday, instead I went today to that pool party, and right now I just came back from it, and the food was so fucking yummy, the music almost perfect, This ex-porn star Colton Ford performed one of his songs, I saw lots of friends such as Mark, who I was just chatting up with and looking at all those many hot very good looking man, there was like 3 hundred yummy gay man in there, but after like 3 hours we had enough, so we went back to their home where I had my car parked and I drove back home..Now I must thank my Jesus Christ as usual for the good care he takes of me even that I'm such fucking major sinner.
issue # 150
Monday, July 17, 2006
At around noon on Friday July 7 my bitch boy, I
and our french bulldoggy Mickey drove to San
Diego, and they dropped me off at SX Video
Studios around 2:30 PM, I shaved, had some photos taken, and like half an hour later these couple of really fucking hot porn stars Alan Gregory and Carlos Morales showed up, mmm!, they are such fucking hot muscular guys that i just went fucking crazy and thank God not too long after that we were all ready for some filming action, it started with them playing and talking about getting fisted by me, soon after I arrived into the scene, and they started sucking my hard rock cock, but automatically I just started fucking Alan while he was sucking on Carlos massive verga(cock), and switching back and forward, until I decided that it was time to fuck Carlos's amazing butt hole, and it was just heaven, I just couldn't get enough of fucking him, and sure he was enjoying it if not more as much as I was. Carlos is the hottest Venezuelan guy I ever fucked with, very muscular and tanned with fucking beautiful blue eyes, and him telling us all in there that it was the best sex he ever had in his life made me feel like fucking him harder and harder, but he also enjoyed fucking Alan's warm and juicy ass hole, while I kept on fucking his hole, it was just the happiest little train ride I ever too
for sure, and the fucking of those holes went on and on until it was time to put my fist
inside Alan's butt hole, damn!, such a generous cavity made me just go fucking insane while sharing it with Carlos fat cock and my own cock that was hard as a piece of wood, then it was time to fist Carlos who took it with way too much pleasure, taking my fisting, then my cock, and back to my fist, ohhhhhhhh! fuck!, i just couldn't believe how talented and excited he was, and after over an hour of so much intense sex Carlos just ejaculated a nice big load of sperm on Alan's face and mouth, then I started fucking Alan until I my cock just exploded a major ejaculation of semen into his really fucking abused love hole and sticking it inside that juiced up ass hole of his, and then it was a wrap, ay ay ay!, I don't know if because it was a long time since my last filming or what the fuck but it felt like my most fun sex scene I ever had, even that I was a total top during the whole fucking time, WOW!, then I called my bitch boy and picked he me up very soon after that, and we had some romantic early diner because that day he showed me that he is by far the most special guy in the whole universe, being him so fucking understanding of my career translates to me into him being the best guy I could ever ask for, making me feel completely sure that there is not fucking way that I could ever find anyone better then him. Then we walked around Hillcrest area in San Diego and soon after that around 7 PM we drove back to Los Angeles, but we went to Malibu for we were
borrowing this fucking unbelievable 3 level house right into the ocean on Pacific Highway, the living room, the master bedroom and the terrace exactly viewing right into the ocean, making us feel like the waves would bring down that fucking beautiful house, we were so thankful to our girlfriend Meredith and Mark for letting us borrow their place for that weekend, and sure we took full advantage by totally relaxing there, watching movies, cooking,
fucking, making love and some more relaxing, On
Sunday 9 of July I drove by myself not too far to Will Roger's beach which is the gay beach here in Los Angeles, and it was around 11:30 AM and little by little it started getting busier and busier, and in a matter of a couple of hours it was a day light gay club in there, I talked with some friends and guys I knew, but as much fun as it was hanging out there with them all I was getting too much sun burn so I left around 2:30 PM and once back to that amazing house our girlfriend Deannene was already there with my bitch boy, we hang out on the terrace, chatted, listened to some music, ate, watched a movie and then she left. Next day on Monday we had our good friends Cervando and his boyfriend Tod over around noon, and we did pretty much the same with them all day long as the day before. And on the day after on Tuesday my bitch boy, I and our french bulldoggy Mickey drove back home, we
chilled out the rest of the day, and the day after he went to work while I worked on my website, made some phone calls and nothing extraordinary but on the next day on Thursday 13th of July I went to my friend's home/studio John to record the lyrics of this new song I created called "Dancing", and for my own
surprised he is just full of talent, because this new song is just so fucking amazing!, I just fucking love it so much!, then came back home and celebrate it with my bitch boy and I making sweet love. On Friday I drove him to the Roosevelt Hotel for a photo shot he had to work on, then I went to my AA meeting right near home and then I picked him up, we went to the grocery store and chilled out the rest of the day and night. On Saturday he went to work in the morning and I went at noon to this gay AA meeting also close to home, then came back home took a shower, shaved and at 4PM PST I went live through my web cam on my website to my fans, having a fucking awesome time with myself fucking my butt hole silly with my fucking glass dildo while jerking off for over an hour, I was just too fucking horny then and couldn't get enough of it, my ejaculation was so fucking big, mmm!, it was so much fucking releasing, then I cleaned up, made diner and waited for my bitch boy's return from work, we took it easy and relaxed for the rest of that evening and night watching TV. Yesterday Sunday we went to his uncle, aunt and cousins to celebrate their
birthday, then we came back home and while
watching some TV I got really horny and I started sucking on my bitch boy's nipples moving down to this nice fat cock, swallowing a fucking nice load of his sperm while I jerked off to it fucking good, we had diner and went to bed.
Today we went to do some errands and after done with them I proposed to watch some good old 80's porn while I sucked him off again, and now, just a few hours later we are here at Cheyenne's house hanging out with her and some of her friends, so I finally took time to write in here and give some update of what I been doing lately, ending this one as usual thanking my God Jesus Christ for such an amazing life and for all the mercy he have on me for being so far away from being a righteous person.
issue # 149
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
The night of Friday 23rd right after I finished writing the last journal before this one my bitch boy and I went back home and watched some good old 80's pre condoms gay porn while I fucked his fucking nice, clean, warm and all lubed up generous fucking yummy love hole, and sure I tried to fuck him for the longest time I could, but after around half an hour of me fucking pounding and pounding my fucking hard cock in and out of his already fucking abused butt hole I just fucking filled it up with some big fucking ejaculation from my real fucking happy and much satisfied fucking verg(cock),then I followed that with me sucking his fucking yummy verga(dick) and nice big nipples for a good fucking while until my bitch boy's cock exploded inside my mouth giving me some fucking perfect protein juice quenching my throat just the right fucking way, soon after that we smoked some cigarettes, watched some TV and went to sleep, Next day on Saturday 24th, July 1st we woke up and had our usual breakfast which is some eggs and toast with butter and just 1.000 mgs. of vitamin C, (the time of a fucking bunch of vitamins ended for us), I replied some emails, I took a shower, shaved and cleaned my butt hole really nice because not much later at noon I went live to the world through my website in my web cam, this time I was in bed and used my favorite dildo ever, a glass one, mmm!, damn! massaging my prostate myself from the inside out with my fucking yummy dildo and show it off live to my website fans, ahhhh!, my cock was fucking hard and dripping pre cum like crazy for it was so fucking joyful to fucking play that way, and that time started few minutes before noon and lasted for over 30 minutes until I could not longer took it anymore and just fucking got off, taking off a fucking huge load out of my fucking wood verga(cock), mmm!, it felt just so fucking sweet and so totally released that I was ready
to smoke a cigarette, chill out, and go visit my good old friend Bob who is going through a radiation therapy for his cancer and helped him out with some errands for he does not have a car and I sure don't mind driving him around in my fucking pretty 2002 jaguar for it makes me feel really fucking good. Once I was done with Bob errands I went back home to cook diner and wait for my bitch boy to comeback from work, then we went to "The Grove" here in Los Angeles and watched my favorite movie ever after "The Passion of Christ", yeahhh! it was 'The X-Men 3", yesss! FUCKING entertaining 4 sure!, then we walked to The Grove's Brazilian and we went back home, watched some TV and fell at sleep into each other's arms with our French bulldoggy
Michey as usual. Next day on Sunday we pretty much chilled out whole day, did some grocery and
stuff like that. On Monday we were awaked by our maid Ana, so we decided to go looking for cars to buy once the lease of his 2001 Porshe ends, and Cadillac looks a fucking good candidate so far. That night we watched this real fucking funny movie called Beverly Kills, it was so fucking gay, ridiculous and low budget but we fucking pissed our pants, and before going to sleep we got each other off fucking nice, next day after we woke up I made breakfast and we worked out our chest down on the garage, then I made some protein shake, we took a shower and he went online to look stuff at e bay while I checked some emails, that day we watched some Wimbledon on TV, some movies, I made some diner, and after getting off while swallowing his fucking yummy ejaculation we watched more TV and went to sleep. Next day he went to work and I went work out at the 24 hour gym in West Hollywood, and right after being done at noon, I went next door at the gay church AA meeting, and the speaker and sharings were fucking awesome, then I went back to the gym to shower, went to visit my friend Bob, and then went home, waited for my bitch boy, and after he came back from work we watched some Tivo recorded Wimbledon,
watched some horror movies we rented days
earlier, had diner, and got each other off
before falling at sleep with the usual kiss and I love you goodnight. The next day on Thursday after waking up I made breakfast, my bitch boy went to work and I went to the 24 hours gym in West Hollywood as usual wearing really tiny
pants and a tight T-shirt that said HIV=FRAUD VIRUSMYTH.ORG in both sides, and that day in there one fucking nice white blond guy told me that my shirt was awesome, and another half black and white showed me his discontent and laughed at me, but I kept it cool with him, I really didn't give a fuck for his ignorance, took a shower and went home to cook diner
waiting for my bitch boy to arrive from work, we watched Wimbledon hoping that Maria Sharapova wins this Wimbledon for I fucking love her, and was glad that Andre Agassi and Andy Roddick lost because ever since they did an HIV charity event few years ago i totally lost all respect for them and karma is been very fair by not allowing them to win any Glam Slams anymore, LOL, fucking ignorants!, thank God so far I haven't find out about James Blake supporting those criminal HIV events because then the USA male tennis would really fucking die big fucking time. We also watched on TV the America got Talent show, just because I fucking love Regis Philbin and David Hasselhoff, and I was very thankful that there was no any American Idol anymore because I cannot fucking stand that fucking show, never did, it just fucking bores me to death. That night me and my bitch boy had sex and went to sleep and I dreamed that this male singer Nick Lachey and I were in love and at some point his thick dick came out of his nice and huge butt hole, and that all these bitches were in love with him but he was in love with me, LOL. Few weeks ago I had few dreams with this actress Jennifer Aniston and Angelina Jolie but they were fucking cunts in it, very nasty bitches in my dreams, nothing like Jack Black, Amanda Bynes or Tori Spelling who are actors I really fucking like, specially Tom Cruise who is the number one in the Forbes Magazine Celebrity 100 power list this year, and the reason is because he is
against all drugs, legal or Illegal ones, talking about a really fucking clean karma other then his secret sexual life of course, but no one can be fucking perfect any fucking way, you know?, oh! I forgot to put into my list of devil celebrities Sean "Diddy" Combs, George Clooney(looney), and specially Meryl Streep, no wonder playing the fucking cunt from hell comes so easy for her, making now days this movie called "The devil wears Prada" and is so truth because a while ago I saw a photo of this current new Pope wearing red Prada shoes, LOL, after all I guess the fucking devil is not all that smart when comes about deceiving, and can someone please do something about the fucking annoying certain TV channels who's volume of the commercials is a lot much higher then the TV show itself?. That night my bitch boy and I made love and went to sleep, and that night I dreamed that Kirsten Dunst and I made a non porn movie and we fell in love with each other, LOL, fucked up dream or what?. The next day on Friday I just chilled out all day long with my boyfriend doing not much, On Saturday after making some breakfast for both of us he went to work and I went work out at the most trendy gym now days, the 24 hours fitness in Sunset Bv. in Hollywood, and of course I wore my HIV=FRAUD T shirt again, then I drove back home, took a shower, shaved, clean my love hole and got on my Web Cam 15 minutes afternoon and through my website fucking myself with my glass dildo and jerking off really fucking nice pleasuring myself and showing off to my fans live at the same time, thinking on Jorg, this fan of mine from Germany who sent me an email telling me how much fun was fucking with this priest in one of their local bathhouses,DAMN!, mmm!, it was so much fucking fun to show off myself masturbating while fucking myself with a dildo that I fucking lost track of time and spent almost an hour doing it, until i just fucking exploded a fucking huge big load of my sweet sperm, took off my dildo, cleaned up and
went to an AA meeting, but it was kind of boring that particular one so I left before it ended, then I went to West Hollywood to walk around a little bet, went home and once my bitch boy came back from work we went not far away from home to
the most fucking yummy restaurant called Betty's, we had diner there with our girlfriend Christina her man Michael and her baby Chase who is really fucking lucky to have a real smart mother who did her own research about vaccines finding out about how unnecessary their are, wishing all of us that our parents didn't vaccinate us when we were kids, and I hope
that somehow people around this world don't fall for the fucking fraud that ALL VACCINATIONS were and are. After having a good time with them we part ways and my bitch boy and I went to rent some movies, came back home watched them and right before falling at sleep. The next day on Sunday we took it easy not doing much and on Monday we went to Huntington Dog Beach to celebrate our French bulldoggy Michey's first birthday, then after coming back home, 3 of us took a bath, had diner, watched some movies and went to sleep not with out before getting an amazing blow job from my bitch boy that end up with his mouth and throat filled with some major ejaculation of mine followed by an ejaculation of his inside my throat, MUCHO FUCKING YUMMY!. Yesterday Tuesday was 4 of July so after breakfast and watching Wimbledon on TV we took a shower and got ready to go to a barbecue in Eagle Rock, CA celebrating the recent eloping marriage of some friends, Scott and Jillian, and it was packed with people from the AA meetings, most of them were tattooed making feel a little out of place, but my bitch boy and I had a fucking great time, there it was other friends of ours like Christina and Michael and their baby, Ali, Alison, Gaby, Floyd and Julia and their baby, and I meet Jenny Shimizu who was really fucking nice and sweet, nothing like her ex lesbian lover Angelina Jolie who thinks is mother Teresa but yet helps childrens to be poisoned with the fucking HIV medicines. After a few hours there, Christina and her baby Chase drove my bitch boy and I to our house and a little later Gaby joined us and we all watched this fucking cool movie "Underworld 2-Evolution", but Gaby left before it was over, and once over Christina and Chase left, my bitch boy and I had diner watched some TV and went to bed, and in the middle of the night I had this fucking sexual dream of me and my bitch boy, so I woke him up with my mouth on his tool, and sucked him off while I jerked off, we came back to sleep and this morning after breakfast he went to work I went to the gym, then I came back, took a shower and went to an AA meeting where I never been before, where once over this guy Bill identify himself as one of my fans and told me how much he like my movies, then I drove
back home and got ready for a new live web cam show where I fucking fucked myself at 3PM PST with a dildo while getting off amazingly lasting almost an hour again, making me feel right now not too long after that totally fucking released and relaxed like a fucking piece of lettuce. My bitch boy just came back from work, so I'm wrapping up this one with my usual thanks to my higher power that is Jesus Christ who always have the most compassion for this fucking big time sinner that I am.
issue # 148
Friday, June 23, 2006
On Saturday, June 17 at 12 PM PST i turned my web cam on my computer and connected through my website and went live to the world, I was really fucking horny and all naked jerking off my cock and showing off to my fans, and sure i had a great fucking good time for over 30 minutes, mmm! after 2 weeks of not doing it I got to fucking appreciate it big fucking time until I couldn't take it anymore and i got my hard woody cock the closest I could to lens of my website beating it off with my right hand and ejaculate it on my left hand that was also right in front of the web cam's lens getting off a fucking huge amount of sperm releasing myself by myself like very few times, yeahhhhh!!!!, later on that night once my bitch boy and I went to the Key Club in Sunset BV. for our girlfriend Jennifer Greenhutt was performing some of her fucking amazing rock and roll music, it was in the lower level and she fucking rocked that room really fucking nice, later on once my bitch boy and I came back home we decided to watch some porn and I went to clean and stretch my hole and I started to suck on his nice thick cock and not to long after I just sticked it inside my hole while he was seating in the couch and i took a nice ride in it then I made him fuck me from behind for a good fucking while then he came back seating in the couch while I keep on sucking on his big pacifier while I played with his fucking yummy nipples until he just fucking shot his fucking load of semen deep inside my fucking throat and I beat off my own cock fucking ejaculating a nice load of my own, then we went to bed to watch a suspense movie and fall at sleep. The next day we cleaned up the house and re arrange some furniture and later on we went to visit his uncle and his family for father's day diner, later on we came back home and it was time to give my boyfriend another blow job and swallow his cum, yummmm!!!, and then we had a fucking awesome sleeping night. Next day on Monday we had an argument but it was fine by the evening having a long time of sex, and passed out in bed falling at sleep. On Tuesday we pretty much chilled out and I found out that next month I should be filming one scene for SX Video for one of their upcoming productions in San Diego, which it should be my 2006 movie, fuck yeahhh!!!!, about fucking time!, later that night my bitch boy and I watched my favorite movie ever because he never saw it before, it was Mel Gibson's "Passion of the Christ" and it always makes me fucking cry like a fucking bitch. The next day on Wednesday I went to the gym, 24 hours fitness on Sunset BV., of course, and then after a shower and shaving I was all ready for my photo shot with this new great photographer Jonathan and he just shot lots of fucking amazing photos that are now part of my monthly update for the photo gallery of my website, I was wearing leather this time, it was done not far from where I live here in Los Angeles, CA then I sent them to my webmaster had diner and went to bed where right before going to sleep I made him suck my cock for after having stroked so much earlier on it was in much need of a nice fucking ejaculation, and then I started to fuck his warm and juicy mouth until the point were It just fucking exploded a big fucking load of sperm really nice deeply inside his throat, then I took care of his fucking nice piece of meat pacifier, sucking and sucking while playing with his nipples until his fucking yummy cock ejaculated inside my mouth and I started drinking all of his man juice. Yesterday Thursday i woke up and went again to the gym, then I did some errands and then went to the studio to create a new fucking awesome fantastic new song, and so far it seems like the music part is all done, then after coming back home my bitch boy and I went to have diner with this girlfriend of ours Cheyenne, then once back home I sucked his cock and swallowed more of his fucking delicioso esperma, got off and went to sleep with our doggy Mickey in my arms as usual. Today we stayed at home cleaning up the backyard and this cool girlfriend of ours TC came by for a little while and a little after she left we had a good fucking session of sex while watching some good 90's porn. And now I'm finishing this journal of mine thanking my God Jesus Christ for being so good and having so much compassion on this big fucking sinner that I am.
issue # 147
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
From last time I wrote in this journal of mine I fucking canceled the live webcam show in my website of Saturday, June 3rd
due to the fact that my fucking bitch boy and I went to the bridal shower of these friends of ours Meredith and Mark in this
fucking huge house of their parents and it was my first ever to attend getting along very well with those fucking rich older
crowd, the rest of that week for me was pretty fucking boring, going to those AA meetings, working out, helping out my
good old friend Bob who is going through radiation for he is dealing with cancer, and the same all fucking same, but at the
same time keeping my life in a very healthy way. On June 7th my bitch boy and I tried to have a romantic diner but he was
working a lot those days so instead we watched this really fucking funny movie called "Date movie" we almost pissed our
pants from all the fucking laughing, and two days later we went to Santa Monica for he had to work on the weeding of this
fucking cool actress Lourdes Benedicto, she is so fucking beautiful and she is about to start filming her new TV show called
"The Nine" on ABC which is about 9 thiefs and seems like is gonna be a fucking good entertaining one, so I'm setting my tivo
on my plasma TV for it seems that Kathy Griffin is getting involved with some fucking HIV organizations making me
fucking stop enjoying her TV shows, for one thing is being a fucking money whore and another is being a fucking helper of
the fucking HIV/poison crimes. At some point on that Friday 9th I went to the local Santa Monica gym while my bitch boy
was working in "Casa del Mar" hotel and later I went walking on the promenade by myself smoking and listening to my
IPod and this guy with a major smile in his face stopped me and asked me if I was Jeff Palmer, I said yes of course, he told
me then that I was a fucking huge star and loved my movies making me feel like a real fucking celebrity, then we asked
some one to take our photo together, not much later on, by the next block in that fucking nice promenade area I got
stopped by these group of young girls asking me to take a photo with them, and of course I complied as well, and later on I
got this photographer stopping me to complimenting me on my looks and giving me his business card, then finally I got into
the parking lot, got into my Jaguar and fucking drove where my bitch boy was working, and soon after he was done with
making Lourdes Benedicto get ready for her first weeding, we drove off not too far in Malibu to meet our girlfriend
Meredith, so we end up meeting her on the way while she was driving her fucking brand new Rolls Royce, we hang out at
her view to the ocean home and then we went shopping for our doggies in that area who were with us, then my bitch boy,
our doggy and I went back home, I cooked some green spaghetti with chicken and tomatoes sauce, we all watched some
horror movie, made sweet love and went to sleep. The next day on Saturday I canceled my live webcam show on my
website again for it was the fucking gay pride weekend in Los Angeles so after working out that morning I went straight to
that fucking area in West Hollywood on San Vicente St. that was closed and charged $20 fucking dollars to have access to
those fucking booths with all kind of different organizations, as soon as I got in the first booth I was approached by this guy promoting gay mentors so I accepted his temporary tattoo in my left arm, telling me that I was his first celebrity, and sure I feel like a mentor to all the young gay guys who need information about what a fucking real fraud the HIV is, then I kept on walking and looking at all those booths ignoring only all those empty HIV ones, LOL, I was so fucking happy that no one seemed to care about those ones, and every few booths I would get some one complimenting me for my movies and asking me to take a photo with them, and I must fucking confess that being recognized by so many people so fucking much made me feel so fucking amazing in the inside, feeling good beyond words, I even saw guys from the AA meetings I attend, it felt the same as 10 years ago when I did my first gay pride in the same city of Los Angeles but a little more recognized now days. After a few hours of doing that I drove back home for I had to finished packing my bags, my doggy bag, while waiting for my bitch boy to comeback from work, and soon after that we drove on his Porsche to this extremely huge ranch near Santa Barbara and we stayed at the guest house part of our good friends Nancy and Michael, and by then it was late at night but I was so fucking horny after being stimulated by looking so many fucking hot guys early on that gay festival and I put on the dvd player this porn dvd that I was given earlier from someone in those booths and after cleaning, lubricating and stretching my fucking delicious butt hole really well it was all ready to be fucked by my bitch boy's fat cock, first I seated on his fucking yummy cock riding it that way for a good while, then we changed positions with my legs on his
shoulders so I could see his big fat cock going in and out of my fucking starving hungry love hole, then it was the fucking
doggy style one, pounding me from behind really fucking nice, but I was really fucking thirsty for some sperm, so I started
sucking on his big fucking fat cock and swallowed a fucking huge generous amount of his fucking yummy semen all the
way down my throat, and soon after that he went cleaning his fucking buttgina for I was fucking dying to fuck it as well, so
I fucking lubricated it real nice, made him lay down on his stomach and just fucking went from behind, mmmm!!, sure he
got some real generous love hole as well, real wide open, warm and very cozy trying to spent the most time as possible with
my fucking cock full of cum going in and out like fucking crazy making me feel in total fucking ecstasies, but once he
started fucking my cock with his mangina then it was this fucking huge explosion of my semen all the way fucking deep his
anus that kept on sucking all the fluids of my now beyond satisfied verga(dick), ay caramba! talking about some release
from heaven. Soon after that we went to sleep, but in the following morning of Sunday around 8;30 AM i couldn't fucking
take anymore the fact that I was fucking sleeping the whole fucking night with my cock being so fucking hard as a fucking
piece of steel that I thought it would fucking break in two, and his butt hole was still clean and all juiced up with my sperm,
so while he was sleeping on his side I just fucking stocked it inside him from behind and starting pounding his fucking
yummy love hole until I unloaded another orgasm deep inside him making that way a fucking nice, good morning babe!, then we took a shower, had some breakfast, and we meet with Nancy and Michael to go to this Car Show, i took some photos with the ones I fucking loved, we had some lunch and once back to that fucking huge ranch my bitch boy and I went
swimming in that heated pool and after that we got totally horny again and I sucked on his big cock again for I wanted
some more sperm to drink, then it was a shower and getting ready to diner. We walked not that much from the guest house
where we stayed to the ranch were they live and this other friends of ours the famous legend B* D***k and her boyfriend
John Corbbett were there for diner too, damn! it was so fucking yummy and the company fucking awesome of course
beyond words, I got to find out through Bo Derek herself about this new TV telenovela show she is currently filming in San
Diego which is called "Fashion House" for the FOX channel, coming out on September 5th at 9 PM and seems like is gonna
be some fucking real fascinating and exciting show to watch and I really cannot fucking wait to see it for she told me some
of the things that will be happening, she plays a fucking bitch fashion designer from hell, breaking someone's knees with a
baseball bat, giving drugs to her son and having sex with his son's best friend, getting into a fist fight with a younger girl,
and at lot more, it just sounds like is gonna be 1.000 times more fun the Dynasty and Dallas ever was, fuck! , actually just
the opposite of what she is in real life, I just fucking love her big fucking time, that night Nancy had for us some fucking
yummy desert with blueberries that we all went fucking crazy for, then Bo and John left and me and my bitch boy went
back to the guest house, watched part of this japanese horror film and fell at sleep, the next day yesterday on Monday
we took it easy and went for breakfast with Nancy at this fucking selective restaurant called "Los Olivos", the rest of the
day was a lot of chilling out, playing tennis in Nancy's private tennis court, taking a shower and having another yummy
diner but this time with just Nancy and Michael. Today Tuesday, June 13th we came back home in Los Angeles and I better
start getting ready to create another song for I feel it in me to make some fucking nice one already, so now I better set up a
date for my next webcam show and set up a date to start filming at least one sex scene with SX Video which is the best
company so far that I see that I should make a movie with, and may Jesus Christ keep taking compassion on me for I'm
always so far from being the best that I can be, and always of course eternally thankful to him for all.
issue # 146
Thursday, June 01, 2006
On Friday 26th I went brunette, so now my hair is with my natural dark brown color. On Saturday 27th I did my web cam show through my website at 12 noon and it was really satisfying as usual, then I went to the gym then came back home, packed and waited for my bitch boy to arrived from work then we drove to Pacific Palisades, CA for there was a party from a straight couple friends of ours and I got some fucking nice compliments about my tight legged gray jeans but it was kind of boring that party, so after a while we drove from there straight to Las Vegas listening to Britney Spears as a personal celebration for she fucking got away from the Kabbalah cult and came back to be a Christian FUCK YEAHHH!!!, besides I meet her husband few weeks ago in a photo shot he was doing for a new magazine, and was not all that bad other then him trying to be Jennifer Lopez by having himself being called the same way JLo does, KFed and even his music have the same fucking style too, LOL. My bitch boy and I arrived at my bitch boy sister's house in Las Vegas around 4 AM on Sunday and went straight to sleep, few hours after on Sunday morning my new musical creation called "Te Amo" was posted by my webmaster on my website, that morning we all had breakfast and his sister and her family opening the presents we brought for them, we hang out until around 7:30 PM, then me and my bitch boy checked in into our hotel near by and at 08:00 PM we went to "The 16th Annual Miss Exotic World " which our girlfriend Julie Atlas Muz won it the night before but that night we had the chance to see her fucking amazing performance and other ones that were fucking funny and genius too, but around 11 PM we were fucking hungry and exhausted so ate ad Denny's and went back to our hotel room and after getting each other off really good with warm and juicy blow jobs we fell at sleep. Next day on Monday, (memorial day) we woke up and went back again to his sister's house and then 3 of us went for shopping, then we came back to her house and ate with her and her kids and then we went visit our girlfriend "The world famous BOB" who was sharing the room with this other famous burlesque "Dirty Martini" and we had such fucking good time giving our best girlfriend BOB some old birthday presents until they took a taxi cap together with Julie Atlas Muz and her trophy to catch their flight to NYC, then my bitch boy and i went to have some romantic diner at New York New York Hotel and Casino, then it was back to our hotel room to give him a short massage on his back and in the inside of his prostate with my rock hard cock filled with lots of sperm and he was all fucking going crazy fucking my cock with his beyond fucking hungry juicy and warm butt hole until I just couldn't take it anymore and my woody dick just fucking exploded way deep inside him breeding him real fucking nice, then I sucked on his nice hard cock while playing with his fucking sensitive nipples until my mouth and throat was filled with his fucking yummy semen while swallowing it all and collapsing in bed following with us falling at sleep to wake up like an hour later with his kisses and another orgasm, then we fall at sleep again, woke up later on Tuesday morning we picked up some breakfast and brought it over his sister's house and hang out with her and her family until around 9PM that my bitch boy and I drove back to LA, and reading the tabloids on the way I became more fond of this actress Lindsay Lohan for she is currently into a fucking cat fight with this fucking porn star wanna be/abuser of the N word/untalented/blue contacts and fake blond hair Paris Hilton gross cunt, and sure she makes me wanna have dark brown hair until the day I fucking die. Yesterday on Wednesday he went to work and I went to the gym, then I went to my dermatologist, came back home, made diner and once my bitch boy was back I sucked him off drinking some nice protein juicy out of his hard rock bottle, then we had to take my french bull doggy Mickey to his veterinarian because he's having a cold, came back home and went to sleep. Today he went to work and I went to the gym and helped my good friend Bob with some errands for he doesn't have a car and is dealing with cancer, then came back home took a shower, made diner, watched some tennis and found out that my ultimate female tennis idol Martina Hingis won in May 21st the prestigious Internaziali d'Italia tournament beating Venus Williams in the semifinals, Probably my life is not all that sexual crazy like it used to be but my body, mind and spirit is in a much better place then ever before and maybe soon I'll start planning a 2006 movie for pleasing my fans and giving them joy maybe is part of what Jesus Christ wants me to do in this world, serving him in any way I can for he still is my ultimate protector who is always taking such good care of me, a sinner who don't deserve much for I'm so far away from being all that good
issue # 145
Friday, May 26, 2006
Last week on Tuesday 16th my bitch boy and I went to the Chinese theater here in Los Angeles to see "American Haunting" which was a real fucking descent horror movie, more scary then Kaiser Permanente (the most evil hospitals here in USA), it was based on a truth story and sure I was glad that non of those actors were HIV FRAUD supporters like Adrian Brody is, seeing now days his fucking stupid gay closet face in those fucked up billboards just makes me wanna vomit, never again will see a movie with him in it for sure. On Thursday 19th I drove to one of my AA meetings at 10 AM, and didn't had much time for all the fucking chatting that these people including some celebrities enjoy doing once is over, I was fucking late for my recording studio session in Encino, CA and I was lucky to make it alive cause i was driving faster then Kathy Griffin's tongue,(who is my favorite american comedian), but somehow I made it in one piece and I started singing and recording my voice in this new song called "Te Amo" which is a fucking nice sweet romantic ballad, for a change I figured, damn that day was so fucking hot, i was sweating more then Aretha Franklin singing. Once back home I showed it to my bitch boy and sure he fucking really loved it because he got extra romantic french kissing me really fucking good going down on my fucking rock hard cock sucking me like a fucking baby sucking his pacifier, we got naked and i started sucking on his pacifier too, sucking his big nipples like if I was a really fucking desperate hungry baby monster until I swallowed a nice amount of his big load of sperm while i ejaculated a big load of semen out of my cock full of cum, just fucking exploding all over the bed covers, mmm!!!, so I took it like I had the approval of this being a fucking amazing song, so after a shower we had our girlfriend Lisa and her boyfriend who cooked this diner that fucking left us hungry still so we ate some more after they fucking left, then we watched this cool movie "Creep" with Franka Potente just before going to sleep, The next day it was a day to just chill out and just relax after having a nice fucking heavy work out and then after a shower it was time to go to the movie again, this time we went to Universal City walk with our girlfriend Deanene and the movie, but we had something to eat before at this Thai restaurant right across from the theater, it was so fucking funny and cool except the part in which Martin Sheen was in it cause after being accused with all the good reasons in the world of killing this beautiful famous female porn star through who knows who, so obviously I wouldn't watch another movie with him again, not that he is in that many movies anyway. The next day on Saturday I went live to the world through my website as I usually do on Saturdays, getting off real good, mmm! and right after that I went back to the recording studio again because I was just not too satisfied with this new song and wanted to make it the most perfect as possible, once back I just chilled out with my bitch boy and later on that night his friend Cervando came along with his boyfriend Todd for diner and watch a movie we rented, but it wasn't all that good and soon after we went to sleep . The next day on Sunday 21st we went shopping at the "The Grove" which the current mall to be here in Los Angeles. The next day on Monday it was time to do a photoshot for my website so my bitch boy took some fucking awesome ones and my whole body was all oiled up, but the fucking camera died on us, so while it was re charging I felt like giving my bitch boy a fucking super body rubbing massage and for sure it was by far the fucking hottest massage I have ever gave, (since I don't like getting them), and with so much rubbing of my body all over his body resulted in making him ejaculate that way all over my butt chicks and after smoking a cigarette we continued with the fucking photo shot of my very horny self resulting in some fucking pretty photos that are now posted on my website with a final release of my fucking cock deep inside my bitch boy's throat, mmm! damn! talking about some real fucking release for my fucking raging cock that was hard as a fucking rock, it took hours before such. After that we watched the best exorcism movie ever called "The possession of Gail Bowers" and after that we went online to buy some new songs at ITunes for our IPods and I found out that these group "Alphaville" is now one of my favorites, WOW! fucking awesome music and lyrics too!. Yesterday we woke up downloading even some more music online, running errands and we had an argument, then we had diner and went to sleep. Yesterday after a yummy breakfast I went to the gym, this time I went to the 24 hours fitness in West Hollywood, then I went to my bitch boy's work and gave him a romantic card because of the argument of the night before, then I went home to eat, shower, answered some emails and wait for my bitch boy for I was too fucking horny and need it him to breed me, so after he arrived I already had prepared for him a fucking yummy chicken sandwich watched Kathy Griffin comedy stand up,, then I took his clothes off and made him laid in bed, I oiled him up all over and myself and started giving him one of my special ultra fucking piggy massages, starting on his back, concentrating on his feet's making me feel I'm developing a fucking foot fetish, then I turned him around and started with his chest concentrating on his torpedo nipples while rubbing his fucking hard yummy cock with my ultra oily butt chicks to the point that i made his fat cock slide inside my starving ass hole and started to go fucking crazy riding it up and down while playing with those fucking hot nipples of his, then I would take it out and rub his cock again with my butt chicks and once he got closer to ejaculate quickly to re introduced inside my butt hole feeling such huge ejaculation exploding deep inside my all fucking psycho butt hole while I jerked off my cock unloading a fucking nice big load of sperm all over his stomach and chest letting us in bed fucking cuddling and kissing for few minutes before taking a shower together, getting some diner, watching TV and right before falling at sleep I sucked him off while I jerked off really nice a big load of cum. Today Thursday 25th we woke up ate pizza for breakfast, I took him to work and I went to the same gym then the day before, this time with my T-shirt that says "hiv=fraud" "virusmyth.org" in both sides of it, got some people in there telling me how much thankful they were for the movies I have done, went to the pool of that gym to lay down in the sun for a while, visited my good old friend Bob and picked up my bitch boy at work and once back at home I decide it was time for me to start writing a fucking new journal which it may not be a too fucking exciting one but my body, mind and spirit are a lot better then what they used to be over a month ago, and it is nothing but a result of me surrending myself to my higher power which is Jesus Christ.
issue # 144
Thursday, May 11, 2006
If i knew how fucking good is to be so fucking sober
sure I would have fucking do it a long fucking time
ago because it just fucking allows me to learn a lot
of shit that i knew but some how the drugs made me
just fucking forget, and l;m beginning to surprise
myself how much fucking stronger I am now, fuck
yeahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
So, last week I been working out at the 24 hours
fitness on Sunset BBBBv.in Hollywood, CA, of course,
almost every day with Steve my work out partner/AA
meetings buddy.
Last Saturday around 12 PM PST like every Saturday I
turned on my web cam and went live to the whole
fucking world through my website, and I was just so fucking horny and so fucking ready to be all fucking naked showing off my muscular body and pretty face while stocking my fucking rock hard raging cock showing off to all the fucking dirty pigs mother fuckers fucking freaks fans of mine and give some some fucking good fucking time, damn! talking about some fucking good time all by myself and them thinking in pounding some nice fucking lossy gussy hole and having my cock sucked really fucking sweet and deep putting aside all the fucking bull shit this world have, and just fucking surrended all my body to the fucking feeling of jerking of and fucking pleasing myself for a good half an hour, shit! it was just so fucking awesome to fucking do it all sober and just fucking get off to
the fact that there was all this fucking pigs see me
fucking get off from my fucking verga(cock) a fucking
nice and huge load of sperm out of me, just fucking
releasing myself with all the fucking content I have
now days with just fucking being me and how fucking
good it feel do be the good old Jeff Palmer, then I
went to the gym to work out all the nice muscles of my
body to make them even fucking better while making
others wanting to have who I am, then I picked up my
bitch boy at work and once home we started packing for
a fucking sweet drive to Las Vergas, I mean, Las Vegas
and we arrived really fucking late so we spent the
night at my bitch boy's sister and just fucking passed
out until the next day, on Sunday morning/noon I
cooked some fucking sweet brunch and worked on her
fucking yard taking all the fucking nasty weeds out,
fucking cleaning it up all real nice as part of my
fucking AA program that tells you to fucking do
something un-selfish for others, and sure it was a
fucking awesome feeling afterward, even that it was
so fucking hot, then it was a fucking cool shower,
some pizza with Pepsi and my bitch boy and I drove to
the Ritz Carlton and fucking checked into this fucking
amazing room with view to their fucking major
lake/pool/waterfronts and fall-ed at sleep, the next
day, (Monday) we fucking devoured was some fucking
yummy room service breakfast and then it was some
fucking shopping time, once back in the room i changed clothes and took advantage of this hotel's small but yet fucking cool gym and worked out my pecs really good, then it was some lunch, a meeting with the
people that my bitch boy was working for, a shower,
some fucking nice time by myself at the pool, and some
more fucking yummy food at the back stage/dressing
room of this fucking major fashion show for General
Motors, and i started assisting there all this fucking
people involved there, and besides this fucking
skinny/pretty pro-models there also was some
celebrities working as run away models like Roseanna
Arquette (movie star/movie star/DDDJ), Joy Bryant
(movie star/TV star), Reggie Bush (NFL star, fucking hot and big, yummy!), Shannon Elizabeth (movie star/TV
star/animal activist with a personality, face and
body to fucking die for, Damn! she is sooo fucking
cool!), Vivica Fox (movie star/TV star who was the
first one to steal the fucking show with also some
fucking major personality, Kelly Hu (movie star/TV
star who is "X2:X-Men United, movie I fucking love),
Rachel Hunter (movie star/TV star/model, who I was not
a cunt at all like I was predicting to be, she was
actually quite fucking sweet and hot!, Stacy Keibler
(TV star)/model), Jenny Mc Carthy (movie star/TV
star/model and she was so fucking exciting to be
around as usual), Shane Powers (TV star/club
promoter/restaurant manager) and John Salley (NBA
star/TV show host/radio host and HOT HOT HOT! mmmm!).
This fashion show went better then perfect, and once
it was over they all fucking left, but there still was
all the fucking audience having the fucking time of
their fucking life like me dancing like fucking crazy
on that lightful dance floor to some good oldies
songs, and for my amusement no one, I mean no one included me of course danced to the only fucking Madonna's song, and after a while my bitch boy and I went back to our room, we had later room service diner and went to the fucking Jacuzzi, then we came back to our room, he fucking cleaned his love hole, we fucking made out and I just fucking inserted my rock hard verga(dick) inside his well cleaned, juicy, warm and really fucking generous ass hole of his, mmm!!!, but I was so fucking desperate to ejaculate and tired that i did not last that long inside his fucking sweet rectum and just fucking went off inside him and I called it a
night, the next day on Tuesday I got some really
fucking satisfactory reviews from the organizers of
that event for my help behind the scenes, we went back
to my bitch boy' sister's home and took her for
shopping, then we came back and I took a fucking sweet nap and soon after that I ate some pizza and my bitch boy and I drove back to LA, we arrived late and
fucking passed out in bed until the next day yesterday
on Wednesday morning that we woke up and he went to work and I went to my AA meeting, then had lunch and went work out with my buddy Steve, went home returned a bunch of emails, messages from my website, some phone calls, cooked some fucking yummy chicken, shower and chilled out with my bitch boy, we had some fucking stupid argument, but it ended well with me giving him a massage, falling at sleep and today I just came back from my AA meeting where as usual I wore one of my white shirts that I write stuff in it like "HIV=FRAUD" , "AIDS always existed, always will but HIV never did", taking my mission to the next level, then I had some lunch and now I'm home writing
in here what's been going on with me lately always
asking my Jesus Christ to keep guiding me and taking
full control of me because I'm nothing just another
fucking low sinner who is nothing with out him as my
eternal guide.
issue # 143
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Today is my 15th day of being sober,yessssssss!, so, my sober birthday is April 19th and it was 10:00 AM on that day that I entered my first AA meeting here in Los Angeles crying and crying like fucking freak for I was in so much need of a new life, I just had enough, I need it new people who can inspire me, and each day is only getting better and better, now I have lots of new friends that care for me as I care for them who want nothing from me in return other then see me doing good, so they feel inspired as well, it feels like going almost every morning to school and hearing what others have to say
including some major celebrities, but these are anonymous meetings so I can not mention any names, and we all are surrounded by God based on whatever God means to us, so we can learn how to feel happy within ourselves not matter what how fucked up are the things that others do to us, so ever since I been working out at the gym
often, sometimes 2 days in a row, I updated the photo gallery of my website, also last week I have created my very first song while being sober and now I'm creating the lyrics for it, and I still been doing my live solo webcam shows on Saturdays as usual for half an hour instead of just 15 or 20 minutes, I feel less selfish too, for example last Sunday after going to Beverly Hot Springs Spa I helped this girlfriend of mine to move unloading the truck with some other of her friends and helping set up her stuff in her new place until the night, and the
sex?, fuck! the sex is a lot better too, starting with a nice long session of thong kissing with my guy and making out really
good and long before I make him seat on my hard rock cock while sucking on his nipples really good, taking a lot of pleasure out of his really nice beefy ass while he rides my dick and I'm kissing his neck and ears as well, mmm!!!!, sure I get some fucking awesome shingles all over my body by the warm and juicy sensation of penetrating him in all kind of different positions, specially when he is laying in bed on his stomach and me in top of him massaging his back and shoulders with cocoa butter lotion with my hands while my wood verga(dick) massages his prostate from the inside out getting lost in such fucking amazing pleasure, he just got an amazing fucking generous hole between those meaty butt chicks watching my verga(cock) go all the way in and out all I want feeling how much satisfaction his body, mind and soul gets from it until I cannot longer hold it anymore and I just let all the juices of my cock flow and drain all the way deep inside of him and seeing his smile while he feels the throb of my ejaculation and breeding, mmm!!!, then after that I make him laid on his back and I laid on top of him while thonge kissing him and kissing his neck and ears and move my way down to his thick cock and suck it deep and nice while playing with his nipples, jerking his thick cock off until I swallow all of his yummy sperm until the last drop, then we'll smoke a cigarette and watch a movie before going to sleep, yeahhh!!!!,
and sure so far I don't mind about doing this just with him for before when I used to be so promiscuous and on drugs it wasn't as much fun for there is so much crap that comes along with being on drugs, a slut or an escort, like for example this guy Tom with the escort name Timjockla who advertises in several websites assuring complete discretion and yet even
after signing confidentiality agreements he tells lots of people about fucking Tom Cruise while he was filming this terrible movie World of the Worlds, and fucking with more then one married man and lying in the regular basis, and yet he pretends to be a professional hypnotist that can help other people, fucking with out condoms for the right talker and money while advertising safe sex, but he is not the only one for most of them lie about their age, stats and so and so, and now you will ask yourself if I have something against this guy, and the answer is maybe, why? well, he tried to get between
me and my guy, and I just will not let that happen with this guy or any other guy I'm with, because now I have a clear mind and spirit to move on easly if I have to, I have now the power to give and receive a much better love then ever before by being all sober for the first time since I was 16 years old, Now days I'm contemplating the idea of returning to porn and be better then I ever was with this new me and my Jesus Christ who keeps guiding me in this strange road in which sometimes I keep asking myself a lot of questions but I know that everything was for a reason and that my mission is only intensifying as I keep living this wonderful life of mine as a Jesus Christ server.
issue # 142
Monday, April 24, 2006
Today is my 6th day of a new life, I cannot get into details but all I can say is that I'm looking forward my life, I'm staying at my good long friend Bob here in Hollywood, CA and I'm meeting lots of really interesting people in these meetings that make me feel so good about myself, let's say that I'm working in my self esteem and getting back into feeling like when I was a teenager, so I been twice at the gym this week after working out only once in months, but little by little I'm gaining back my mental and spiritual strength and I feel each day stronger and stronger for my surrounding to the HIV FRAUD MACHINE is temporary because I realized that I need to get the strongest as possible in order to fight the biggest fraud ever in the history of man kind. 2 days ago on Saturday I showed off live on my website a good time jerking off for half an hour, mmm! it felt so fucking sweet!, These past few days also I been experiencing some really fucking awesome blow jobs at night draining my cock really softly and juicily, making out and getting him off while drinking his semen, mmmmmm!!!!! maybe tonight I'll be fucking pounding and breeding with my angry verga(dick) deep inside the generous, tender and juicy ass hole of this guy who is someone that I still have feelings for since he is helping me in this new road I'm taking in my life, I wanna be better then I ever was because I have and I'm still learning how to surrender to Jesus Christ who is my God in order to serve him better and like he want, so I'm eternally grateful for that.
issue # 141
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Today I have surrended to the angry AIDS fraud machine, but it's hard and complicated to explain but basically I'm just gonna stick to making music only for the time being and I hope my fans understand my decision besides there is planty of sexual material of me already, I can say now that that I think I have done it all as far as gay porn goes, mmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!, I feel like when Martina Hingis retired at just 22 years old, but I will concentrate in my music instead, and also I deleted some of the last few fucking pathetic journals postings. Now I hope that Jesus Christ can give me next morning all the guidance and II'm so greatful for his protection that hopefully I'll dream that I'm with him and he is hugging me with his perfect touch while giving me lots of endless soft little kisses all over my face wile I'm sleeping and dreaming tonight.
issue # 140
Thursday, April 06, 2006
I don't know if it is fucked up of me or not to did what I did, but sure it helped me feel so much better ever since I did it, now I feel like a new whole person, and what I did is taking a step further about not caring if my boyfriend fucks around or not, and that happened the night that we were in bed and I started to jerk off thinking of him getting fucked and sucking the cocks of these guys that I felt jealous of, it was fucking weird, but it was fucking awesome to think about it and it did not took too long before I ejaculated really good, and I became liberated from turning a thought from negative into positive and that is how turned into action what I learned not long ago in theory, and now I can see and feel waaaaaay better, and now I can appreciate myself better and feel a lot happier. I'm getting closer and closer to the day that I'll be making my own movies just like I make my own musical songs, and I have a feeling that I could be really good at it, so, I'll keep planning for that day, I want to be successful but as much as some one like Belinda Gates who I really admire for donating so much money to the right causes not the ones in question. Another good news is that B* D***k is set to start filming really soon a 3 month soap opera a la spanish ones for FOX, so it should be something really cool to watch on TV, I guess because I know her or because sounds like a good idea, why re- make Dallas or Dynasty when you can create something even better maybe? she and the new James Bond who finally have a perfect muscular body, so, cannot fucking wait to see the new Bond movie, but what I really look forward the most is "The transformers" that is cumin out on June 7th, 2007, yes!!!, so while waiting I piss my kilt when I watch "Mad TV" is the most funny show on Saturday night, and is been few years already since it too over the competitor SNL who lost their reason for being just like the royal family in England, and the Baptist churches with their preachers trying to make of their daughters the new Jessica Simpson who seems to be in question for adultery, one of the best things to do when you are a Baptist Christian, now, how fucking fucked up is that?, that Joe guy is currently the biggest white male pimp that ever walked planet earth's referring once about her own daughter's breasts as huge knockers or something really fucking vulgar like that, these people seems to live out of the stupid people who digs them, and there is so much fucking bull shit in this world any fucking ways that it made me give up my vitamins that I haven't take in a month or so, lately also I been drinking sodas, eating pizza and natural ice, I smoke cigarettes, but nothing it excess, Two nights ago on Tuesday my boyfriend and I too our girlfriend Deanene out for her birthday diner at "Beige" at Falcon Restaurant, and not only the food was fucking funktastic but also the crowd and the ultra warm wellcome from no one less the Rusty himself, they had a special roof for it was so rainy and fucking sweet like when I used to live in Germany, and the neighbor country of Netherlands just made me part of an upcoming article in their local gay news publication about bareback, so today I just completed my interview with them, and it seems like yesterday that I was just one more of the guys from "Blue Boy", those days!, But now days I'm so sure that who is been always, is and hopefully will always be the one that really belongs in my heart and yes is Jesus Christ that one.
issue # 139
Thursday, March 30, 2006
I finished my new song called "Chinese" on Wednesday, March 22, the rest of the days were a little not so fucking wonderful with some arguments with my boyfriend and all that crap but I learned yet something else but sure i won't say what it is for fear of backfiring at me, And Saturday, March 26th came along, at 12:00 PM PST I did a live masturbation show through my webcam at home here in Los Angeles, and sure I enjoyed a lot giving my very last orgasm of being 30 years old though my live webcam, a special show for my faithful fans, few hours later my boyfriend came back from work and took me to the airport and after a really extensive search by the airport guys that I could have easily avoided by not wearing this massive leather metal huge boots and kilt, and I really enjoyed all the attention, not for nothing I'm a fucking porn star, then I got my tabloids magazines, a bagel and cream cheese, is been a month since I don't take all those vitamins I used to take and I'm feeling a lot better actually, but I'm still in the experimenting process so I'll have to wait still to change my nutrition page, also I have been at the gym only once this year so far. I sleep that night in the air through many states and woke up in Florida, i arrived at Miami's airport around 5 AM and my good old friend Bobito was waiting for me and we went to the "Hard Rock" cafe and casino, and as soon as I ate something I went straight to bed to get some more sleep and around noon my boyfriend waked me up with a very sweet happy birthday phone call, took a shower and then Bobito came over and we went downstairs in the casino because he is so fucking into it that he'll do it 7 days a week a day, but he works 7 days a week, but we been just good friends back from 1995, and if he is happy that way, I love him anyway and that fucking rimes or what?, and really tried to figure out those silly machines but after not having much success and knowing that patient is not my best feature, then I took off my frustration by walking around dressed on my black punk kilt and huge boots while smoking some cigarettes, talking to my boyfriend in my cell phone, at some point I could not located him in my cell phone so I went fuckin crazy on him after disappearing for almost 2 hours but my good old friends Adam and Alex, Steven and Julio, Steve(Zorrillo), and Albert who confirmed with me about this latest trend of guys cumin out of the closet, lots of married man fucking other man, WOW!, if I was a hooker I would put in my ad not contact me if you are married or have a girlfriend cause the fucking karma that Albert and anyone pays for it is major, and I'm talking from experience because my ex boyfriend was married w/kids and I learn my lesson because I feel I'm still paying for that shit, you know? karma?. Having diner with my friend that night turned out to be a lot of fun even I made them wait in the table for an hour because I was in the phone with my boyfriend, then we came back to my room to chat about old times, then around 10:00 PM I was taken from Hollywood, FL to "Boardwalk" in Fort Lauderdale, FL which is the nightclub where I was promoted in the local rags to be performing live on my birthday show, we parked in the rear entrance and felt great seeing Mike again after so many years, he was in charge of everyone's security, a real fucking piece of man but I'm monogamous and sure he understood, once inside the office/my private dressing room I meet with Victor and his partner Jim who was praising me constantly and sure it felt fucking awesome, and got ready while chatting with him and my boyfriend in my cell phone, 5 or 10 minutes after midnight I hang up my cell phone after getting a happy birthday wish from him and was taken to the stage where a minor incident happened in the DJ booth, but once on stage and my song "Faggot" started playing I uncovered my body and face from my tread mark hooded cape, this one was all white, and once I did that I saw like around one hundred of my fans looking at me with this major smile and then all my worries disappeared in a second and after months finally I entered that zone which is hard to describe and I guess only people in the music business can really understand, but that was the only song I wanted to perform, so that way it will be more special in their memories, then they gave me a cake, they sung the happy birthday and made my heart smile like I was in heaven, I blew them off,(the candles, that is) and went back to my dressing room, took a little break and went back out into this dark area where a table was set up and I signed some of my movies and musical CDs that I gave away that night, and I have to say that for sure it was my cleanest appearance for I did not make out or got into any sexual contact with anyone and still it was fun, it was kind of a whole new situation for me and then I discovered that maybe it was truth what so many people told me before through the years about me being overly nice when doing my live shows appearances, but I don't regret anything of course, for it was part of my growing up. This cool guy and this couple of muscular guys from Canada where just fucking awesome to me, and it was really hard to tell them no to their offer of a free massage of 4 horny hands, so after signing dozens of autographs and getting my picture taken a lot it was time to go sleep, and my friend Bobito took us to the Hard Rock Cafe and fall at sleep so good but not for long because before going to sleep I talked with my boyfriend in my cell phone for a long fucking time, but I managed to sleep for few hours, then without even taking a fucking shower I was taken to the aiport and after that exciting search because again i refused to wear anything but kilts and big leather boots, and once I was back at LAX airport my boyfriend picked me up and we drove home for some fun surprise in the TV room that was transformed into a birthday room with helium blooms, presents, love cards, and a cake with 31 candles, oh fuck! it was so fucking sweet, that it sure made me forget all the fucking troubles and it became my best birthday ever. The next day it was time for romance with my guy. Last night we went to the Viper room to watch Jennifer Green Hut's fucking amazing performance, it makes me wanna be a fucking yogi too, pure good rock. Right now I'm writing from Beverly Hills where not long ago i saw Lindsay Lohan getting attacked by a bunch of paparazzi going out of this establishment, I love her raspy voice but Scarlet Johanson is so fucking hot too, also D. S. was there too with his wife and he is so fucking cool they way he interviews the comedians, so, I had to congratulate him for his show being extended, very laid back kind of guy, now I'm just gonna chill out with my guy and watch some movies we rented, hopefully very soon my new song will be on my site already, and now I must give all my gratitude to the mightiest ever which is of course Jesus Christ.
issue # 138
Monday, March 20, 2006
Last Thursday I confirmed a show celebration for my 31st birthday at "Boardwalk" Fort Lauderdale, FL for the night of Sunday 26th, yeahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!, and that same Thursday night this boyfriend of mine and I drove to Indian Wells, CA and stayed at some fucking nice hotel, next day we went straight to the "Pacific Life Open" tournament and I remembered being there before, this time I saw my favorite player Martina Hingis get her ass kicked by Maria Sharapova who reminded me of Monica Seles, and in the men's final it was a fucking pleasure watch Roger Federer play and wining yet another tittle, he is for sure the best male player ever, we did not hang out there for too long so we drove back home that night and it was rainy here in LA, I sucked him off and went to sleep, next day on Saturday he went to work and I did my live webcam show for my website, then I took a shower and went to West Hollywood and chilled out in there for a while then went home and my boyfriend arrived later and I was really horny so I cleaned up my butt hole and started to kiss him suck on his big nipples then I started riding his fat cock I was doing it really fast up and down and it was driving him nuts, then he put my legs in his shoulders and started fucking me that way and my love hole was really fucking juicy by now for he shot a load in there or it was just lots of pre cum, so then, I started to sucked his fucking nice cock until he shot a nice load deep inside my throat, as I was jacking off, then we went to sleep, and today I finished figuring it the name, how and what I'm gonna sing in this new song of mine, and I cannot fucking wait to record the voices to it, so hopefully I'll be doing this faster then Lindsay Lohan doing a line of coke, and the fights with this boyfriend of mine continues today, so it is really unfortunate that now days I'm thinking that is gonna be a miracle if we stay together forever, he has just no much experience in being a boyfriend, but the one who always did and still have the most experience on relationships is my ultimate protector Jesus Christ who always makes sure that me and all of his faithful servers stay fine and in the best conditions as possible to be the most effective.
issue # 137
Thursday, March 16, 2006
"Reconciliation"
Hey there my people! thanks for the amazing words of courage, now days marks a new beginning for me, and all I went throng I had to go through in order to grow and mature faster, so I decided to cut the crap for once and all, maybe because my good friend Jorg told me to tell this guy my feelings, what happened to me now, find out what is my wish and then inform him then to please make him respect my situation, then my friend Byres told me you know Jesus loved us all so`much he gave his life..and still loves us all...i once told a girl that if she loved her man, she should be "happy for him" if he is "happy" fucking another woman...because seeing him happy should be her goal in their relationship, and now my life is much better, Jesus used my people to talk to me through, so now I'm back living with this guy again but with the difference that I'm gonna concentrate way more in my career then experience any other fucking stupid negative bullshit thoughts or/feelings, that is why I starting to write here more often, and to celebrate our reconciliation I fucked sucked him off and then I fucked him twice dumping some huge couple of loads way deep inside his juice, warm and tender love hole, got him pregnant really fucking good, and to keep up on the celebration also we are driving very soon tonight to Indian Wells, CA so we can see live tomorrow morning the historic semifinal between Martina Hingis and Maria Sharapova, so fucking excited about that!. Staying Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and part of Wednesday over my good old friend Bob in Hollywood was really important for my new way of life I have chosed, Yesterday before the reconciliation I went to Peter's Palladino's home to do some new photos for his much anticipated book of porn stars, he showed me some amazing photos of these other famous male and female straight, bi and gay porn stars, and there was one photo of the most beautiful guy I had ever seen with the most beautiful piercing baby blue eyes and my breath went away my body, then I realized that he looked so much like me, then I starting laughing to find out that this photographer is so good that with some special effects he made my eyes that color that look so real that I had not fucking clue it was actually me but I looked as better as I could ever dream of getting, it was WOW, no wonder he is gonna use it as part of an art gallery cumin up and the book of course, now I'm working in what city and nightclub I will be making my annual birthday show, so far is been always in NYC, but this year the city may change, hopefully not the coast, because I feel that my birthday celebration belongs always in the east, and why? dunno, which means I don't know, and I'm gonna start filming my own movies and post them on my website from now and on, hopefully it will work and better then any other way ever before. And I'm endlessly thankful to my number one love ever always Jesus Christ because he the one who fill most of my healed heart.
issue # 136
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Today I have this big rush for writing in here because I have realized something really, really important!, I learned something that I cannot really explain right now, but someday I hope I will, as for right now I just wanna cry, there is so much stuff in my head, and yet I feel that crying is kind of stupid by now, time can be so cruel and yet such good healer that together makes the perfect combination of ingredients neccesary to acomplish what I been looking for, I just hope to never forget it, oh God don't let me forget what I just re- learned, please! because the pain in the heart sucks big fucking time but still I have the power to take full control, I never could have predict that not because one gets older it means one gets smarter, it can easy be the other way around, life can be waaaay too strange and not all that good when you don't make up you mind, I wish I can be right now in Italy or Miami to take this sorrows away, my time with this boyfriend of mine is over, it was great while it was a dream but once reality hits then is not longer a nice dream anymore, is just so sad, I need my people to comfort me right now and thank God I have my protector that takes always such good care of me, because after all my protector Jesus Christ is the only one that is always with me in my heart and since he is the best heart healer may he do it fast with his light.
issue # 135
Thursday, March 02, 2006
I been very bad this past month of February, I did not wrote that much, and now I feel lost trying to remember what I been doing lately, and there is not much to tell other then there is a little of a monotony going on in my life, but sure I enjoy it anyway because still I enjoy sex with my boyfriend, going to play tennis, hanging out at home, watching TV, lately we saw John Mc Enroe's comeback to the professional tour at 47 years old and winning another doubles title, so good for him and for Martina Hingis too!. One movie I really don't care to see at all is "The Da Vinci code", and not for nothing Tom Hanks is in it, he just keeps showing to me what an evil he is, I remember seeing him cruising in Griffit Park like 10 years ago with a friend in a jeep but I did not like it so nothing happened, and ever since then I learned a lot of horrible things about him and the choices of movies reflect who he really is, pure evil and her female version is Meryl Streep, I know I must be the only one that doesn't wanna ever see a movie with her because I can see beyond the bullshit and that lady is to me nothing but lucifer' deceiving people dressed as a human, same with Richard Gere's latest AIDS bullshit talk is making me regret I ever watched "Shell we dance", he cannot be so stupid to not know that HIV never existed and that AIDS existed since the beginning of times and will always exist, is not our problem that people like him use sex to sell but yet they don't believe in sex in real life or something like that. Last week on Saturday night my boy and I drove from LA to Las Vegas and on the night we went to the Caesar's Palace Hotel to see Celine Dion and we had great seats, the show was so fucking good because of all the special effects together with the best live music I had ever heard, she was a mistake free woman and she even cried after the first long long ovation she received after the 2nd or 3rd song, maybe because there was not even one empty seat in that whole huge stadium? but she cried again at the end also, she is for sure the best singer that ever lived, at least until she gets involved with some hiv/aids organizations. The day after that we went to The Tennis Channel Open and once we saw how far we had to park while there was so much empty free space closer to the Tournament we almost did not make it, but we made the effort and walked all that to enter the tournament and see some great tennis, and it was cool to be there. The next day we were not going to do all that walk again, so tennis was out so instead I cleaned my butt hole really good and started to make out with my boyfriend who was naked laying in bed, pretty soon his really nice thick cock got really hard and I got myself into the doggy style position and then his monster cock started to make his way deep into my hungry ass hole and it felt beyond amazing to have him pound my ass really good for a good for almost an hour until his cock exploded with some real big load of sperm way deep inside of me, then I started to suck on his cock until he got close to ejaculate again and quickly I inserted his fat cock inside my butt hole right when he started shooting his load, and I took that load also deep inside my horny love-hole while I jerked off while riding that cock seating on top of him and shooting myself a huge load of my semen all over his chest, mmm!!! after that we were ready for a nap but instead we went to visit his sister and family for a while and later that night we went out to hang out with this major movie star that I must refer as AB because he is as big of a celebrity as it gets and checking out the stores at the Caesar's Palace with him my boyfriend and this friend of his with his girlfriend was so much fun, he said that I was funny and I could see what a good time he was having with us, then we went to his gated community house and we all chilled out there for a while but half an hour after midnight was already too late so me and my boyfriend took off to our hotel room, and yesterday we drove back home here in LA and last night we had some great time because after i sucked him off and swallowed a huge load of his cum I fucked him really good dumping a huge load of my cum inside his hole, we were watching some porn we rented and sure it gave us some ideas, now I'll keep working in this new song of mine so it can be ready soon for once and all, and here goes my public thanks to Jesus Christ for being my protector and the one I live to serve and any ways he wants me to.
issue # 134
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
I been having some really annoying problems with this boyfriend of mine, he is been getting on my nerves and telling his people his own fukced up side of the problems we have, so I decided to do the same thing, and my people who are my fans and the ones who read this journal of mine, and the fact is that this boyfriend of mine used to be a heroin junky, he is 37 years old and he did the same thing that this other ex of mine I used to call Papito did, and that will be seeing guys behind my back with the difference that this current boyfriend claims not to had sex with him or anyone while with me, and sometimes I feel like letting him go and get it done with, and sometimes I feel like taking full control of him and hold on to him, so fuck yeah! it is so fucking hard to have a boyfriend but so far is more benefits then damage to me and the sex is so good, he fucks me and I fuck him almost daily, we cum into each others horny butt holes, Not long ago I recorded one of my jacking off shows and posted on my website, and also I created a brand new music video a la MTV for the very first song I ever created
called "Conectando", and sure I fucking love to see it over and over, and few days after it came out to the world through my website only, I got some tickets to the Grammy's, yes! I was invited to the biggest music awards on planet earth, it was my very first time at those awards and is ironic that my first industry, the gay porn industry does not invite me their awards which are nothing but the condom awards instead of a porn awards, the porn movies that the fans buy and see the most are not even part of those non sense gayvn awards, I hope the companies who are nominated give them lots of money because other wise is just not worth it, besides does anyone remember the past winners of those so called awards?, it just could not be any more pathetic, is so sad, and I just look from the distance and I really feel so bad for all those people while I went to the Grammy's, for one night I was part of the music industry celebration, (even a saw Ron Jeremy in there too), I felt like I was representing t, I will be representing the online talent with my underground song called "Faggot", and I felt like a wild card player because most people don't even remember the winners, because it seems like most people just remember situations, personalities, songs from the performers and everything that makes the person intriguing in these shows, only the desperate ones die to walk on that red or green carpet and lose appeal by letting their egos get out of control, but there is people who deal with their egos differently, because Eminem was that night in that building and same floor I was and it was hiding in one of the suites or something, and I wonder if he saw me walking around with my kilt and leather boots up and down like crazy non stop because after I had to cover my ears and turn my eyes away from the stage because unfortunately the opening number was made by this old woman who did a song not long ago singing that Jesus Christ did not resurrect while I and many others believe Jesus Christ resurrected and is the reason for us to live, it was a terrible time for me specially when I found out that Mariah Carey who I share my birthday with was the one planed to open up the show, but this older woman acting and looking like the whore of Babylon said that if she did not open the show then she was not gonna do it at all, but eventually her show was over and then this group called cold play did a good song too bad the singer is married to that actress Paltrow or whatever the fuck her name is, then I enjoyed Paul Mc Cartney but not as much as if it was John Lennon for John Lennon was one hundred times better then Mr. Mc Cartney will ever be and he should be ashamed for having such horrible daughter, her attitude makes me wanna vomit, but the old guy make us give him a standing ovation, and same thing with Kelly Clarkson, it was all about Kelly because the HIV advertiser called Christina Aguilera gets what she deserves for being so ignorant, arrogant and beyond annoying, she even makes me appreciate Britney fucked up trashy ways, and right after Mariah performed I left my seat located at the premium second level of the Staples Center in Los Angeles downtown, this is the beginning of people like me in the music industry, and together we can make this industry go up again, because once I lose my youth and looks I will have the music industry to fall into. When I started writing this I was on the way to Palm Springs from Los Angeles and my boyfriend was driving while I was writing, and the day after which is today I'm resuming this journal, on Sunday 26 I should be watching Celine's Dion show at Las Vegas so this little trip to Palm Springs is been great for both of us to enjoy each other, specially today that is Valentine's but I could not forget that my fans still mean a lot to me, and that is why I must post this today because I don't wanna keep connected, specially with friends like Dan Brady, who is someone with some amazing intentions, and is been a while that I don't get to talk with friends like him, but all my people are always in my mind, and think of them once in a while, is just that is so many people, and I apologize if I offended anyone with what I say in my journals but I'm human and expressing what I feel right now does not determinate the final feeling in the long run, now I must start working in my new song, and my Jesus Christ help me and guide me for it as well as the ultimate protection that he provides for me as another faithful server of his and that for I'm not ashamed of him but eternally grateful for this life of mine.
issue # 133
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Well, yes!, it is the same excuse and reason, no time to write about how exciting my life is because it that, too esciting, so no time to stop time and life so I can write what I been experiencing in life, so busy living it, but I think of all of the people I love and then I feel a huge rush to connect with them in my own ways. After the second week of this first month of 2006 I became blond again, and I feel so happy about it that hopefully I will be blond until the day I die, and I keep wearing kilts
instead of pants and most guys die to wear them too specially the young generation, for example, there is a male high school student named Michael Coviello in Hasbrouck Heights, NJ who won few days ago the right to wear kilts and skirts to school with the help of the American Civil Liberties Union, and who knows how soon guys will start wearing them, and if no one does then better for my uniqueness, but sure this is a really fascinating situation for me. Over a week ago it was the Golden Globe Awards and my boyfriend had to be part of it so I drove him to meet Joan and Melissa Rivers for he is part of the team that is by now the symbol of the biggest red carpet events in LA and NYC, and sure with out them the red carpets events will lose their magic, then I went to the heart of West Hollywood to walk my doggie, and I spent my day relaxing doing not much until I had to pick up my boyfriend at the Beverly Hills Hotel where he was working in those Golden Globe Awards, then we went home for a good fuck and a good night sleep. We been taking it easy, watching TV, we also watched "BrokeBack Mountain" and sure now it's my favorite movie, about time a movie like this was done, this actor Heath Ledger is so hot!, also we been playing tennis at some public courts near by home, and we are so addicted to it, I kick his ass always at it of course, but he can serve better then me, is just that watching Martina Hingis back in action at the Australian Open on TV this year after 4 years of being retired and she is playing better then before, in fact she is playing the final for the mix doubles title, so no bad for a comeback, but then there is also Amelie Mauresmo who was a gay icon way before she won this year's first Glam Slam, she is to me right now the Roger Federer of tennis, same game style but maybe even more scarier because she forced 3 of her opponents to retire, and there is also the Bryan twins who keep winning Glam Slam tittles as well, WOW!. but enough of tennis! at least for now because my boy and I are thinking in going to Las Vegas to see Celine DIon on Sunday Feb. 26 and watch the first couple of rounds of the "Chennal Open" tournament, so it should be lots of extra fun to how much fun my life already is now days. specially when there is fans out there already telling me that this new movie of mine called "Eating cum with Jeff Palmer" that came out last month is super fantastic and I'm eating so much sperm in it too making me a real fucking pig, mmm! sweet!, so it touched my heart, their sweet words always melt me inside. Yesterday B* D***k came over home for a quick visit to my boyfriend who also works in the entertainment business, and she seemed really happy to see us again, and it seems like her dog line products are doing really good and fucking love using them in our doggy Mickey. We been shopping, doing errands and all that home shit. This morning I was so horny and the lips of my butt hole was itching, I knew it was hungry and it was time to feed it with some nice thick piece of meat that my boyfriend provides me with, so after a good cleaning session from my part I lubricated my ass hole to make it extra juicy inside and today I wanted to get it like a dog from behind, I told him to take his time because his cock was hard as a piece of steel and is really thick but once it was all inside as far as it could go then I made him pump my ass and fuck me hard while my ass was really up in the hair and his big hands grabbing me by my small waist and fucked me so hard ejaculating this way a big load of his sperm inside me and then we changed positions and he fucked me with my feet's in his shoulders while I was seeing his thick monster hard cock go in and out of my juiced up and stretched out and abused love hole, then he laid down on the bed on his back and I started to play with his nipples and cock and when he was getting close to cum again quickly I stick it inside my butt hole and rode that fat cock while shooting big loads of more sperm deep inside my happy and really juicy cavity of mine, yes my ass hole was completely satisfied, so he started to stroke my cock until I shot a big load on his chest, mmmm!!!!!!, and after I dropped him at work I came back home and jerked off my cock live on my website, it was a 30 minutes show, getting off today twice, yummy!!, and my dick gets hard just by writing about this stuff, so I guess I'm really blessed by Jesus Christ because my life is so exciting and happy, so the only bad thing of this relation with this boyfriend of mine is that once in a very while it can get really angry too about certain things and misunderstandings, but by talking it out I feel fine again and even much better afterwards, so thanks to Jesus I'm with a guy who don't mind talking and dealing things out because other wise it would have been over a long time ago. May Jesus Christ keep making sure my life is the best as it can be, for him, for me, and for others.
issue # 132
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
It's 2006!, and I feel more then ever that time keeps running away from me, but I'm so healthy, happy, comforted, blessed,
protected, sexually satisfied and loved that I guess is the only negative thing in my life making it almost perfect, there is so
many people I know that I haven't get back or call, and I hope that all of you, yes, you Mickey Boardman!, I had plans with
him to meet him at work at PAPER magazine headquarters in NYC but I could not made it, and there is Gina Medina,
Michelle, and the list goes on and on. Since November of 2005 I changed the style of pants I wear, since then I only wear
pants that are tight at the bottom, they are called pig leg pants I think, and they are stretchy so they are extremely tight on
my legs and the reason I love them so much is because so far most guys wear the really baggy ones, and this way I can look
and feel special, also I'm wearing almost everyday along with this pants this big black warm ski mountain boots because
the hugs are taken over they woman already. I decided to show off my body this year even before it started for if I have a
body to show I'll show it either is cold or warm, that simple! Maybe watching on cable the "Susana Gimenez" hispanic
international cable show instead of "Laura" is the reason of my change of taste of clothes?, but an important thing on TV
for me was when I saw this one set doubles match of Martina Navratilova and John Mc Enroe against Martina Hingis and
Jim Courier, with the oldest ones winning, but when the Martinas played a set in a single match the younger won and stills
looks really good at 25 years old and can seve better too. Few days before Christmas my boyfriend had to go to one of
Melissa Rivers's home in Malibu, CA, she is a huge TV personality and I enjoyed a lot talking not only with her a lot but also
with her maid because she is brazilian so I practiced my Portuguese and sure I should be under the impression that she
does not know who I am, but she knows way more then she says which is fucking clever, she is really fun to hang out with
and is totally into guys with blond and light eyes for she is not currently married. On the 24th of December 2005 my
boyfriend, our doggy and I (of course) packed our bags, place them into our jaguar together with a bunch of gifts and
drove to Las Vegas on the way I worked in this new song cumin out on the very first month of this year and with a big
surprised included too! After few hours we arrived to Las Vegas and checked in at Mandalay bay Hotel and drove to the
house of my boyfriend's sister for Christmas diner with her family and drop off our presents, then we came back to our
hotel room for a good long fuck in which he proceeded to introduce his thick cock into my hungry stretched out and lubed
up butt hole of mine, and I ride it while he lays down in the bed, and after making him ejaculate inside my ass hole that
way his cocks stays hard and keeps fucking me in a different position like doggy style and dump another load and keep
fucking me and shot yet another load of sperm inside my already juiced up hole, with my legs on my shoulders position and
I feel like a big river of semen deep inside of me going back and forward, and lots of it!, then I make him lay in the bed and
I sucked his cock, nipples, and all over his body, his mouth and tongue until he ejaculates inside my mouth, and right after
that I put it quickly back into my love hole and then I jerk off my big hard cock and cum all over my chest while his thick
cock massages the inside of my butt hole so good, it's so intense to ejaculate with someone you love over and over the same
way with out minding at all being so repetitive, and we do it at least once a day, sometimes twice a day, he sure can
ejaculate many times in a day everyday, mmm!!!. The next day in the morning after having a long fuck session again, we
showered and went to his sister's house again to record on our video camera the moment when his family open the many
presents we got for them, and we got some presents too!, it was a real family Christmas for me and sure I enjoyed it a lot,
nothing sexual about it but yet fun. Few days after Christmas we drove back home to Los Angeles and we got ready for
driving again but this time to Palm Springs, and we stayed at the "Hope Springs" Hotel which is not much gay at all but it
was a romantic stay with my boyfriend so sure i did not care, the Jacuzzis are great for that hot water was supreme on the
skin of my body, and we rested, fucked and really enjoyed ourselves, then we drove back home to LA and here I'm few
days after unpacking and in these few first days of this brand new year I spent with some man I really love and gives me
the happiness I have not really quite experience before, is like a total giving and taking, I feel like the world may want me
to move into a different place, concentrating into being a musician only with out being too commercial, keeping my music
at the same level, the same as before Tori Amos went commercial. But I would not say good-bye to my porn career with out
a final film that should be my really best one, I will keep masturbating live like today for example, I got a show at 3 PM
PST, and will still feature in this website all of my sexual content which will became my past and transform myself into a
"song&music writer", but for now I'm enjoying so much this little gift from my super fantastic boyfriend, yesss! for
Christmas he got me a "I POD" and two $50 "I TUNES" music cards! and I like it so much that I'm almost done with one card
already, it's genius! Last night we had our first romantic diner of the year at "Beige" at Falcon restaurant in Hollywood, CA,
great atmosphere and there was plenty of kisses, cuddles and talk with him, a great margarita pizza, mucho yummy
chicken and spinach and super service, lots of young fantastic people but we kept it to ourselves because it was a romantic
diner, but on our way out we got to say hello to Rusty who was valet parking his brand new pearl Range Rover as we were
getting our jaguar from those rapidos valet parking guys, And today between a live masturbating show and a man to fuck
me and fuck later means a lot of action for my cock, yeahhhhhhhhhhh!! so I must end this journal diary fucking thing now,
because right now my universe is great, I'm living in heaven, it's such a wonderful life! and it is like that because of Jesus
Christ who is my eternal number one for he guides me and provides me like always so I can serve him however he wants
for I am his eternal server and sure I celebrated a lot this past birthday of his.
issue # 131
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
The last time I wrote was from NYC and I was staying at this hotel called "The Mercer" and yes, I was listenning to my latest
track musical track "Faggot" non-stop, just like I'm doing right now, and sure is a very excentric situation I have managed to
involved myself with, and sure I fucking love it, because when I'm listenning to my own music there is no worries, like the
ones I had with my boyfriend because it is such fucking job to keep control of him and the enviroment where he works, I have made him to change his email address, home phone number and cell phone number, and I'm not ashamed to admit that I keep a leash really tight on him other wise it would not be my dog, the tighter I keep the leash the more interest I have in my dog who loves to be trainned, I learned to put all my interest or why even bother?. so our sex life is getting even better, and he enjoys more and more dumping loads of his sperm deep inside me and the other way around too, I keep enjoying sucking his cock and him sucking mine, kissing him all over his body and mouth, and I go fucking crazy losing myself in the feeling of my skin against his, is really intense and very strong the way we fuck, everyday we must get off at least once, and sure the next movie I'll make is gonna be like in the Falcon days, by then, (1 or 2 months from now) I should have acumulated a really huge sexual energy because is been around 4 months already since I'm not longer the slut whore I used to be and exchanged that for the monogamous life and as result it seems like I keep meeting more and more of the current biggest celebrities and movies stars from this planet, and sure it is really fascinating to be in NYC on December 5th with my boyfriend inside of the car that is transporting inside with us the gilrfriend, mother and father of this really cool actor who I must refer as AB in order to keep my discretion with out having to lie, and after 30 minutes of being in this line that ended at the entrance of the red carpet for the world wide premiere of Peter Jackson's "King Kong", we waited even more for the security personal to give us the ok to get out of that black tinted windows track and AB was there looking really sexy but that was the last time I saw him that night because this woman that working there saw me and right away grabed me by the arm and made me go with my boyfriend into the red carpet, and it there was was walking the red carpet in front of endless cameras. photographers, paparazies, and walking right next to other celebrities like for example the current king of comedy Will Farrell who is the comedian from the movie "Bewitchet", it was really fast and crazy, they sure took some good photos of myself and I wonder if anyone had a clue in there that I was the king of gay porn, but sure I told myslef like I still do that i was just another person into this monster huge world premiere, and the call of the king of animation wasn't in vein, because it was worth going there and feeling like almost crying right at the end for how romantic it was, and how well of an actress is Naomi Watts, she is for sure an oscar winer in my book, currently she is my favorite aussie, I saw her really close right next to me and I could tell how really cool she really is, The movie was shown in 2 theathers, and in the one I was in I saw the king of real state in USA Mr. Donald Trump who took a pick at me while I was going up the stairs in the dark after a pissing break, and I was wearing this really tight white pants show sure he could not help but noticing me, after all I had a totally updated Peter Berlin look in me that night. Once the movie was done we all took a bus to where the party was, even big stars like Glen Close had to do it for it was really stricted, and there was a lot of food in there that we did not eat and instead we just hang out for a while before taking a taxi cab back to our hotel and the next day it was our last day to enjoy each other for we got separated later that day on Tuesday 6th I flew back to LA and he flew to Berlin, London and Paris, and at the time I had to decide if I would go back to Europe or not, but I really was not ready, I'm not ready as today to go back to Europe, by now I'm more American then Bob Hope and Dolly Parton and I just don't wanna wake up and be in any other country, specially with all of the current war and France turning over night into the biggest arab country and I don't have anything against arabs but sure some of them blow themselves up making the rest of them look really bad for is the ultimate disrespect to life and making people like me not want to go back there again, for fear of the basic, and for fear of so much water in between too. Once I arrived here in Los Angeles I saw my doggie Mickey Junior and our girlfriend Denine, then she left and I called it a night, next day and the few days afer I was talking over the phone with my boyfriend most of the time I was up, on the last day, on Saturday night we spoke for over 12 hours with breaks with just few breaks of 8 or 15 minutes only, it was so fucking weird, like wanting to even breath for him, never before did such thing, getting older is making me do crazy things but in way different ways then before wich makes my life much more exciting. Now days I'm almost done with the music part of this new song I'm creating, I even have the tittle ready, I want it out before christmas, I'm keeping my lifve very simple so I can be the happiest and really live the moment, live in the moment, and I'm so glad sometimes that I don't get to be some money hungry person like Oprah(richest woman on USA TV) who lies about her girlfriend Gayle so much that maybe karma will take her away from her and find out that there is so much more then money and power that is why is so cool that B* D***k's bouyfriend(the actor of "My big fat weeding" John Corbett is turning himself into a country star, It will be so fucking cool if Nicole Kidman can get pregnant then everybody will remember that the reason she did not get pregnant in those 10 years is because Tom Cruise's sperm was not good to make kids that is why they adopted 2 or 3 kids, now his new girlfriend is pregnant? hopefully Nicole Kidman will protect herself very well from another misscarriage that will favor Mr. Cruise, and why I don't like Mr. Cruise? because his religion reflects what a liar he is, just like John Travolta, if I have to be a liar to be in his religion then I can forget about watching their movies, But sure I have to say they are the best liars and players in Hollywood because other ones like Ben Affleck have tried hard but then I feel so bad for him to see photos in the magazines of his girlfriend or wife really pregnant french kissing another guy for this TV show she works for, I will wanna die if I see my boyfriend kissing another guy, even if is for 10 million dollars, that's is more fucked up then the Hilton sisters, i could not do it, and God knows I have been a big whore in the past, so glad I'm not an actor, Kelly Clarkson is a really cool american singer that grew on me a lot, just like this actor Jake Gyllenhaal who really redimed himself from going from an horrible war movie to an oscar one called "Brokeback Mountain" but I like calling it BB Mountain, mmmmm!!!, now this movie I must watch with my boyfriend soon! is such cool movie that even makes Jakes ex girlfriend Kirsten Dunst go crazy drinking and partying, ay caramba! Now I got to get ready for my "Masturbating on Saturdays with Jeff Palmer" show I do on my website and get off my ass and keep enjoying this fucking wonderful life of mine under the ultimate protection from the mightiest who is Jesus Christ and who I'm glad to serve.
issue # 130
Sunday, December 04, 2005
The Holidays are here!, it's December 4th!, it's so amazing that the whole year is ending soon and is ending so well that it feels to me like I have it all, an amazing love life, an amazing spiritual life, an amazing career, an amazing health, and there is so little left I can wish for, and the thing that may be really funny to some people is that the reason for my extreme happiness is because I just simply take advantage of Jesus's guidance, making sure to always live in the best dimension as possible not matter where it is, and this is my reason that explains why it's feels better for me the older, I'm thinking better.
The only bad thing is that I'm not writing in my journals as often and it really bothers me so here I'm. There is few bad things in having a boyfriend besides not being able to longer be a slut which I really don't mind anyway, but also having to control his cell phone's calls, emails, he got rid of all the porn, dildos, photos, phone numbers, condoms, lubes and everything from his past from his house, the whole house is clean from any 3 lover, no 3 ways with us, sorry guys!, i feel like I'm a dog trainer, but this time I'm determined not to make the same mistakes I did before with Papito, and i really fucking get off on it too, because if there is something I have learned in my life is that it takes being a trainer, if the dog doesn't like being under my control then is not a dog for me, so we fuck everyday, and sure he stretches my butt hole really good with his really fat cock, now days the lips of my ass hole are getting bigger and hungrier, lately he is dumping his loads of semen really deep inside my ever hungry love hole then while he is eating his own sperm out of my butt hole I'm sucking his cock and swallow his sperm really good, and right after that I jerk off my cum all over his chest, sometimes he eats my sperm, and sometimes I fuck him right after getting him off and dump my load of cum deep inside his nice and generous butt hole, sometimes we fuck twice a day, get lost kissing and I like to kiss and lick all of his body and I like rubbing my hands all over his body and tongue kiss him like the slut I cannot longer be and just go fucking crazy when we fuck. We cuddle and hold hands constantly either on the streets, parties, airplanes, and seeing people's response is so fascinating and most of it is really positive.
2 days after 49 years old Bo Derek came over to our house in Silverlake, Los Angeles with her dog to give my boyfriend her amazing brand new line of dog products and candles, and my puppy french bull dog really enjoyed playing with her much bigger dog. This year I have been at the gym not more then 2 dozen times in total for I have discovered the secret to keep the same size of body and muscle with out yoga or lifting weights often, but next month I should start filming a new movie with SX Video, it should be the 4th part of my barebacking series so I may do some right before starting to film. One tennis player that ended the year the best way he could have is David Nalbandian who became "The master of tennis in 2005" won around 1 million in a half dollars, secured his place in the top 10 world rankings, he defeated one of the strongest number 1 players in the history of tennis and his home town goes out on the streets to celebrate, making him a national sport hero, WOW! congratulations David! . Let me mention now all the stupid people that piss me off, Meryl Streep is the most annoying actress I have ever seen in my life and sorry for my honesty but I wanted to confess this a long time ago but I didn't for fear of being judged but honestly I cannot care less for anyone who choses to be so ignorant like her, life is not just acting in movies, and Salma Hayek sure has automatically reached that horrible low level of ignorance by joining forces with the HIV fraud, but she had it coming for not winning that Oscar, Adios to her movies for me. Once upon the time Tammy Faye used to be a great evangelical woman here in USA until she gave up her faith in God in exchange of chemotherapy and all that goes against real faith in God making him look bad, so she may have to go away soon, sorry miss Tammy! we all make mistakes!, and I don't really care that Enrique Iglesias is so proud to have a small penis but one thing for sure is that I'm not watching HBO ever again, they sold themselves out to the HIV people, so now I'm going with their competition and not them, not more HBO for me. Same thing with any movies with Angeline Jolie and/or Brad Pitt, they have pictures of themselves making out in this horrible movie they did and yet they deny making out while him being married, so can you be more of a liar? how much stupid they think people are? they starting to remind me of Caroline and JFK Jr., but thank God for Jennifer Aniston who is the biggest A celebrity in Hollywood right now, and for Ryan Phillippe for his is so yummy to watch, so now if he want to do the cross over to porn while he still young will be more then great, because there is more and more actors doing it, you see, Pamela Anderson, Paris Hilton, Tommy Lee have done and now this one called Tom Sizemore is sure to be the best one of them all, he can keep an erection for ever and he is not bad looking at all for his age, it is amazing how ever since I started doing porn this crossover started happening and getting bigger as the time goes by and sure I like to feel like I'm part of the cause of this, even of course I maybe not.
Last Sunday me and my boyfriend flew from Los Angeles sleeping in the air above many states and waking up in NYC, we checked into the Mandarin Oriental Hotel, and we showered, order food and we fucked, then we went out for shopping, we came back to our hotel room and watched some movie and fell at sleep, the next day he woke up early to go to work for the promotion of this new movie called King Kong, then did some errands, went online, went to walk out on the streets, then my man came back from work and we had great sex, I was already clean, naked and with lots of lotion on my body, then we went out to eat and then we stopped by Bob's who is one of his girlfriends, she is "the world's famous burlesque" and we gave her some christmas presents. The next day on Tuesday I came over to visit my boyfriend at work and on the elevator of this building I saw the main actors of this movie "King Kong" the blond actress and one of the 2 main actors and won't say who it is because then I'll be giving away the name of the one that my boyfriend is working for and I respect his wish for total discretion and I refer to him as Mr B, he is so fucking nice and cool and I really like his long time girlfriend Ms M, so sorry if I'm being so vague but is really hard for me right now to give away any more details because I'm still hanging around these huge world movie stars and some of them want more discretion then others and the paparazzi can be tough, so I try to keep my distance from them the more as I can. This week in NYC passed by really fast, between enjoying the spa services of that fantastic Mandarin Oriental Hotel, I would go visit my boyfriend at work, go downstairs where is Whole Foods, (1 of my favorite supermarkets), go out shopping with my boyfriend, and taking it really easy enjoying these holidays. Yesterday me, my boyfriend and all of his client's entourage moved to "The Mercer" hotel, yes!, the infamous one where this same year the australian actor Russell Crowe earlier hurt an employee's face in the front desk with a phone, not even with his fist. And I have to say that this hotel room is fantastic, last night my boyfriend fucked me so good, after all I was in such hungry aggressive horny mood, but now is Sunday here in NYC and started the day snowing, tomorrow Monday I should go with my boyfriend to the world premiere movie "King Kong" for Kong is right now the king of animation, and me the king of gay porn will go see another king, other kings and queens and thousands of people are going too, and now I got to stop writing but not with out before thanking the whole mighty Jesus Christ, king of kings for being the one who makes sure my happiness is always there so I can serve him as long as I live.
issue # 129
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Almost every day, every morning I get to suck on a nice big fat cock, it's my boyfriend's, and is only for me to enjoy it, and sure I take my time doing it while he just seats in the couch and smokes tobacco, mmmm!!!, his sperm goes either inside my mouth or inside my butt hole, sometimes I get off inside his hole making it really juicy and filled with my sperm after
fucking his yummy hole for as long as I can, specially if I'm giving him a full body massage that I enjoy giving him sometimes, but I always end up massaging his prostate from the inside with my rock hard cock, and sure he also reattributes the same way for me because he fucks me so good with that fucking fat cock of his and makes me shot big loads while I'm riding his cock on top of him, we kiss, cuddle and go clean, mmm!!!, then while he showers I'll make breakfast, then I kiss him good bye to work and I stay in the house taking care of it my dog and I'll go online too, make errands and all simple cool stuff that makes me feel normal and total human, is been 2 weeks already we took out the Christmas tree, a silver vintage one from the 50's, and it looks awesome at night. Last week on Wednesday we went to the Staple Center in downtown Los Angeles to watch play tennis live and win Maria Sharapova and later another match with Amelie Mauresmo who is open lesbian and actually won the whole tournament this year, it was really exciting and my very first time in that Staple Center big building. The next day Thursday I went with my boyfriend to this job he had working in the set where Carmen Electra (actress) was filming some commercial ad for a casinonevada.com website or some wrestling thing, not quite sure, but hanging out in her dressing room with her and talking about ideas for a great horror-thriller movie for he to star in, and jokes about her having problems with not being able to control at times her butt hole and shitted many time before inside her own panties. 2 days after, on Sat. 12th I enjoyed myself all naked and really horny in one of my couches jerking off my cock live in front of my laptop with my webcam until I just couldn't take it anymore and it exploded really big all over myself, then I cleaned up and started packing because few hours later, early next day me and my boyfriend flew to NYC at JFK and we arrived Sunday after noon, then we took a shower and we went out for diner with Bob who is the most famous burlesque woman in the world, and it was fun because she is so funny, then we came back to the hotel room of these double tree hotel we were staying in, and soon after we put her in a car to get her back to her apartment, then it was just me and my man having a good time fucking him and sucking him off, and the next morning he had to wake up early to work with this beautiful actress Sela Ward because she was gonna be at a TV show called "The View" then he came back to the hotel room and we went enjoyed ourselves in this hotel, then the next day he had to wake up extra early morning to work at this other TV show, then he came back and we had great sex then he went to meet Joan and Melissa River's team because they had to be at the red carpets of the Country Music Awards doing the only thing that people care for in these kind of TV shows which is gossip about each other looks, talents, clothes and other insecurities, then he came back to the hotel room and then we went to their dressing room and was great to see Joan Rivers again and always so cool to me telling me how nice is to see me again and all that, then not too long after that we all went to this TV Guide channel interview show that was so, so funny, and by the time they ended taping it was after midnight, then we came back to the hotel room had great sex and fell at sleep, the next day I wanted to go with him to work with my boyfriend so I did and got to see Sela Ward being interviewed by Isaac who is the host of this new upcoming TV show on a channel called "E Style" or something like that, he was so funny, I couldn't believe it, he was even more funnier then this comedian called Kathie Griffith, then we went back to the hotel room and had a long session of hot sex, the next day he went to work by himself really early and it was for the TV show "Fox&Friends" and then for "The Tony Danza Show", S**a W**d and her team were a busy one on those days, and finally me and my boyfriend had few hours to make some great love, eat, pack our bags, shower and take off to the airport, and it is so much better do a long flight with the human you love the most at the time and sleep into each other's arms with out worries of what people say, so we arrived to LAX on Friday and we were so happy to see how well our girlfriend Dennine took care of our doggy Mickey Jr., so in his behalf she got a cool peace of jewelry, just so it goes to show her that my doggy knows how to treat his bitches. And today Saturday I just finished doing a live show on my webcam through my website, got all horny and stroked my cock for almost half an hour and also i fucked myself with all of the fingers of one hand, I almost fisted myself and felt amazing, mmm!!!!, then I ejaculated a big load of my sperm and now trying to finish this journal of mine, in top of that also I'm planning in doing lots of more new music I'm planning and other stuff that won't mention what it is for fear it will not happen soon, so I have to work harder and try to do the right thing always because there is a lot of people out there who thinks is doing good and the truth is that they steal husbands once and twice, they try to look like lady DI in front of the world with the AIDS charities and they don't even really know what is that they are doing actually, and Angeline Jolie is the best example to me of how not to be, besides there is a lot of kids in this country who needs as much help as in any other country, maybe I should not read any more tabloids but then again I need to inform myself of who should I let entertain me, I don't consider myself an stupid being for I will always use that right of mine to research, confirm or disapprove of any entertainer who could entertain me and they are just few, so far some of my favorite artists left is Hillary Duff and Kirsten Dunst for they still can manage to avoid any connections with the AIDS/HIV organizations, but I'm afraid that is a matter of time before I read and see a photo of them in some AIDS charity, but Kirsten dumped that terrible actor who is did a war movie at the worst time possible and may God help the families of all the soldiers who died, are dying and will die in this war, (they are real heroes), so you never know. And I hope that not too many people let their kids read or watch the new Harry Potter movie, for it praises what is not God's, and may Jesus Christ always guide me, keep me happy, protect me and let me serve him the best as I can always as long as I live.
issue # 128
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
YESSSSSSSSSSSS!, It was beyond spectacular performing live on Saturday, Oct. 29th my brand new song "Faggot" in front of around 700 people who were 18 years old and over at "Firestone" which is the biggest live stage nightclub straight or gay in the whole State of Florida, but it didn't happened until the end, they had to wait, so before I started dancing in one of the boxes in the dance floor with the crowd, and sure I showed my butt hole really well, it looked very huge and inviting from that box with high lights, I enjoyed so much dancing my ass off literally because it was around 1 AM, but then at 2AM it became 1AM again because of the saving light time change of 1 hour, so basically people got an extra hour to get extra drunker, then there was a contest for Halloween customs and while on stage I was humping the one with the custom of a centaur on stage because is the symbol of the sign of my boyfriend, and the centaur won that night the contest and $1.000 cash, then they started playing a 1 minute introduction music while I was being announced into the same stage where others like Britney Spears and Justin Timberlake performed their own music before me, and I was covered in this brand new white hooded cape and once my new song "Faggot" started playing I took off the hood of my head and revealed myself and at that time I felt like Freddie Mercury, and at that point I told Jesus Christ to take over me and this super feeling took over me and I just felt so good, it was just like the good old times, but also i remembered how much energy it used to take from me because I would give 100% each second while being on stage and that's a lot of seconds to hundreds of people to give my energy to, but I turned into pleasure to recover energy and create a cycle this way, for cycles are what people always look for and the one I lived was fucking major and powerful, cycles are the point of living for me, and sure I got what I gave because I ended that show being so happy and with others very happy as well too making it a mission very well acomplished. Right after the club closed I was taken to my hotel room were I took a shower and packed, then it was the airport and I slept some in the airplane back to Los Angeles, CA all the way from Orlando, FL. then I went into the parking lot of LAX got my Jaguar and drove home to my boyfriend and my 4 month old french bulldog named "Mickey", that day we took it easy and I sucked his big thick cock for the longest time and before he got to near ejaculation I make him fuck me really good, his cock sure make my prostate feel like in ecstasy, specially when I seated on his cock and ride it that way taking my time and moving in many different ways taking full charge of his dick deep inside of me and admiring his big tattooed body, kissing him, sucking on his nipples, then I sucked his cock again and he ejaculated inside my mouth and I swallowed all of his sperm, then he turned around and let me fuck him really good all I wanted, and his butt hole is just so fucking juicy, soft, tender, seducing, inviting and really generous because I can pound and pound hard as I want and most times I can fuck as long as I want, but it feels so amazing fucking someone you love that it makes me ejaculate kind of too fast sometimes, and he loves me to deposit all of my esperma(sperm) deep inside him as often as I wish, open 24/7 like the seven eleven stores, and I like to visit it almost everyday, making the disposable enema business a really good one now days, is just that when my butt hole is really really clean then I enjoy my boyfriend licking and sucking it really good, he got me into it because he just loves doing that specially right after being stretched by his big fat penis, and it makes my whole body tingle because he goes crazy for it, but also I got to mention all the times that he sucked me off under the blankets draining and swallowing my semen real good. Having a boyfriend is making my life much more happier then I imagined, he got us some white gold rings as commitment, and yesterday it became 3 months since together, we drove to Palm Springs and chilled out and relaxed at this straight resort that accepts pets, we go shopping, he loves getting me clothes and stuff, I painted the kitchen in orange and he love it, I got a new gardner and making the landscaping of our big house better and better, all really domestic stuff, and I'm still Jeff Palmer, making my lives masturbation shows every Saturday, a new movie cumin out, I'm just feeling more and more like I have it all as the days pass by in this new exciting life of mine, but it does not surprise me because faith in Jesus Christ really works when is real faith, After not feeling happy with making my own music available to my members only I came back to my original decision of not commercializing in any way with my music and sorry to the music industry if people like me causes their decline but is their own fault after all, and their mistake is for me to know and for them to figure it out. Now I'm starting to learn my ways to avoid an engineer to work with and make my musical creations even more personal, yesss!!!I feel this huge urge like never before inside of me that is burning me to make more music, and tons of it. I'm not much into watching TV shows but there is one that I may start watching this one called "OC", but depending if Nicole RItchie is in it, she is just some actress I'd like to see on TV at least until I find out that she got involved with some AIDS/HIV charity like Christina Aguilera just did and lose all of my interest on her for someone that much ignorant does not deserve my attention anymore. Is not a secret that I been such a huge slut in the past that I wanted for me and my boyfriend to do a syphilis test because I know the HIV virus is a fraud but since I'm not sure about the rest is why I did that spooky test expecting to take the antibiotics presuming I would have it for sure, but for my huge surprise It was negative, so, or I don't have it because of Jesus's miracle or is a fraud like HIV as well, because God and lots of people knows I have been very, I mean very exposed to it, so who knows? all I know is that I'm really healthy and clean after all the self sex hard-core abuse I did put on myself all my life, and I'm gonna give the credit, honor and glory to Jesus Christ for always protecting me from so many diseases and many other things too.
issue # 127
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
2 Saturdays ago at 3PM I jerked off live in my website through my webcam and ejaculated really good in front of a good
amount of my fans, the day after, on Sunday I flew to Portland, OR with my boyfriend for a romantic get away and also to
sell my Nissan Altima, and we stayed at the nice hotel "Lucia", we rented a car and sold my car to my ex-roomte Paul and it
was great to be back there for a little while, it was a really romantic couple of days, and while there sure I enjoyed fucking
his super warm, tender and really juicy butt hole from behind and massage his body at the same time, but the pounding on
him didn't last more then 20 or 30 minutes because I lose control inside of him, and what a major pleasure is for me to
sucking his cock and feeding myself with all of the sperm I can take from his cock, mmmmm!!!!!!!, eating his semen everyday
is something I really look forward to it, he is the first man ever to make me feel like he is all mine and just mine, and I'm all
his, not 100% like I belong to Jesus Christ but a 99% because he is human and he understand this, that is why he gave me a
white gold ring to wear on my left hand with a matching neckless, also it is very funny and fascinating to me to see people's
reactions when we are out in public on the streets, and they see us holding hands and cuddling in the airplane or in the
streets, most women don't like it too much I noticed, but most man loves looking, and sure this makes my life so much more
adventurous, he is so tall and intimidating that no one can mess with him, he makes me feel so protected, mmmmm!!!!!!!,
once we got back from PDX last week I was really happy to see Micky who is our french bulldog who farts so strong. Last
Saturday I did my weekly webcam shows called "Maturbating live with Jeff Palmer" enjoying a lot getting off that way,
mmmmm!!!!!!! in front of so many horny man jerking off with me at the same time defeating distance. The next day on
Sunday my boyfriend and had a lunch party at our house and some of his best friends came over and we had a really good
time talking, eating, laughing, and sure my life is not to sexual crazy anymore but I had to change, couldn't stay living that
way anymore, I found love and it has inspired me to create a new super song that talks about my feelings in a porn set, it
was complited on 10-24-05, it's called "Faggot" and never before did a song like this and honestly I don't know what it took
me so long to do it any fucking way, but finally it should be in my website tomorrow and it brought me this fuckikng huge
desire to perform live again, so, after such long hiatus from the gay club scene I will perform live this new musical creation
of mine again, and this time in the biggest gay club in Florida located in Orlando, it's the good old "Firestone" nightclub at 1
AM, and I just cannot fucking wait for it. But until that happens I will keep enjoying introducing my boyfriend's cock inside
my huorny butt hole and ride it while I kiss him and then I suck his cock while he licks the stretched open just fucked lips of
my juicy and warm love hole, then swallowing his sperm and then fucking him really nice mostly from behind and dump my
good loads of sperm nice deep inside of him, but cuddling with him feels as good as fucking, and lasts much longer too,
almost everyday we get each other off so it doesn't make me wanna go around fucking with other people, and I can
experience monogamy so my portfolio of experiences in my life is complete besides the chances of keeping myself
monogamus are big because makes happier then I could have ever anticipated. Some other good news to me is that In this
month of October Gisela Dulko won 2 tittles in doubles, one at the Japan and Thailand Open, and it seems to me like this
will help her being the best Argentinean female tennis player ever some day, but I could be wrong about her. I got really
annoyed with Laura Bozzo and her ignorance about the HIV fraud so I do not longer watch her show anymore in adition
with VH1 and MTV, Now talking about bad news I must say that the cover box of my next moview with SX Video is not my
favorite one at all and also the title could have been better too, so it seems it's gonna be called "Cum-eating with Jeff
Palmer", so hopefully the movie itself and the editing from Jesse will make it up for what I don't like so far, I just know
what I like and not, is just a little bummer for me, that's all. Now I'm thanking, honoring and giving all the glory to my
ultimate protector, my number one in life, the all mighty Jesus Christ.
issur # 126
Saturday, October 15, 2005
I just got off live for my fans, today Saturday I started masturbating live through the webcam of my website few minutes before 3PM PST and reached a huge orgasm almost half an hour later, ejaculating so good and big, mmmm!!!, there were lots of fans watching me and I'm planning in doing it every Saturday. Being with this new boyfriend is turning out to be one of Jesus best gifts ever to me, I have never had such tall boyfriend before and he takes the best human care of me and sexually we are completely versatile because almost every morning I enjoy sucking his big fat cock until his sperm explodes out of it inside my mouth and I swallow every yummy drop of that sperm that's all mine, with out any wasting a drop, and right after that I beat off and ejaculate really good while his big fat beefy cock and tasty sperm are all inside my hungry mouth and throat, and at night I love fucking him from behind and with his legs up, and always breeding his ass filling it up with big amounts of sperm our of my "in love" cock, he have some really juicy and generous butt hole that's just mine, mmmmmmm!!!!!!!!, and when he fucks me like yesterday for example it feel fucking crazy because his dick is so big but I like to keep my butt hole stretched here and there once in a while, and his cock is magical for that, also I need to ad the fantastic blow jobs that he gives me drinking also all of my sperm really nice and good, plus all the cuddle, and hugging while sleeping together, so, what else can I ask for?, a puppy dog? yes, that too!, he just got me the other day one 3 month old black french bulldog, we had to drive all the way to Temecula here in California, but it was worth all those hours of driving because this puppy sure makes me smile the whole time and takes my mind aways from thinking too much. Another wonderful news is that lately after dragging and ignoring my instincts musically I have decided to not longer work with this DJ Tony Sinclair, unfortunately my instincts were right about not working with him anymore after years of doing it, because there is times when artists lose their talent and/or they get burned out, and this is the case with him, so I must now find a new one, but also it means that finally now my instincts are gonna take over me musically and I jut cannot wait for that to happen, it will a super amazing creation my next one and will not say more about it until is out because this one is gonna make me. One day I went to visit my boyfriend at his work and got to meet Joan Rivers who is a famous TV lady here in USA and she said to me... Hi Jeff! nice to meet you we heard a lot great things bout you!, and I say ... oh! is my pleasure to meet you, and she said something really nice that made me feel very welcomed, then I understood that she have to act different in front of the cameras because acting like a crazy, angry and cool lady on TV is always been her formula to be funny, maybe we'll see her and her daughter in NYC next month for the Country Music Awards where the'll do the red carpet. Tomorrow I'm flying to Portland, OR and will stay at the Lucia Hotel with my boyfriend, and the reason is to go there to sell my Nissan Altima car and him how fucking pretty is Portland, so hopefully Jesus Christ will protect us flying back and forward for is him the one who always took, take and will take the number one place in all what constitutes me Jeff Palmer.
issue # 125
Monday, October 03, 2005
It's been years since there is more Argentinean tennis players in the world top 10 rankings then any other country, and also
I'm glad that Roger Federer won the US Open because his competitor in the final worked once not long ago for evil Elton
John, so that is enough karma to never ever win a Glam Slam again but Serena WIlliams better win all the Glam Slams next
year. Another sign of change of times is that China is starting to host big tennis tournaments like the ones in GuangZhou
and Beijing, and also I'm really glad that Kim Klijsters won her first Glam Slam at the 2005 US Open, all it took her is to
dump that Australian who is not classy at all like Pat Rafter is, Kim's ex together with Russell Crowe are a pair of
Australians to be ashamed of, (that is if you are an aussie), they are to me like Bono from the horrible British group called
U2, that make me change the radio station overtime one of their songs is being played, he is the most annoying British
figure in my eyes or is Elton John? Hhhhmmmm! One day 2 weeks ago my boyfriend and I drove to the Omni Hotel here in
downtown LA for he had to meet with Melissa RIvers who is a host for some TV shows in cable here in USA, but I did not
care much for her picture because my family have no clue who she is, so I went to the lobby to have breakfast and I could
tell there was a lot of TV actors having breakfast in there too but I don't watch much so after a while I drove my boyfriend
and me to Malibu to the house of the ineffably glamorous actress S**a W**d, (unfortunately she is doing another hospital
TV show which for me have always been more boring then listening to evangelist Pat Robertson contradict himself), but she
is reeeeeeally cool and talented, her husband and daughter are very classy as well, then we left her and I dropped off my
boyfriend in the limousine that took him to the where they do these TV awards called "The Emmys", One day I went to
meet my boyfriend on the set of this show for WE which is the woman channel in TV cable and the famous Bo Derek (who
my family loves) was there filming a TV show and she seemed really happy to see me again, so it was fun hanging out and
chatting with her in her dressing room with my boyfriend and her dog who is also a model/actor for a line of animal
products that she owns. It's really weird to me that still she probably still have no fucking clue who I was other then my
boyfriend's boyfriend, and that is just fine with me because all I wanted is the picture with her and send it to my family so
they can leave me alone because she is an icon in Argentina where I grew up, besides that side of the entertainment
industry is forbidden for the ones in my side, but then again I have always personally found more reward, excitement,
happiness and joy in the entertainment industries I had and continue to work for, so I just pretended to be no one and the
closest to invisible as I could, still I did not stayed for more then 1 hour. On Tuesday, September 27th I was really nervous
and excited because now I have a monogamous relationship with someone and doesn't go around trying to change me like
this one I had long time ago who I named Papito tried before. Now is a total new dimension because is a product of what I
brand new design I have created inside my brain and that is the most fascinating thing with life is about the this ability.
Once I came into SX Video's Studios in Hollywood, Los Angeles that day at 1 PM PST and meet all my costars, around 8
fucking hot guys, and I sucked them off all one by one while they introduced themselves to the cameras, there were a
couple of young twinkies, a couple of older huge hairy macho man, a black guy, one latin, and 3 white blond ones, I just
had a jockstrap and medium leather boots, and my current trade mark haircut with my 100% natural hair dark hair color,
and all completely smooth body and almost no tan at all. After meeting&sucking all of those fucking handsome and horny
man individually they lined up in behind this high pedestal so their dicks were at the level of my mouth making it really
easy for me to suck all of those hard cocks almost at the same time, going from one to another like a mad crazy desperate
cock sucker who just couldn't have enough dick, so many different sizes and shapes, smell and texture, I for sure I went
nuts once all of them except one started to ejaculate inside my mouth almost at the same time, so I was more then glad that
there where 2 cameras to catch it all, but sure I catch all of those ejaculations inside my open mouth that with each load
was getting more and more filled with so much sperm, it was all over my face and eyes, there was just so much sperm in
my mouth like never before in my all life, then I made this last guy get off and then I ejaculated masturbating while sucking
some cock, mmmmmmmmm!!! it was a wrap and my very first 100% oral scene ever, the editing should take some time but
for sure it will be out before Christmas that way my fans can look good with friends by giving one of my movies as a
Christmas present for the Christmas tree this year, what better then an orgasm as a present to a friend? without even
touching! Once I got dressed I drove my new Jaguar 3.0 and drove home in Silverlake here in Los Angeles and took a
shower and had a very romantic diner with my boyfriend. Having sex with my boyfriend and hanging out with him is the
best, we also like playing video games at home, cooking, working out downstairs in the garage, going to the movies or
renting them like "Monster in Law" for example, Jane Fonda and JLo were cool, watching TV and stars like Nicole Ritchie,
Hillary Duff, Melanie Griffith, Vince Vaughn(the hottest tall man), Lindsay Lohan, Jennifer Aniston, Kirsten Dunst(of
course), Eva Longoria and others. My boyfriend and I also enjoy playing tennis, going to the spa for facials and massages
with him and shopping for clothes and planning many things together and living in any dimension with him forever feels
perfect to me as long as I keep my fans who are the ones who stay with me always no matter what, even if it has to be
musically only, as long as I live I'll be giving from me to my fans, and I cannot forget no!, being online through my webcam
once a week at least is really important to me, once I remember pissing all over my self with my hard dick and it really
turned me on so much, ejaculating live in front of my fans keeps me going well, connecting with them is one of the most
exciting things to do in my life that is why this new song I'm creating with my favorite DJ should be my favorite one ever
and I'm making sure of that because now I live so close to him. Lately I have made all of my music even more exclusive by
making it available to the members of my website only, and It was really hard and sad to have to go commercial with my
music even that I never had that intention, but is just that I felt the urge to make the members of my website feel more
special by having such privilege. Congratulations to Oprah (richest woman in USA)for finally not wasting any more time
anymore pretending to be straight with that guy anymore, it seems like she is now finally spending all of her free time with
her long time girlfriend Gayle, after all she got raped when she was girl and it's obvious that a dick wasn't gonna go
backinto her vagina, now that she is old is not wasting anymore time, the american is such fascinating culture still, so much
crap!, for example, it seems like this famous gold digger woman named Ana Nicole Smith had a surgery in her stomach to
make it smaller and she gets 10 million dollars to promote some pills making everybody think that she got skinny because
of those pills when she really had surgery, same bull shit like Louis Armstrong the bicyclist. After so many years of having
the same cell phone number finally I'm changing it so everybody can understand that I'm not doing escort work, it feels so
fucking sweet when my boyfriends gets jealous, but not jealous of the one and number one in my life, yes! the perfect one
named Jesus Christ.
issue # 124
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Being back in Los Angeles is turning out to be just what I should, everything falls in place like is meant to be I guess, and this new boyfriend I have sure makes sure I'm happy all the time, he even swallows my leche(sperm) caliente really good like a good baby, and I can fuck him anytime I want but I really get off so much in sucking his cock because is bigger then mine and he just love to have his cock sucked too, and by me only, mmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!. Last Week On Thursday night my boyfriend and I took the Jet Blue airline and flew to NYC, then we had a limousine car take us to out hotel called something like "hotel on RIvington", and the room we had had view to all of Manhattan from the East Village, it was early Friday morning when we checked in and we took a few hours nap because we only slept few hours in the airplane, then we woke up much more refreshed and we took a shower and went took a taxi to the US Open and they did not have tickets for that night so we got some for the next day and so, then we came back to Manhattan and we saw one of my boyfriend's good girlfriend do a show in this straight bar close by our hotel room, then we went back to our hotel room and we watched some of my movies while I sucked his big fat cock and he sucked mine so good, it's just so fucking amazing when I drink his sperm, always making sure I'm happy because I just love to suck cock too much, specially if the penis can ejaculate many times, and then I just wanna swallow lots of sperm, and keep on eating man's cum, I have never done a movie about just me sucking cock and eating cum, just that, I think it would be a cool hot different scene for my next movie, specially if the man I'm sucking are really really hot, perhaps next month will be the month to film it, nothing for sure yet, just a super cool idea maybe. The next day we went to the night session of these huge tennis stadium located in Flushing Meadows in Queens, NY, and there were record crowds, really hard to walk with out bumping some straight people on the way, my boyfriend and I were walking around while hugging each other, and we did not care much what people said which was nothing we could hear anyway, I cheered that night for Venus WIlliams and she won that 3rd round match, then I cheered for David Nalbandian who is so hot and sexy and he won the match as well, then we went back to our hotel room and took a shower order food as room service, cuddle and slept on that super comfortable bed, next day I think we went to see Maria Sharapova kicked the ass of these successful Indian girl, and then we saw I don't remember who and then we finally saw the match between Serena and Venus Williams and even I cheered loud for Serena this time it did not work, so Venus won the match and we went back to Manhattan but not without first seeing Martina Navratilova walk by with a small entourage and I said... Hi Martina!(as I was walking) and she looked at me smiled a little bit and said... hey!(while she was walking the other way), it was awesome because at 48 years old her current results in the courts are at the level of a 17 year old girl when comes to doubles and mixed doubles. While we where in NYC we went shopping and we got lots of great clothes, then me and my boyfriend went for diner at this italian restaurant and I'm so embarrassed now just by remembering how jealous I got that night, and I realized that night that I just wouldn't be able to have diner that night with my boyfriend and some gay friend of mine, and I think that maybe because we just meet that I want all of his attention to be mine all the time he is with me or I don't know but sure he fucking loves that idea because I do the same too, and it feels just so so so so great to think that I belong or someone belong to me only, because I know that obviously no ones belongs to anyone, but the wanting feeling is awesome and very refreshing to my long slutty life, specially now that the winter is cumin and the good ones are taken already, sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!, the day after arriving here in LA I did a live webcam show and there was quite few horny many out there that day even that it was 4 PM PST, and in few days I'm doing a new one that way all of my man can see me live from remote distances. Me and my boyfriends enjoy watching TV while we cuddle and drink some hot goat milk chocolate and the healthiest cookies while watching shows like "Laura", and we fucking love that woman in Peru because she is a host that either hits her guest or help them financially for this TV show is recorded in Peru and is a really poor country so she is by now the new Evita and all these other bitches, (specially the Mexicans ones) try to copy this Laura Bozzo because is just so funny, pathetic, sad, and all in one, very unusual. Also I been watching the channel with news from China, getting news from there fascinates me lately. Today I have a diner and movie date with my boyfriend very soon so I need to get the fuck out of this computer already, and yes my life is really fantastic because I count on the mightiest force there ever was or is, and Jesus Christ is that force live to honor and follow.
issue # 123
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
One day after writing my last journal on MOnday 22nd I storage my stuff, packed my bag and moved out of Portland, OR, and my boyfriend was waiting for me in the LAX terminal as soon as I got out of my airplane, we hugged and kissed in front of everybody in there, and it was awesome but kind of weird because I measure 5'8 tall and he is 6'4 tall so maybe it looked strange or maybe and I'm not used that public display of affection, but sure we did not gave a fuck, we went to eat and then home which is in Silverlake, CA, we made love like crazy, and he says I give him the best blow jobs, and sure I enjoy sucking and drinking sperm out of his beautiful thick big cock, and his spooky tattoos in his white body turn me one too quite a lot, also he knows how to drain my cock very well with that experience mouth of his, he is turning 37 so he is 7 years older, my favorite number. On Wednesday my boyfriend bought a car for me to drive around here in Los Angeles, so we got a new black X type Jaguar 3.0 with black tinted windows and even that I refuse to be materialistic I must admit that I love driving my new elegant car, later that night I took a seat on his cock while we watched my latest film on DVD and riding his big thick cock was making my hole feel so good, besides it was great exercise for my legs by doing all those squads and making him ejaculate inside my butt hole a huge load of sperm, mmmmm!!!!!! just like the film we were watching, then we went to sleep hugging and kissing each other like we do every night, On Thursday I drove my new car to my favorite musical producer Mr. DJ Tony Sinclair so I could chose from a long list of electronic material to create a new dance song, I stayed there for 3 hours non stop but I really wanted to make sure I was choosing the right stuff and wrote some real amazing words as well too, but it's gonna take long time I know. On Thursday night we went out to Tiger Heat a nightclub for gay teenagers, and we picked up Jeff C. on the way, Jeff C. shots the best photos of me but his care for others leaves lots of room for improvement. We stayed in that nightclub not for too long then it was pizza time, dropping off Jeff and went home, fucking my boyfriend that night for the first time was so heavenly that I just ejaculated as soon as my verga(cock) entered his warm and juicy cavity more known as a hungry butt hole, right there in the couch of the living room with his legs up, so I guess the long waiting was worth it, still I felt bad because we agreed that the first time would be in NYC, but we just couldn't help it, was so fucking unbelievable, he said I was the second person ever to breed him, and sure it sounded awesome even if is not truth, but it doesn't matter to me any fucking way, still I just cannot wait to be already in NYC, my boyfriend is taking me there because he understands how much of a tennis freak I am and this last glam slam of the year already started and I'm watching now those matches on TV and I'm going even more fucking crazy to be there already, will be there from Friday until Monday or Tuesday, YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!, at night I'll try to go out to the nightclubs too. On Friday I remember me and my boyfriend we stayed in enjoying the music we got earlier that day like A-ha, Depeche Mode, Pet shop Boys, while cooking in the kitchen, but at some point we started kissing and hugging as usual and I couldn't take it anymore and fucked him there in the kitchen and unloaded a nice generous amount of sperm of my hard like a rock cock, we cleaned up and kept on cooking, eating and sleeping in the most romantic ways ever before, On Saturday morning I went to the gym where all the trendy people goes at the current time, the new 24 hours fitness next to Archlight on Sunset BV., later I went to the Sunset Junction festival but because of the many rock bands playing there it seemed like there was more police then people and the stands were beyond boring, so after walking for 30 minutes and getting myself wet in front of these fire fighters spraying hoses I decided to drove back home pack my bags and my boyfriend drove us that night to the ranch of Nancy and Michael who are 2 successful friends of my boyfriend, they been married for long time and their ranch is huge near Santa Barbara, many awarded horses, dogs, and awarded huge vineyards too, they were great to us, and on Sunday we played tennis on their private tennis court, and I did some amazing shot that still makes me feel so fucking good just by remembering it, mmmmm!!!!!, yeah big tennis freak here. Later that evening B* D***k showed up at this ranch were I was staying because she is good friend with my boyfriend and this couple, she is way more cool then anyone can anticipate, i give her a 10 as well for her inside, she is not that young anymore but sure she looks so so so good, the local news paper had her in the cover with one of he beautiful horses for she is a horse freak. So, me my boyfriend and his friends B* D***k, Michael and Nancy we all drove in these Range Rover truck for diner at this really sophisticated restaurant and everybody was looking at Bo of course, somehow I got to seat next to her and I couldn't help to feel so fascinated with Bo, she told me she has been in Mendoza, ARG, and loved the wines and meat in there, (she was eating raw steak), at some point we were talking about New Orleans's destruction for the Katrina hurricane and I said...but what is gonna happen to Mardi gra? and Bo Derek punched me softly in the head while saying ... how can you think of that now? and we all started laughing really loud even these other customers eating in that fancy restaurant, after we all 5 shared a desert we went back to the ranch and watched Michael on video win an award for horse riding, then Bo Derek left and we all went to bed, now I'm ready to meet Joan Rivers!, how hard will she punch me?. The on the next day I gave my boyfriend a massage that end up with my dick inside his hole filling it up with a big amount of sperm, following it with me sucking his cock and drinking all of his generous amount of yummy semen, then we took a shower, packed our stuff and drove back to Los Angeles on a mellow Monday, last night we had really romantic diner at "Beige" at Falcon where the food is getting better and better, but before 11 PM we were out of the door, saying hello to Rusty, getting our car from valet parking and driving back home to sleep together hugging and kissing, and since my sleep is been so fantastic lately I don't know if I imagined or I dreamed that Tom Cruise had a secret boyfriend named Tim and they looked alike but Tim was younger, and that they agree in giving Katie Holmes 8 million dollars for each year they stayed married, and Katie went running to buy a condo and she could not stop giggling, and I cannot recall anything else of this dream or what ever the fuck it was that is in my brain, but sure I fucking love having also these that I fly, I enjoy those ones so much. And I agree that there is not such thing as a chemical imbalance, vitamins and natural supplements will do the job. you tell them Tommy. Hats are not good, they kill and weakens the hair follicles, take Princes Diana's older son as an example, or Andy Roddick as well, Today I'm gonna be live on my web live camera, so I got to wrap up these one with the usual way of thanking and giving all the glory the one I live to honor, yes, the one with the most powerful name ever, Jesus Christ.
issue # 122
Sunday, August 21, 2005
I should be ashamed that after me being a pioneer of these electronic journals for not writing more often, but I guess that when life is being really enjoyable is so hard to stop and take time to write it in words, but everything to my fans and people, even seating my ass still in front of this laptop for hours, (with long green breaks in between of course). On Saturday, August 6th I was still in Los Angeles and took it easy and spent time with B** who was my host, he is like a father to me, we never had sex, we know each other for 10 years, he is also gay and few generations older then me so I can learn lots of interesting stuff. Next day on Sunday, 7th my friend Jeff picked me up and took me to smash box studios to get some equipment so he could shot some photos of me at his place, and don't know what they are for yet, but sure they are awesome!, during the photo shot I got so horny that couldn't help myself from getting all nasty with some guys at the gay bathhouse in Melrose Av. right in where the most trendy clothing stores are, and I don't know if it was all those dicks I sucked in the dark room of that bathhouse eating sperm from these dicks though those glory holes, got fucked and breeded with lots of warm sperm deep inside my juicy and way too hungry rectum, I didn't care who was fucking me, it was so dark, I just wanted one man after the other to un-load his semen and breed me deep inside my unsatisfied hungry love hole that was stretched out and so wide open and inviting dick after dick making it so f*cking juicy and warm for all the man in there, and remember that some guys were shy so I had them fuck me at my room, specially this bodybuilder who claimed to have a girlfriend and said enjoying to fuck me better then fucking his girlfriend because he fucked me for hours, also he sucked me so good making me cum inside his mouth, the muscles of his body were huge, his penis was large and so thick and he enjoyed me bitting on it, it was my first time ever biting on a dick that way, but it really got him off and it showed he was bisexual for real, he was white blond, blue eyes and really tall, hopefully I'll keep that memory for a long time, mmmmmmm! because it makes me so fucking horny! fUCK!, On Monday morning I meet this guy that treated me so, so, so, so good, (I call him Papucho sometimes, the now divorced with children is the one who I used to call Papito long time ago), so, no, this one is not married with children, and he treats me in a way that i just cannot help myself from falling, we have plans to go to NYC for the US Open, specially after playing tennis with him in one fun day, and much more, it seems like it could be the beginning of something new and amazing, he seems so special and it must be that we are in the month of August and this is the month when everybody is hunting for that special one to spent this cumin winter, it is happening unconsciously, and half a year from now the'll celebrate Valentines, or maybe Jesus Christ have some plans that I don't know, I really don't know why but it's happening to me, I'm going into a romantic dimension, that cheese one we see in the movies and wanted to not take part of, and I don't know for how long it will last but sure I'm going to enjoy it for I got bored and tired of being a slut for so long, I need to change dimensions so my life keeps being exciting, it seems like Los Angeles want me back. I got together with my DJ producer Tony Sinclair so we can creat another super amazing dance song, and I already know what I want it to be like, it will take some time but it will be a real fantastic one. In the up-cumin October's issue of Mandate Magazine it will feature a nude lay out I did in November 2004, is the only one where I'm completely hairy included chest, and there is another magazine interested so I may go to San Diego for that photo shot. Another good news is that I'm talking with one of these Gay amateur porn companies so I may help them do the cross over to mainstream gay porn, but I'm still open to talk to anyone about my 2006 film, and bareback of course, but so far I'm keeping my chances open so far since my last 2 movies are still so requested, it's crazy!, and yes, they are my favorite ones of all time I must admit, and the past couple of movies are the ones that are so so so good that now days I don't feel any pressure to proof myself, I'm taking my time to enjoy them and I'm ready to start a brand new life from tomorrow when I'll be back to live in LA, still I'll be back to Portland some day, maybe I can be monogamous?, and for how long?. The only way to find out is by trying I guess, and sure it should be a lot of fun trying something that I haven't done before, or in a long time if I really ever did. I just like trying something new, after all it seems like I have done it all, but thanks to the imagination and instincts is that my life never seems to get boring, and I should say that again, but not really because the real thanks goes to Jesus Christ, for him is and will always be my and most important one in my life, by loving anyone and in many ways, and I'm so happy to take his present to me and try to enjoy it the most I can and for as long as he want me to, my agradecido, Dank zu Jesus Christus, Bedankt naar Jezus Christus, Takk til Jesus Kristus, Grâce à Jésus Christ.
issue # 121
Friday, August 05, 2005
I have to apologize for not writing my journal more often but I'm too busy living life and getting f*cked, swallowing sperm and all that, that I just cannot find time for it, so I'll do my best trying to remember what I did since last time I wrote in here, I was in Portland, OR enjoying myself on Rooster Rock which is a nude beach near Portland, and love being naked and seeing naked man too, specially when I see some cock I want and take it behind those bushes to suck it dry, drinking the more sperm I can out of them, sometimes they fuck me too, but rarely, due to the sand and mosquitos effects, YUMMY!, is just so hot to get a nice tan all over my body in the sunny PDX, because in there it can get really sunny and can go like that for weeks, not rainy at all, so, man get so horny and sure I take advantage to get them off well. One few weeks ago I went to "Club Portland" which is the local gay bathhouse, it was at a time that was not too crowded, and as soon as I got there I went cleaning then I was ready for some real action, and walking around I saw this big football player alike black guy with a thick cock, and we went to the dark room with glory holes and in there he fucked me with his thick cock, I had my legs up in the bed of that dark room after like 25 poundings he ejaculated inside my butt hole and I felt a real huge amount of sperm filling me up nice inside then he pull it out and left, then I kept walking around and I saw this guy inside his room with this really 8 and a half inches uncut cock that I worshiped for a while but then I saw the big black guy who was breeding me earlier, and this time it was in the underground basement and he was laying on his stomach then I just started to suck his already hard cock, and then I took him to the sling and made him fuck me hard until he dumped another load of semen inside me, then he left and I started sucking this other big hard cock from this hot big and tall blond blue eyes and he fucked me in the ass really good too and injected my hungry and already juiced up with another big amount of sperm, but this time from a white cock, then walking around I saw the same black guy in the TV room and we was seating in that couch all by himself with his big thick dark legs open and I went down the floor and my lips and mouth made their way into his crotch and put his pretty thick cock inside my mouth and grew hard in 1 second, I took the towel out and started to suck him and show off at the same time to those guys in that room, and this other white guy came over and 3 of us went to one of their rooms and while this black guy was fucking me I was sucking the white guy and they took turns on my ass until they came inside me, then I went for a walk and then I went to the porn room and sucked off and swallow some more sperm from a couple of guys and then after hanging out there for a while the white guy came by and I started to suck his big nice hard cock eagerly and the black guy from before came over and wanted to get sucked too, so I did it and even the white guy sucked his cock because this black guy had such nice cock and then they started to take turns on my ass and mouth again, but this time it was in the open of the "Porn Room" with other guys watching, and at some point the black guy grabbed me really hard and made me suck the cock of this white guy while he fucked me so hard getting ready to cum, and sure he was really verbally loud at the time of ejaculating yet again another load of semen deep inside my hole, then the white guy said right away ... it's my turn, it's my turn and he jumped behind my back and using the black guy's sperm that was dripping out of my butt hole as the perfect lubrication he fucked me really hard too and also inserted his sperm deep inside my love hole making it beyond juicy, then they left and I started to suck the cock of this other guy who had a baseball hut covering his pretty face, he was really white tanned and with a hot beard, very hairy men, he looked very bisexual or straight, and I got between his legs and took charge of his dick, making it feel so good to the point of feeding me with a much generous amount of sperm, indeed, then I couldn't hold it anymore and I ejaculated myself really good. I know there was other guys who fucked me and played with me too that night, but when someone fuck with so many man like I do, then there is only so man that I can remember. So, while not having sex I was working hard in writing the words for this new song called "Comforting", and never before it took me so long to write a song like this time, but now I'm completely satisfied and looking forward creating another song, it came out online on my website only on July 26th, and at the time I was in Astoria, OR chilling out at the house of this ex-porn star named Seth Black, his boyfriend is in Iraq so we did not have sex, is just that we are just friends only, and it's fun to have friends like that sometimes, now days he is more buff, and also I found out that he is much older then what he looks like. but his life is kind of lonely and too far from civilization for me, so I was glad to be back in Portland last Sunday and went right out to this local gay bar "Silverado" and it was around 7 PM and meet this really cool, interesting, good looking, and very romantic man, and we hang out together with out having sex, it was so romantic, just making out, hugging, and feeling a whole new different way of connecting with a man, it was just so soft, sensual and sweet, that I'm looking forward seeing him again when I comeback to PDX from LA, because the next day on Monday 1st of August I flew here to LA, YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, Right now I'm in Los Angeles, and so happy about it too. My friend Mark picked me up at the LAX airport and took me to his nice place in West Hollywood, put my bag in the guest room that became mine while there and then we went to see this movie the "Wedding crashers" and was kind of funny, that actor Vince is so hot and big, I remember we cruised each other really hard one, at the time I remember wearing nothing but a jockstrap, it was few years ago, back at the release party of the new "Music" CD from this beyond famous evil woman who now days ruin the life of other ignorant famous people, such as the latest victims of this dark cult already had a miscarriage, so, so much for the protection from evil eye by wearing that ridiculous red string in their wrists, sorry Ms More, but look pay attention to all the followers really don't do as well as they did before they started these evil cult of Kabbalah or whatever the name of that cult is, wake up, and what I just said is a fact. Yesterday Tuesday I went out to "Beige" at Falcon here in LA, and had an amazing time seeing people I haven't seen in a long time, including Rusty who is always so fucking nice to me, after all I been going to his club religiously since he opened for he always treat me so good and with so much respect that I cannot help myself from being so faithful to that club all these years, and I was introduced to this big shot man in the mainstream Hollywood productions, he was shorter then me and soon we started getting fresh with each other, besides I wanted to be and look sleaze too, so we started kissing while I was rubbing his hard cock, and walking around the crowd and making out in the dance floor and playing with his cock under his pants until some actors stoled him from me thinking that I want to do a crossover to the mainstream or something, but all I really wanted actually from him was to eat his semen, for an actor I don't wanna be, and yes! call me now Yoda, but soon I found this Armenian guy I knew from before who works with all these celebrities and told me that Vin Diesel likes me in the photo shot I did for Empire Magazine long time ago, and sure I dig him back too, YUMMMMMMMMMM!, I'll marry him in Canada, Holland or Spain, mmmmmmmm!!!!!!, going back to what I was talking about, i started to grab the crotch of this Armenian guy with long hair to the point of making his penis really erect under his pants, and he was not drunk like the other guy, so he told me he could cum inside my mouth quickly and sure he did, it was right near by and no one saw us, his sperm tasted so exquisite, and soon after that I wanted to go back at my friend's place and on the way I sucked his cock again, this time inside his car while he was driving on the way and he stopped on Beverly BV. and had a second orgasm in my mouth and I ate it all too, then he dropped me off. Next day he took me to my good friend Bob and I'm staying at his place right now writing this from my laptop. Earlier today I hooked up with this guy who drove from Orange County picked me up here in Hollywood and took me there, we started kissing passionately while I went on top of him and itroduced his pennis inside my hole and he fucked me there in his hotel room ejaculating his sperm deep inside my ass hole twice in less then two hours, he was 6'3 tall, blond blue eyes, nice worked out tanned body, beautiful cock, great kisser, oh yeah! he made me kiss him for ever, is just that he was too good at it, and I was seating on his cock the whole time, the second time he had an orgasm inside my hungry ass hole was while being behind my back and laying on the side, his big hands where all over my body, he made me feel in ecstasy. Also I'm beyond happy to report that this last movie I did is without a doubt my hotter and nastier movie ever because is been almost half a year since is been out and still is in major demand to the point of not having much people asking me when I'm gonna make my next movie like normally happens few months after each movie, so I'm gonna keep enjoying the great success and soon start shopping for a company, maybe I could change company and do my next movie with someone else then SX VIdeo who have been so nice to me. The non porn movies that I have seen lately are "Star Wars," "Batman" and "The fantastic 4" was my favorite one. I should do a classy photo shot for a change soon so I can post it only on my website and show all my people how well and happy I'm doing because this Jesus Christ's server is always protected, having him as my real boyfriend paid off, it pays off, and will pay off, yes, as fucked up as it may sound.
issue # 120
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Today Friday July 1st I drove my Nissan
Altima to Rooster Rock, and there is this
long walk to the water, lots of green,
beyond pretty, and I saw this naked man
and he took me inside the jungle and I
fucked him and came inside his ass, then
went for a walk found a place and worked
in my new song, kept walking, and fucked
the first guy next to the water but did not
cum and fucked this other guy and came
inside his ass, then kept on walking and
this big guy with thick legs and nice thick
hard like a rock cock was seating there
and I went down and sucked his cock and
ate his cum, then I laid down in my towel
right in this little beach next to these old
folks, we were all naked and one of them
was not too old, it was a hot bear guy and
we went to other side and he sucked me
and then I got real hard and fucked him
really hard until I came inside his ass and
then came back to where my towel was
and relaxed for a a while then I went for
another little walk and sucked 2 more
cocks, drinking the sperm of both of them,
one of them was real thick and filled with
semen, I pretended the mosquitos did not
existed, and keep on playing and fucking
all the way back to my car. The next day
was time in the Gym, and they day after
was going back to that Rooster Rock for
more cock and sperm, getting off like 3 or
4 times again, making that my favorite
place to get off. On Thursday, July 7th I
flew from PDX to La Guardia in NY and
before the day ended I was in this cool
suite of Saint Regis Hotel right in Central
Park with Mark who flew me there, we
cuddled in bed, kissed and talked, but
there was another room in this hotel with
guys like Michael and porn stars like Bo
Knight and Jeff Allen who where waiting
for us to go to the dungeon that belongs to
Matthew Green who is another porn star
with his own company named Dark Alley
Media, and sure that dungeon wasn't huge,
but good enough for us plus these other
muscular horny and real hot guys, we all
went crazy, sucking getting fucked, and at
some point Matthew Green started to get
fisted by this guy named Chris and I though
it was so fucking hot that I fucked his hole
for a while and fucking loved it, I fucked
Mark, and this other muscular guy, Jeff
Allen fucked Mark, he fucked me, I fucked
Jeff and Bo Knight, this latin kid with a big
dick hard as a piece of steel fucked me
and he could fuck me and cum, fuck me
and cum again, and fuck me more and cum
inside me some more, he was some fucking
machine, with a mean cock, it was a
fucking crazy night, but after a while it
was just time to move one, so we all except
Matthew Green took a taxi cab and realized
that around the corner was a building with
endless police cops around, it was like the
typical bomb scare right around the corner
or something like it, right where this
dungeon of this porn star was located, it
was spooky some how to me, then we took
a taxi cab all the way back to Central Park
to our hotel room and we played in there
some more nasty sex, Bo Knight needed to
stretch that butt hole of his for it is just
too fucking tight, and at some point this
guy black guy Tony showed up and he had
the biggest dick I have ever seen by far, I
touched and sucked, he fucked Mark really
good, but at some point Mark couldn't take
it anymore so I tried taking it for him, and
half of it is all I could, the mother fucker
was over 10 inches easily and thick as a
soda can or more, it was fucking unreal,
we took some break and took time to eat
too, here and there, we went to this
bathhouse at some point and it was
awesome to drink some cum and get some
sperm inside my rectum, but at one point I
was fucking this slim and smooth guy and
he said that I looked like Jeff Palmer, and I
ignored him and kept on plowing his hole
already filled with other man's sperm, then
he asked me if I was him and I said maybe,
and kept on fucking him, and it was really
good fucking him so then i told him it was
me, but another good guy I fucked that day
was this black guy who was laying on his
stomach and his butt hole was really
stretched and juiced up, filled with who
knows how much sperm, it was the
prettiest black hole I have ever fucked, it
felt amazing fucking it, I wanted to last
forever that way, his moves were so soft
and smooth, my dick was having the best
time of life, but eventually i unloaded this
big amount of sperm out of me inside him,
and it felt just so good for the sperm is the
best lubrication you can ask for when you
fuck a butt hole, and the ass hole feels so
good too, yummm!!, then I came back to the
hotel room and hang out with Dereck,
Michael, Bo Knight and Jeff Allen, then
some of us went to rest, and I fucked
Michael and came inside his ass before
going to bed, and the next day on Sunday I
called my friend BJ and went over to his
apartment so I could rest and hang out
with him while recovering from such big
sexual marathon before going to the
airport, is just that I don't like hotels in
NYC, and I had the best time with BJ who is
such special one to know, we walked down
Chelsea streets and it felt amazing, that 93
degree weather mixed with all that noise
and people, lots of guys recognized me,
they knew it was me, and I made sure to
enjoy that, BJ gave me a tip so big that i
consider it the biggest gift a friend has
ever gave me, and oh wow! sure did not
expect it, but also I wanted to hang out
with my friend Bart who together with Kurt
became this powerful duo designer who
creates the ones like Britney Spears before
she was white trash, yes, ever since she
became a Kabala whore she is been out of
my book, the same with Brad Pitt who's
karma must be terrible bad for helping the
HIV monsters in Africa, God have mercy of
him and his ignorance and egotistical
feelings of being a hero or above the rest
of us. and may you Jesus Christ keep
protecting me like you always do.
Issue # 119
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Two Sundays ago I went to the gay parade here in Portland OR, I arrived with a friend and ass soon as we to there I started passing fliers with all the information about the HIV hoax, and of course I made sure to be almost naked, just these big black leather boots, black leather arm wrists, a red jockstrap and lots of "Palmer's" cocoa butter on my tanned and very much worked out body, I was surprised to see thousands of people there, we were standing cross the street from these gay bar called "Embers" and the drag queens where doing shows on these closed streets and there was some evil guys making God look bad with all the going to hell crap, but sure we took care of them and we did it psychologically which is worst then punching their faces, one of them is coming out the closet soon for sure, I saw in his eyes how much he wanted me, he was very cute too, but at 11:30 the parade of floats started to come out and these two freaks were removed by the police and it was a lot of fun, then me and my friend Tim went to his car to take a break while he was laughing out loud because he could see the police man looking at me being almost naked and laughing too, and sure I enjoyed making to make them horny, it was the perfect day to get away with it and they knew it and enjoy it, mmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, I saw so many hot man out there, then we went to the festival located at the water front and it was quite big, it reminded me of the gay festival in Long Beach, CA, there was a lot of tends with all different things to sell and/or advertise, food, drinks, a stage with shows, but my favorite was this tend made to look like from the Sahara, it was the "love room", and they couldn't tell me what it was about, so I went inside and I saw all these guys in laying in the ground hugging each other, some of them naked, kissing, and sucking, and sure I could use an anonymous blow job in that fucking tend, mmmmmmm!!!, so these 6'4 tall huge bear went down on his knees and sucked my cock dry, man! he was like a hungry fish, and I left that tend way more released then when I went in, then I kept waking and this guy who got a blow job from me in a bathhouse a while ago was chasing me all over, he kept telling me how much he enjoyed my blow jobs, he is very good looking, great muscular body, ex-bisexual, and after a long while in that festival and having my picture taken so much I felt it was time to take off, get that guy off in the up stairs of his house, he just feed me with some major amount of sperm out of his big white rock hard penis, it was yummy and fulfilling, I shot a big load while drinking his semen, I relaxed for a few minutes, cleaned up and then drove home, took a shower, ate, and rested. Two Mondays ago on June 20th I created a new musical part of a new song to be out and ready with the words by the beginning of next month celebrating freedom on the 4th of July that way, i feel so bad for the Australians for this actor Russel Crowe make them look so bad, the opposite of Kyle MInogue who is so fucking hot!, at the end of that Monday I was so horny that I asked this buddy of mine P. to give me some great head, I had a great ejaculation inside his awesome mouth, and the next day on Tuesday I meet here in Portland, OR with one of my fans/lovers who watches my live webcam shows online and it was a this motel, soon after we took our clothes off and he was no too tall but really big, and me being a chubby chaser sometimes, I really enjoyed going on top of him and with lots of oils in between making me rub most of his back side of his body with most of the front side of my body, while my dick was inside his vibrating hungry juicy hole, it was an experience like few, totally exciting, and between this kind of massage and this other I got off twice, and him too, the first one with out even touching himself, something hot to remember, at least for a while until the next memory arrives in. And on last Wednesday I did a live webcam show a little before 7:00 PM through my website of course, and it was fun and got off live real good, then I went to Daniel's house here in PDX and he is a hot black guy, with nice thick legs and arms and cock that's real large and get hard and shots one load after another, plus he shares his butthole as well with lots of passion and lots of Vaseline that sure I did not mind using, it was a constant flip flop, me fucking me and dumping a load inside my hole and me fucking him and sucking each other's cock, at some point this hot guy in the early 20's came into the room and blowed me so good that made me wanna fuck him real nice like I did, but then me and Daniel went to this bookstore and went inside of one of the booths and this guy came in pull out his hard cock and I stick it inside my already fucked butt hole and he pumped my butthole nice and hard until he shot a huge load of cum inside then he left and then we went to another bookstore and in this one i fucked Daniel's butthole through this glory hole and finally I came inside his ass hole, I ejaculated a big amount in there, it was a big semen deposit, he loved it, then I sucked some guys dick through those glory holes and after few loads I went home for a shower, food, and rest. I'm watching Wimbledon and I have to say that David Nalbandian, Venus Williams and Maria Sharapova are looking and playing so good, it makes me wanna go to the USOpen in NY few months from now. The summer continues and I keep getting showered with constant compliments for my latest movie which I gave %200 of me, and sure it paying off. Lately I have rented some non porn movies like "Seed of Chucky" with Jennifer Tilly and "Cursed" with Christina RIci, and enjoyed them a lot, funny and silly. The really good thing of not having an agent-manager like I used to have is because he will put me at the same level of his many other clients instead of giving me the special treatment I wanted, now days I'm on my own and just my movies, my website, my music, my live webcam shows, and people like Damon Kruezer are doing the best job I could ever ask for and be on top like I need to for I'm not ashamed to admit it because Jesus Christ needs the strong not the weak in order to serve better. I meet with this other porn star Sean Storm before I ever started doing bareback films, he was one of the few porn stars who was kind of cool to me, and after I started making bareback films became even more successful then Sean Storm contacted me and asked me what did I though of about him starting to do bareback films too, then I told him what I would tell any porn star from the almost gone condom films, I told him to go for it, I told him that when you are a porn star people always try to put you down no matter what and do what he wanted to do always, and sure it worked because he is even using the same tittles I use for my movies, and I love that!, just like this pornstar named after me, Dexter Palmer, so fascinating, I just love seeing how much the curse of gay porn has taken, and sure I'm glad to be blamed for that change, ah ah!, now I must keep working out and do a new photo shot next week, create new words for these new song, and keep doing my live webcam shows once a week because my fans love me so much that I don't need just one boyfriend like some gay guys want, that was long time ago, I just don't play those stupid games anymore, I'm ahead of my age, I'm out there because of my fans are my boyfriend, not because of fame, I'm out there because by loving them I'm loving my boyfriend who is Jesuscristo.
Issue # 118
Friday, June 17, 2005
Last week it was a funky one, and this past
weekend was real fun, me, Seth and his
friends went out clubbing to some local
gay nightclubs last Saturday here in
Portland OR, at my favorite club (so far)"
Silverado" and we really had a good time
just joking, talking, grabbing, cruising,
flirting into other things we did including
all those man in that club, and I was the
only one who wasn't drinking alcohol, and
after a long while they wanted to go to
some other gay bar even that it was
packed, so we went to "Boxes" which is
next street down, and it was fine there, I
started to make out with someone and
waited for my friends to get their drinks,
then walking from this room to the other I
see this dancefloor turned into a clinic, the
curtains semi open showed the bright light
inside that room and a guy standing there
with a syringe in his hand,
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!, it was a clinic
targeting obviously the gay man, I bet you
don't see these clinics in the straight bars,
but then again maybe I smoked too much
of something earlier, or the drunkenness of
my friends was getting at me, but no!, it
was real, so I knew that I had to get the
fuck out of there and never return again,
eeeeeaaaaaahhhhhh, and i was loud about
this clinic so people knew how aggressive an
un appropriate they were, I mean, there is a
place for everything, this is just making
obvious they desperation to push these
poison-drugs into fags throats, well, I'm not
that stupid, I don't buy everything out
there, and certainly it gives me energy to
work hard as a dissident 2 days from now
in the gay parade. But thank God for this
night club "Silverado" which still is not
infected with these fucking annoying
traveling clinics, because in there we had
the best time dancing without Madonna's
music or without problems and sickness,
so I been working out like a fucking
mother fucker, which means a lot and
consistently cause soon may come the time
to film my 2nd and last movie of 2005, and I need to look and feel like a kid in college, not so much hard-core sex, and more into thing like playing the game "clue" with Paul. But then again there is a muscle in my body that need great attention sometimes like after some
special requesting online by this hot white
guy, I drove for like half an hour and meet
with him and did some vacuum pumping
which consist in having you dick being
sucked by air through this plastic tube
where with the help of lots of vaseline you stick your cock and/or balls and
it gets bigger fast by the suction system, I really enjoyed I must admit,
and after many years of him doing it now
he got this massive huge big 5 pounds of
heavy huge balls and thick cock that I
sucked with lots of pleasure and work, I
felt like a baby, and after 1 and a half
hour of pumping our big dicks and
watching online pictures of dicks with
silicones and stuff like that he ejaculated a
nice load of cum inside my mouth cumin
from these massive balls and cock, it was
just too hot for my brain and immediately I
just exploded, and my enlarged penis and balls finally
exploded with some nice big load of sperm,
I was very relieving, then I proceeded to give
a massage and I noticed that every time I do
a massage my wrists and arms get bigger,
thicker and stronger, and also pleases the
person I'm with, is just that for me is such
new way to contact with people and still
have the control, besides the compliments
are really good, like the ones I got from
Tim the other week we played tennis, or
like the compliments of this guy who is one
of my fans/lovers from all over the world
who watched me live two days ago on my
website, always showing myself live to the
world once a week at least, is basically an
intimate date with just me nude with my all
smooth tanned body, basically jerking off
and showing off my full hard cock and
how excited I feel for them to see me in the
present moment and time, so they better
then anyone know how I'm looking and
doing in the most current time, Last
Sunday I meet with this doctor from NY
who i meet first online, was visiting
Portland and staying at this nice hotel
room and once we got naked he noticed me
and I noticed him and his big thick dick
that was so hard and horny that i had to
lubricate my ass hole and once I started to
stick it inside my juicy behind but he got too close to
ejaculation, so I took it out, but it was too
late because this generous amount of
sperm started to come out from his big
dick, so quickly I started swallowing and
eating all that sperm, i just gave him an
orgasm too soon, and once i found myself
sucking this thick cock with all these sperm
with it and inside my through is that the
though was too hot for my brain and I got
myself these big orgasm and these big
chunk of cum just exploded out of my
cock, and it felt so much better at that
time, totally relaxed, so then I told him to
lay down and took control of his body with
my hands and gave him some massage that
he enjoyed very much based on his
compliments, then we went out to eat at
this cool restaurant and we talked about
lots of interesting stuff, then I had to take
off. Two days ago way before my live
webshow I went to the nude beach with my
friend Paul, is in Sauvie Island, and it felt
so liberating to be there all naked under
the sun and free, at some point I started to
walk behind the bushes and took all those
mosquitos bites in order to suck some cock
in the bushes and sure i sucked one who
gave me a nice generous amount of sperm,
it got hard and big fast and soon after that
male ejaculated inside my mouth and I
swallowed it all, he was the typical
outdoors guy, then I came back where my
friend and I were staying, and then this big
white guy with a big hard dick walks by
and we invited him and then he lay down in
a way that his dick was so close to my
mouth that automatically I started to suck
his big penis and my friend Paul was
watching around cause it was not in the
bushes is was close to the water, so he got
off really nice inside my mouth, and It
turned me on so much that I had to get off,
and these big ejaculation came out of me,
making me feel just so
gooooooooooooooooood, then this guy and
his big cock left, and soon after that me
and Paul got annoyed by the moskitos and we just took off. Last night I dreamed that I was flying a la Peter Pan, but last night I had a cape on for the first time in my dreams, but someone I know didn't wanted me to wear it, weird dream, but a cool one. There is a chance that I
move to Europe or Canada, or Australia or
Brazil if the life of all of us the people
working in porn in USA becomes a hell
with some new laws or something out
there now days, and sure I'm glad to live
here in Portland far away from LA, even
that I must go there sometimes, because
Portland gives me peace and that is
priceless now days but you can get it if you
get guided by the force which is always
Jesus Christ, and not ashamed to mention
him in my last song, I had to do it at some
point I guess you knew.
issue # 117
Friday, June 03, 2005
Today Sunday may 3rd my latest musical creation called "Yours" is been posted on my website with lyrics and all, I LOVE IT MUCHO MUCHO!, it was created 2 days ago here in PDX, Portland, OR, and is done in a way that is really original and unique of course, is not a dance song, is electronic trance and is basically a poem or a letter to my fans that is animated with music that comes from inside of me, I consider this way the best way to express my personal feelings with my fans and gives them confidence to hang in with me, they are my boyfriends and it takes a lot of work to keep a boyfriend happy so they don't go around looking somewhere else. So last Sunday I turned my webcam on at 6:53 PM Pacific Standard Time cause I really couldn't wait to start my show that was scheduled for 7PM, I just wanted to show my fans my smooth body and my dick hard as a rock, i just masturbated in front of it and the quality was the best as ever, there was over a dozen of guys out there at the same time and space beating distance and I was watched live from distance places like Amsterdam, Holland, and other far places through the power of the Internet and my website, I really enjoyed showing off myself to all of my lovers out there making sure to live that present time and make it really exciting to the point of ejaculating a nice big load of sperm, giving my fans this way my latest orgasm, mmmmmmm!!! it felt awesome, now in a couple of days I should do another one, yeahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!. Another good time was also when I went to meet with this guy here in Portland and he did me such great favor once I told him i will give him in return a super special massage, and the other day I went to his apartment and he had the lights off with just some candles on and really soft music with a bed set up for a massage, we took our clothes off and he laid down the bed on his stomach, so I started to rub his back with this grape seed oil and went all the way up and down his back and arms, then I made my way down to his butt chicks and his muscular legs, his uncut cock was really hard and that muscle I massaged it with my mouth and tongue, at some point I lubricated his butt hole and with my hard cock I started to massage his prostate with my cock, he was so relaxed that it wasn't a problem for me to put my cock in and out of that love hole really easy, but he really wanted to feed me with his load of sperm, and not even 2 minutes after he start to suck my hard cock i ejaculated inside his mouth and sure he ate my sperm really good, then he did the same and came inside my mouth, mmmmmmmmmmmm!!, it was some real different way to get off, after a while the bathhouse can get a little tiring,
so for a change I'm trying lately this kind of hook ups, after that we went to eat pizza with apple juice, then I drove in my Nissan Altima home to sleep, There is these 2 pathetic groups on the small part of the gay condoms porn Industry that called themselves awards shows one is called Gayvn and the other is called Grabby, and they nominate and award themselves in order to feel better and make what is by now the majority of gay porn which is the bareback ones feel bad or that we are being punished when the truth is that there is no way I could ever feel punished by being totally ignored by them since by now they are the minority of Gay Porn, yes, they are the minority and they know it that is why they ignore the ones like me and Treasure Island, and their request by people keeps going down, as my movies and my name not
only remains but are stronger then ever before, so I'm really glad I don't belong those forgettable groups of people and movies, My movies are classics that will live long after I'm dead, so the ones who said that will never do bareback are now struggling to enter into bareback cause that is what people has come to love to see, but they will be seen as hypocrite if they now go into bareback, right now is so funny how they are trying with what they called "dry Humping" and yet calling it safe, it makes me laugh so much!, they really are struggling, and I'm glad I'm not cause actually. Lately also I have been feeling really inspired by Martina Navratilova and the Argentineans such as Paola Suarez and Mariano Puerta for collecting Glam Slam finals right now in Roland Garros at the top of the tennis world. If you live in Portland, OR like me and you don't wanna go to a bar and have a good time and deal with this group of horrible people tasting for HIV, yes, believe it or not, you want to go out to a bar to have a good time and forget about work and any problems and yet the HIV people come to this bar to do these test using these bars as part time clinics, so bizarre!, and notice that I never use the word bizarre, but this situation is too much, and the bars who are part
clinic are "CC Slaughters", "Eagle" and "Scandals", so don't be surprise if you never ever see me there and if I could wear a
T-shirt that says "don't do the HIV test" I would, maybe for the gay parade cumin up soon, Portland is the best place for me in all USA to work as a dissident and together with this other dissident I know named Paul we will try to get the truth out there, and my Jesus Christ keep me guided by the Holy Spirit.
issue # 116
Thursday, May 26, 2005
In matter of few days I'm gonna get off live
through my webcam in my website that
way my members can see my live orgasm,
and will show my body all smooth and the
quality of the image is been perfected too,
it will be done from here Portland that is
now days Sunny from 5 AM to 9 PM but
doesn't get too hot. Next week is when this
new song called "Yours" will be posted
exclusively on my website and yeah! is
totally unique. From now and on you will
never see me at this local bathhouse called
"Steam" cause the owner hates
barebackers and I cannot support someone
like him, sorry, so, for now you may see
me at this other bathhouse called
"Portland" cause so far the owner is not
against barebackers, the movies are better
and is way bigger anyway and sure I
enjoyed a lot being there last week, and
playing around with lots of guys, one was
a big muscular black guy with the thickest
dick I have ever seen, and it had a lot of
sperm for me to swallow, it wasn't also the
only sperm I swallowed, also I had few
guys taking me to their rooms to breed my
butt hole really good, there was some nice
thick going around that night, and
sure I drain them all, also there was this
bottom guy with great legs and ass, I
fucked him for a good while until I just
dumped an orgasm inside his already
sperm lubricated love hole. At some point i
this tall white slim sexy guy in chaps asked
me what was my real name instead of
asking me what was name like most people
used to say, but I'm used to it, so we played for the longest,
he fucked me with his 10 inches cock and I
fucked him with my 9 inches cock, he could
also take inside his hungry rectum some
big toys, it was just too much fun that
night, and this other guy came by and we
played and played, but after a good while
I went home and took a bath, ate, and
rested, The other night I went out some
local gay bar here in Portland and I found
out that the gay bars of one side are
angry at the gay bars of the other side
cause is there where the gay parade will
take place this year, so now I'm gonna have
to decide which side to take I guess, it goes
to show how divided the town can be when
it gets bigger and bigger like the
connection I have with my ultimate and all
mighty protector and God, yeah! you
guessed right, Jesus Christ is my God
issue # 115
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
On Sunday, May 8th I flew to LAX from PDX and my friend Mark W. a great friend from the late 90's picked me up at the airport and took us to his place in West Hollywood, we went later to the movies, out to eat, watched TV and hang out, then on Monday night I went to Tom's house, he is a fuck buddy of mine who was requesting me with lots of time i advance, so it was time to go to his place and go crazy in his manhole, he really have the best mangina in LA and sure I took advantage of it cause I fucked this hole good but couldn't hold this ejaculation I was holding for days, so it went all deep inside his big nice and juicy hole, soon after I started playing with some dildos inside such an inviting rectum and soon after that I was already fucking him again, it was so fucking amazing to fuck a big hole who did not put any resistance, and do it for a good long while, then he called this latin guy and he fucked him too dumping 2 loads inside his hole, I fucked this latin kid too, yummy, great satisfaction out of it for me!,, then this other kid came by and I fucked him as well, i fisted my buddy tom, and fucked him some more until I dumped another load inside him, and I took a shower and decided to go rest at my good friend Bob who I know from 1996, he sure is someone I always been happy to be friends with, he knows a lot and he is so easy going, fucking love it!, he loves to watched TV so I did it too, but on Thursday night Vasilia picked me up and took us to "Gozar" which is the most popular gay restaurant in LA located right in the middle of all, and the food was exquisite, the service very seducing, and the night was hot, fuck! that weather was perfect, so we walked to this other bar next to it called "Abbey" breaking my promise of never comeback there but they took out the HIV ads in the restrooms, and also I got to meet Andy, who is the singer from this duo from the 80's called "Erasure" and it was strange cause when I was a teenager back in Mendoza I would look at his music videos and loved them, and dreamed of making my own music as well, and as soon as I saw him I went up to him and introduced myself as Jeff Palmer the porn star and automatically made the affirmative gestures with his head and face of knowing who I was, he was always smiling and looking at me very sexually with those big eyes of his, I told him also that I loved him and his music and it was part of my inspiration to make mine, then I kissed him on his face and grabbed his ass and went back to where my girlfriend Vasilia was and told her, then we walked pass him so she could see him too, then we located ourselves all the way into the other side of this bar, and soon after Andy and his guys located near us, so I went back there again, this time with Vasilia, then Andy introduced me to his boyfriend of 20 years and they where doing matchmaking to their also British guy, but I was only interested in Andy, and he knew it too, just by looking at each other we fucked like crazy, but after 15 or 20 minutes I took Vasilia and me out of there for I couldn't fuck with him for he have a boyfriend already and I got what I wanted which was to meet him, kiss him, hug him and I even grabbed his ass, it was so cool to see how close to his heart he was holding that rose I gave him, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!, other then a few more pounds, he looks just the same, not aging with him so far, but I just could not believe that I was the only one to come out to him and show some love, cause I'm sure all those fagots knew very well who he was but yet they where acting cool and pretending like they did not know him as they always act when they see someone famous, but it worked at my advantage, so, ah ah!, it will stay in my memory until I die. On Saturday Joe M. picked me up at Bob's place in Hollywood and took me to his in West Hollywood but his dog died not too long ago and also he is very much into himself and I know him for few years only, so, on Sunday night I was already back at Bob's place, staying with him was way better and more comfortable even that it was way smaller, money can make you so fucking miserable, yak!. Yesterday Monday I flew from LAX to PDX and my good friend here Tom picked me up at the airport and took me to my place, rested well, and now writing all I could remember making sure I keep my people updated, also I Imagine about how cool it will be if all the gay people in the closet comes out, like Oprah with her girlfriend Gayle, Tom Cruise and quite few others, but maybe is just my imagination. From now and on I will be taking out the hair of my body regularly again, I got tired of being hairy already, and who knows for how long it will last this time, it would be a new look for the gay festival parade here in PDX on June 18 &19, so far now I have to work harder on this new music single, so, in the name of Jesus Christ I'm making myself to not be lazy anymore and finish creating this new song soon, for is the mightiest name ever
issue # 114
Friday, May 06, 2005
After hearing so many great comments about my latest film that came out last month which is the 3rd part of my own barebacking series is that I asked to have some copies sent because I cannot wait to see it for I have a feeling that this may be my best film ever but I got to see it first, the hotter the better based on my standards. Not long ago someone in Miami invited me to Miami to have a little vacation, and the invitation was too juicy and yummy to say no, he picked me up at Fort Lauderdale's airport on Tuesday 26th and drove us to his apt. in Miami Beach. with a 14th floor view located right next to the water like a small Venice, and he was hot and sexy himself too, he made me feel very special the whole time, he treated me so good and the sex was awesome too, (I'm not using the word fucking as much anymore cause I got tired of using it so much already) he have this amusing thick uncut dick that make you wanna suck it and make of it a pacifier, mmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!, besides, penetrating his hungry and tasty rectum felt amazing while grabbing onto those nice beefy butt chicks, ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! sure he had a lot of passion, we also walked on Lincoln Road, we ate at restaurants like "Leo's" and "Next", we got to see my friend Dan, another night I meet with the last human I ever gave most of my heart which was a year a half ago, it was the one I used to call Papito and it was great to see him and confirm that everything it is like is really meant to be. One night on Thursday they were showing the 7th Gay and Lesbian Film Festival and the highlight movie was "The Man-Peter Berlin", and I went to see it with this friend of mine called "R", and couldn't know if was longer the wait or the line, but some how almost as we get got close to get in I was pulled to the side for pictures by this sexy/cute guy from Miami's local gay press and after taking some pics of us with the typical sponsors wall paper in the background we went inside to see this documentary which was fascinating cause they build this guy Peter Berlin to be a porn star but he was actually a gay erotic image creator for he said to never have penetrated anyone since coming to USA from Berlin, he was not about the sex but about erotic images and teasing gay men, and for what a know a porn star is about nothing but sex, still I though the movie gave me some good info and of course they took out the part in this documentary where he talks about doing this drug called speed every 2 weeks, and enjoying life without the pressure of work, the guy is 62, and the other part they cut in the movie is where he said that he is been away from the needles meaning that he doesn't do HIV tests, that is why he not only survived but also he looks younger then is age, and I could see it with my own eyes when the movie was over and he was right there in the entrance waiting for the announcer to present him to the crowd, but quickly before that I introduced myself to Peter Berlin shacking hands and he tough I modeled my latest image to him, and it was his night so I did not say other wise, but honestly I personally found out about him this year cause people tell him how much I look my hair look like his hairstyle, but my inspiration was the singer Morrison as for haircut goes, After shaking hands and talking a little with Peter Berlin he was asked to the stage and he went there while we all gave him a great ovation, and he seemed evasive when they asked him if he enjoyed the documentary or not, and what he do for living, another answer of his was that he did not work out at the gym for 15 years and his body looked very well kept, he was dressed the same way he used to dress in the 70's and he was tall as I'm which is 5'8, then "R" and I went to his apt. played, got off and went to sleep, the next day we had breakfast and it was Friday so we decided to have a long sex marathon and at some point we even went to the local gay bathhouse and played with few men in there, in my case with many, many men, basically I enjoyed making them ejaculate either inside my juicy butt hole already filled with lots of sperm or inside my mouth so I can eat every drop, there was this hot Cuban guy with goatee, bold, hairy buddy and a thick uncut dick that he introduced inside my anus and pumped an orgasm of sperm deep inside me, and he repeated again like an hour later, also I fucked this Puerto Rican guy who had a very soft and tender butt hole already fucked by many like mine and it turned me on so much that I just I couldn't refuse to fuck it and it felt so good that I wanted to share it so I opened the door of this small room and soon there was this guy that started to fuck him but with a condom, so it turned me off so I left the room and tried to forget what I saw, then I recovered my horniness and played with some other men, at some point there was this huge black guy that looked like a retired football player and I sucked on that thick dick for a while, but in the dark room was the most fun taking one dick after another in my ass at some point, then we came back to the apartment, we played some more and went to sleep the next day we took it easy as the following days until Tuesday that I flew back here to PDX, (Portland, Or), and the next day on Wednesday I went to this local bathhouse but they had this HIV testing people there so it made the attendance low, the guys would come in and see those people get scared or turned off and leave, still I had fun and got over a dozen of guys to ejaculate their sperm inside my hungry rectum with some of them repeating, i ate lots of sperm too, but still it was a shame that the HIV machine won't leave gay people alone, so now I only have one option which is a sex- club called Glory and if the HIV machine tries to ruin that one too then I won't go to bathhouses again here in PDX. Today I'm Listening to this new song I just created because now days I'm working in writing the words and finding out what and how I will sing and is such fascinating thrill to have this opportunity because is nothing but what i want to hear when I need to feed my own spirit that way I keep it strong and healthy to serve Jesus Christ the better, and may him help me and protect me in my upcumin travel to Los Angeles two days from today, even is just for a week trip only
issue # 113
Sunday, April 17, 2005
I just saw at SXVideo.com the free preview of the 3rd Volume of the "Barebacking with Jeff Palmer" series and in this one I Get gang fu**ed, and I have to say that it really turned me on, so, so, so hot, yeahhhhhh!!!!!!!!, cannot wait to see the whole thing, is my favorite for sure, each time I see a new movie of mine I feel like is better then the last one, so sure I'm so glad about it cause so many people have been waiting for this one since January to come out, SX VIdeo do such good job at editing, Jesse is awesome with close ups, and Gary always with fantastic ideas too. Another good news is that my favorite Webmaster and I came back together and now I'll be able to put more stuff on my website and update it very often, hopefully it will last a long long time, also I'm getting great help from my favorite gay porn journalist Damon Kruezer who is someone I can relate to cause he is hated or loved, but I see the way he can master the English language together with common sense in order to make the truth out, besides all the rest of the gay journalist pretend that I don't exist and try hard to put me down, but the high sales of may movies after almost 10 years back fires at them and they try hard to push to people all these horrible condom movies that consumer run from, so I'm so glad that smart people like Michael Musto and Damon Kruezer exist and they can try to make justice against publications such as Seattle Gay News who do not respect their own readers by not giving them what they promise to give. I love where I live here in PDX so much that I really don't like traveling that much anymore even that I should be in LA on the beginning of May. The music in the radio stations here in PDX are so cool and hiphop free, jazz, classical, rock, and even a Christian one, also the bathhouses here are so much fun, like last Thursday I went to one of them, the not so big one, and got naked right away cleaned up and went hunting for man and cock, and sure there was plenty so I took one after another and fucked this one and that one, I remember being introduced officially as Jeff Palmer at some point to this young guy who was really weird, he was in his room claiming that he did not have sex with anyone that night and got so weird that was really not fun at sex, so I left his room and then I went up stairs at the TV room and this blond young guy early 20's with a hot mustache offering there his big hard cock to me, wanting me to suck it and I did it until his really young boyfriend showed up and got jealous so I made my way into another kid and this one was a Latin one smiling a lot and with such hard big uncut cock that I took him to my room right away and he fucked my love hole so good filling me up with one load and he kept fucking me with his super hard cock and shot another load of sperm deep inside me and then I let him go for a break, while I went up stairs in the TV room and this blond kid with a hot mustache got a hold of me and just lifted my legs and fucked me right there and plowed me really hard and i liked it so much and when he ejaculate it deep inside my hole I felt like he had a fucking river of sperm injecting inside me, than he kept fucking me cause his dick was still hard and after a while he came inside my hole again, he took his cock out of my butt hole and left. There was also an army guy in this room and I came inside locked the door and started to suck his dick, he told me he'll fuck me with condoms only, but I told him that I'm allergic to condoms, and after a while I won and his cock was fucking me with out a condom and fucking me hard with a nice hard cock that ejected a huge amount of cum inside me, than I sucked it and left that room, he was a real marine, kind of straight. There also was this other young couple one was tall and kind of bear, they both fucked me good, with one of them breeding me, also at some point I was upstairs fucking this guy who was laying on his stomach and than I saw this skinny tall black guy walked by and showing his long and huge black dick, so I stopped fucking this guy and followed this black guy and took him to the sling room where he fucked me so good and hard, he dumped one load after the other inside my hole, but after the second load of sperm we took a brake. Also I spent some time fucking this really fucking hot blond guy with the perfect ass and his buddy, and I end up dumping a load in each ass hole of theirs thought the course of the night, they fucked each other so well too, fuck!, the this Latin kid showed up again with his super hard uncut cock wanting to dump a 3rd load in my hole and sure I let him, and he fucked me the hardest and came real good inside me again for a 3rd time, then he left that place, and i kept cruising around until I founded this really big furry and hairy bear guy, big bear with a hot beard, and he was laying on his stomach with a very inviting hole that I fucked so good until I dumped a load in there really good, and than I felt that I was satisfied enough to go home to shower, eat and rest, mmmmm!!!!!!!, and sorry but no dating or husbands or boyfriends with me, cause not for nothing JESUS CHRIST have the position that a boyfriend would have in my life, I'll have to be really stupid to give to one human more then the rest, my intention is to love the most humans as I can
issue # 112
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
I went to Seattle WA last Saturday, and
Steven who was this hot black guy, picked
me up and took me to my hotel room, than
he fucked me and dumped a nice load
inside me, he was hot big and muscular,
and a couple of hours later me him and
Michael Montgomery went to the Cabaret,
This cabaret place was small like most
cabarets are, the live musical shows and
first diner course started at 8:00 PM, the
diner was $100 and around 10:30 PM
they started playing my music and I went
down the stairs from my dressing room
totally naked with a total 100% rock hard
cock and walked onto the stage and
danced to my own music while my dick was
hard and the guys in the audience where
all smiling and really happy and excited,
excited such point that when i went onto
the audience and started grabbing some
crotches I noticed these man had their penis
erect inside, so I unzipped few of those
pants and started sucking on those nice
hard cocks right in front of everybody and
even seat on some of those horny dicks,
my butt hole was already very lubricated
and stretched, so it took those cocks
easily, and some point one guy started to
pound me from behind real nice, then I
would go back to the stage and show off
myself all naked with some real hard dick
between my legs, than come onto other
guys in the audience and really close to
almost everybody in there, then i sucked
some more dicks and then went back to the
stage and started to jerk off and
ejaculated a nice big amount of sperm
exploding out of my cock, while an ovation
was going one, it was a big ovation actually
I ate my own cum and then I went back to
my dressing room while the ovation was
still going on, then later I found out that
one of the people of Seattle Gay News was
there, so, I'm very curious in getting the
next issue, cause right now the current
issue 12 from Volume 33, the Friday,
March 25th, page 33 and is called "An
interview with porn Superstar Jeff Palmer"
Part 1.
Interviewed by Michael Montgomery, and
the interview starts with...Undoubtedly one of
the icons of today's porn industry, Jeff
Palmer has made more than a name for
himself- but he has been expanding the
image of the business. I got a chance to go
one-on-one with his hard body about his
music, family, and how he manages to
make every day count... but if you wanna
read the interview got to go to their
website at SGN.org.
After doing that show we where in the
dressing room giving some massages to
some diner guests, some of them got a
blow job from me while getting all these
hands all over their bodies, I swallow some
yummy cum, later after going to the hotel
room I got plowed by this other guy and
than I went walked 2 blocks from the hotel
and went to this local gay bathhouse
called "Z" and I fucked and fucked a lot, it
a
was such fucking big fuck fiesta going on
there, so many cocks and hungry
butt holes, and they showed some bareback
movies too, so much pleasure with so
many horny man, but after certain hours I
was tired already so went back to the hotel
and showered and then me and Michael
went to have breakfast and then we went
to see the Seattle Gay Chorus sing some
cool songs in the beginning but then it got
all political and negative to one point that I
had to stop clapping my hands when I
hear them singing "everybody is a racist",
well, sure it explained to me why I didn't
see any black people in the audience, all of
the sudden I felt like I was part of the KKK,
and them singing the gay marriage crap
didn't bother me as much, so as soon as it
was over we where out, then I miss my
departure to PDX, so I stayed an extra day
in Seattle with Ben who is this cute
Indonesian guy, and he got us a nice hotel
room and food and watched TV and he
fucked me 3 times that night dumping 3
respective loads of his sperm inside me of
course, than he left for work and I slept
more then him, and left to PDX and my
great roommate Doug was there in my
arrival and took us home, even his doggy
Leo came along, so fucking cute, now I
need to recuperate, like Peter
Berlin (porn star in his 60's) would say. And
here in PDx is my favorite place to do it,
the food in here is way more organic then
anywhere else in the world, now I'm gona
start working hard on posting some new
video clips and start working again in this
new song, and wanna be part of the next
"gay PDX parade" cumin soon in June, so
thank you Jesus Christ for keeping me
protected always, making sure I'm always
fine.
Issue # 111
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
There is some really few pleasures in life
when you sometimes are so glad to have,
and one of them is going to one of the
local gay bathhouses here in PDX with
horny man, many bisexuals and many with
boyfriends, I went there like 2 weeks
ago, and then I went to 2 different
bookstores with glory holes, Oregon is the
State with the most bookstores per capital
in USA.
So, this guy inside my booth tried to fuck
me but when I saw this big white cock
through the glory hole of my booth
immediately I stick it inside my ass and no
fucking clue who was behind, all I knew it
was such fucking pretty and big and tick
cock that with the help of my already
stretched and super sperm-lubricated butt
hole was so easy to just stick it inside my
love hole and whoever was behind started
to pump and pound hard on that wall of
wood, he fucked me so hard through that
glory hole and I got such the best grip ever
while he pounded so fucking hard until of
course he unloaded the last drop of his
super protein sperm deep inside me, then
this guy inside my booth seated on this
chair and wanted me to seat on his dick
cause it was his way of cumin, and sure it
was, because man! it was another fucking
huge load down inside my hole, soon after
my time in this booth was done and didn't
wanna put more money so I left, those
places get rich, no wonder they advertise
the glory holes outside the doors of these
booths, mmmmmmm!!!!!!! clever!!!, hey!, a
man who gets off is a man with less stress
and anger on the streets, so no wonder
people in PDX are so fucking community
cool.
On Thursday March 24th I flew from PDX to NYC and
stayed at this good friend of mine named
Tim, it was so cool to see him that I fucked
him really good that night before going to
sleep, mmmmmmmmmmmm!!!, he got such
an amazing ass and legs, the next day I got
ready for the Show that I gave at the most
historical gay club ever named "Stonewall"
right at the current world's capital, and it
was too fucking sexual, that night of
Friday March 25th I was in my dressing
room, but right after March 26th around
12:30 AM I started sucking dick and getting
sucked with some volunteer and soon after
around 1 AM I went to the stage showing
off myself on my own music while I rocked
out with my cock out, and it was hard, then
I got one of the guys from the audience
and pulled out his hard big dick and then I
started to suck on it right there on the
stage, but for few seconds then I stood up
up and danced a little always with my hard
cock out and then kept sucking on this
guy's cock, mmmmmm!!!! it was really thick
and juicy, but few seconds after again I
stood up and danced a little, again and
again, and at the end of the song I left the
stage. The presenter was confused and
though that I was there to collect dollars
like a fucking stripper, and I wanted him
to stop talking in that microphone about it,
but I forgave him for his ignorance by
giving him a nice and deep throat blow job
on his 12 inches nice black cock, the guy
was like 6'2, I wanted him to fuck me but
people where knocking on the door, there
was lots of honey man out there, there was
like a couple hundred people including
women too that night, then the presenter
took me downstairs to sign autographs on
the CD's I brought them to give away, and
there was a line of people wanting for my
CD real very much, and signed like 25 of
them, I gave them also a big strong hug
and a fucking sweet kiss, some took their
pics with me and all the action going on
that night, some grabbed my dick, I made
out with this guy while his girlfriend
grabbed my dick, he sucked my dick right in
front of her, she told me earlier how much
my movies get her off, and I know some
women can have a real problem getting
off, so she really fucking made my night,
we kissed too, she was so hot! I
couldn't believe it,, fucking WOW!, but then
the cake with candles came and they
started singing me the happy birthday and
got a little embarrassed but very happy and
excited, I blew the candles and thanked
them in the microphone for cumin, that I
was so happy to be back in NYC, then I was
taken upstairs where i wanted to come to
the stage again to get off, but by then it
was really packed so the risk of getting a
ticket was so high that I had play with
some guys upstairs but not in the stage
with the stage light, I just wanted to get off
live in front of a bunch of man and have
them touch me all over my naked body
with many man's hands and see me
ejaculate my sperm and make it all the
most 3 dimensional as possible, and I did
it, just that way, and it felt so fucking
fulfilling, and very much relieving for the
people of Stonewall cause then they
stopped worrying about getting a ticket,
thank God NYC is under great control now
days, the days of being controlled by jerks
in NYC is over, YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!,
Hillary for president, besides the country is
really controlled by woman anyway, it was
my 5th birthday show in NYC and 3rd in
"Stonewall" as a gay revolutionist, yes
there is a gay sexual revolution going on, is
not a secret for gay people who don't live
under a rock and I feel like the Gay Che
Guevara, LOL, but hey!, ever since I stopped
going to the doctor I been healthy, no even
a flu anymore cause I don't take the flu
shot anymore, and is not a coincidence,
cause it happens to any one, repeat, anyone I know, Flu shots equals flu.
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night at Stonewall, I stayed there until
around 3 AM, then I left with this guy from
the audience to his apartment cause my
butthole had to eat that cock and sure he
fucked me really good, after he got off I
went back to Tim's place which is where I
stayed in NYC while there, that Saturday I
took it easy and rested, but on Sunday 27
was the celebration day for the
resurrection of Jesus Christ and my
birthday, I turned finally 30 years old, that
day I celebrate it by hooking up with this
lawyer and had him fuck me with his huge
cock and then I ate his cum, then I went out
to "Hero" in NYC and I saw so many young
and hot looking guys, I started dancing and
walking around as their eyes looked at me
first with great surprise and few seconds
later pretending they never saw me which
is typical NYC, always people acting cool,
like LA and all big cities, still I had a good
time Tim was there and then he took me to
another club called "Park" and there was
also packed with young hot looking guys,
and at some point I saw this one through
that dancing crowd and soon after I
walked up to him and we just started
kissing and I took him to this couch and we
started to make out for the longest, I was
also at the same time cruising with this
hot go go boy who was getting ready to
leave, but he was like 20 and the guy I was
making out was in his 30's like me and it
felt so good to be my age and happy to not
be in my 20's anymore, it seems like the
older I get the better is all, any fucking
way, I went to this guy's apartment and we
played got off and went to sleep, next on
Monday we ate and watched tennis on TV,
then I went back to Tim's place to shower
and get ready to go to the airport and get
my ass back to PDX, one of my friends
here Paul picked me up and took me
to me to my place and after eating
showering and resting I'm here writing
down all I can remember since last time I
wrote in here.
I'm doing another Show in Seattle, WA at
"Hengst Studio" some kind of adult private
restaurant&entertainment where the last
show after diner is a sexual one, and the
crowd may participate as well which
sounds really interesting cause I should be
doing that show actually, this Saturday on
April 2nd, and there is now out part 1 of
an interview I did with Seattle Gay News
(very controversial of course), very much
looking forward to it.
Now days reading tabloids in the airplane
are about woman being pregnant or having
babies and it makes me fall at sleep fast.
Soon I should start recording new song to
be out by May, and yes, it will be done here
in "PDX" , my favorite city now currently,
great public parking, amazing bridges with
amazing views, not so cloudy and rainy
like people presume, very futuristic
parking streets meters, making it even
cleaner and modern, and very easy to pay
parking tickets like i did one last week just
over the phone, and the flower trees are
just everywhere in the rich or poor areas,
downtown, uptown, freeways, just
everywhere, and they are the best kind
also they are the traditional Japanese ones,
it's the advantage of living so closer to
Japan, and I already look forward to be in
on of the floats that the gay parade takes
place here in June and then do a musical
show in some local club
Also lately I been burning to do something
new and different like giving some
professional massages in my free time,
mmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!, the shows I been
doing last week on my wecam to show me
love on my website are of great quality, I
feel better in sometimes showing my
people at my website at least for 15
minutes, once or twice a week, so they can
see how I currently look alike, and to end I
have to say that the ones who really know
me already know that I I'm beyond honored
to have my birthday on the same day that
so many people celebrate Jesus Christ's
Resurrection, and that resurrection is
what give us his servers the power we need
to do what we should.
Issue # 110
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Right after i wrote my last journal I meet
with this local fuckbuddy of mine who
loves to get fisted and be filmed, I fucked
him really good, I gave him 2 loads in few
hours, was fucking awesome to lose
myself in that juiced up and warm hole,
and days after that I been working out
following by the getting off part in the
showers, fuck!, so many horny man in that
heat room, there is not much sex going on
there but just looking at each others hard
cocks in such public place make us get
close to cum, Now days I'm in the gym often for I need to
get ready physically for my 5th celebration
of my birthday in NYC, again in
"Stonewall" the place for gay revolution,
and sure I feel so fucking blessed, what a fucking
wonderful life! and is only getting better,
representing more and more people who
knows what I know, making sure that there
is freedom to live honestly. Lately I been going to the nude
beach here in Sauvie Island, OR right
outside Portland, a buddy of mine drove us
there and we went to the bushes and his
dick was so hard under his pant that i
unzipped the pants of this baby blue eye
Texan guy, his dick was thick and 9
inches, perfect for sucking, besides early
on he dumped a load inside my butt in his
hotel room, but here in the bushes he gave
another load of sperm but in my mouth, I
ate every drop of cum that came out of his
big Texan dick, then we kept on walking
and we saw some guy laying there and I went
up to him and he sucked my dick until it
got hard and then I spit some saliva in his
big juicy hole and went inside and fucked
him doggy style in front of other guys and
it felt like in a dream of mine I had lately,
right outside in the sun and nature, and
After unloading my sperm in his hole, then we left. Also lately I have
posted a new song called "ENJOY" which is
gonna be part of a new 3rd musical
compilation I'm working on, I'm also
posting some new video clips of my private life with some fuckbuddies of mine, not their faces, just their holes, dicks and mouth, it was so much fucking getting fucked by them, one of them is this big 6'7 foot German guy with a real 11 by 6 uncut cock, sure he plow me hard and it shows in the clips, he unload it 4 loads inside me as usual, I hope my fans really like it cause I do so much that I came few times already by watching it, so fucking nasty, my love hole looked so open and relaxed, fuck! Too fucking hot! long close ups of dick fucking butt hole. My good friend DK from the window "Porn Gossip & News" is sharing some interesting information that shows how phony, dissemblers, pretenders, and
Hypocrite condoms models can be now
days, thank God I'm always trying to be the most honest as possible to my
fans, they are priority for me into humans,
for all I do is for them and not being
honest will always get in between, honesty
is so fucking priceless, but really priceless.
FINALLY! This year some real porn awards were born called "Video On Demand Awards" for the gay&straight porn industry, also the nominees are chosen by the people, YEAHHHHHHHHHHH!, and I was one of the nominated ones as nothing else then "Performer of the year," WOW!
Now it won't be until the end of this year for the next awards for gay only called
"barebackjack.com" but they are chosen by the people as well.
Nothing like real sex which is what porn
should always be, why? cause most people who are not in fear or afraid do it in real life too, if they
make straight porn with out condoms then
gay should be the same, there is not high risk groups, I just hope that at least my fans don't take this fake test of
HIV, just like most straight people don't do
it, I pray for the day that i can
be sued that way I can probe on court that
the virus never existed, there is all kind of proof out there about it, but of course the
HIV fraud machine can not afford this, that is why we never hear of HIV law sues in the 25 years history cause it will open a
debate that the HIV fraud cannot afford
they will really for the first time have to
probe the existence that is why they cannot
make a vaccine. And after seeing the aggressive campaign to make young people to take this fake test is that I decided to stop watching any TV show that is a channel that advertise so heavy on taking this fake test, included "The surreal life", they killed that show for me, The commercials that MTV and VH1 do about HIV test make me sick too my stomach and don't watch those channels anymore, so I rather watch tennis and see how strong the Argentinean man(Nalbandian is so hot), and the Russian woman are lately. On April I'm doing another show in Seattle, WA, it seems like the live shows keep on cumin year after year, with or without agents, why? cause Jesus Christ put in me the strongest energy and power to take full advantage of this wonderful life he gave me.
issue # 109
Sunday, February 27, 2005
The good news for some one like me who is turning 30 years old in one month is that I understand now why so many people of my age turned me down when I was a teenager, I been looking forward so much to be in my 30's, and finally is almost here!. Is been a long time since I'm not longer reading the tabloids, meaning that I haven't been traveling that much, I'm just taking my time here in Portland, OR. where is so sunny everyday, no clouds of rain for over a week I think, mucho fabuloso!, and poor California that I left behind 2 months ago is been fighting fucking huge rains. Having to change webmasters again caused me to delay some updates on my website, but hopefully the updates will start soon, in matter of just few days with hot new PICS and my first musical creation in one of Portland's music recording studios and is called "Enjoy" cause I'm really enjoying this dimension now days, specially with this high quality of life and peace here and I really enjoy listening to it a lot like write now as I write this words, is totally cool, smooth and electronically sexy, very unusual of course and cannot wait to put it online already, cause the more I hear it the more I like it, and working in another one already too, some wise man out there in the online world named Damon is already making guys to wake up with the question of why not a fair debate in the matter of HIV's veracity, and I say about fucking time. Another good news is that finally I played tennis last weekend with my ex-roommate Tim since I moved now to another place and I have now a new roommate who seems really easy to love, so cool so far! thank God!, and of course the local gay bathhouse was the way to celebrate it, it was fucking crazy as usual and when i saw this black kind of football player there seating naked all I had to do is seat next to him ignore some guy behind me never take my eyes away from his cock and slowly and like I don't wanna do it but inside i really wanted to put it in my mouth and show him how much I want it with a super blow job then I just took a seat on it and made him pound hard on my butt hole already fill with some others guy's semen, and sure I felt his huge load and huge&thick cock together with huge thick massive muscles on legs and arms made all the guys in there really horny and wanting to be me being fucked by such massive hot back horse, but the dark room was the place to be fucked and fuck, ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! so many men unloading not only in my hole and in others ones like this one that I end up fucking at one point until I contribute it to the cause of his hole with a big amount of my own sperm, fuck it felt so fucking good!, fucking hot sloppy and beyond juicy hole used and abused for who knows how many since he was there for hours, but not too long after I was already playing with more and more men, getting them off was so fucking hot, the dick here in this town can be really big and thick, this guy in his late 40's had this very long and thick cock, he was like 6'4, but still it was like 12 thick fucking inches that fucked me not once but 4 times with breaks in breaks in between shooting his sperm inside me each time, but after having collected so many loads of sperm inside me and getting off twice already then I left and went home to rest and eat, but few hours after I went to meet with this guy who just moved from NY and had a special ability, a major multiple cumer, he came inside my ass since the minute his nice and thick cock entered my love hole, I could fill the throbbing of this dick each time ejaculate it and sometimes it would be a big load and sometimes a small one, and in few hours he gave me 13 loads, he fucked me in every position we knew, I had a jockstrap the whole time and sometimes he would fuck me so really hard and then so slow with his rock hard cock, he kissed me and hugged me so hard and tight while fucking me mainly from behind, we covered the bed in sweat at some point, and at the end I unload it in his mouth and I went home to eat and rest, and today Sunday I wanna go to some local gay club which can be the church for gay man but with more abuse of alcohol, the only problem is that you cannot have sex there and I could feel out of place in there specially when they stare at me so much and they really know me while I really don't know them like they know me, and even that sometimes is more overwhelming then others still I find my way to do there what I go for which is dance for a little while if the music is good and support the local gay clubs which is important and I like seeing other's simple reactions and actions, I need to enjoy lots of different things out of this existence for time seems to goes faster as it goes by and right now is playing the track # 5 of my second musical compilation and is becoming this right moment in this place the best and happiest in my life, I can hear this one forever never stop, everything I ever wanted in a song and more, so much to thank to my source of all, the one who can make everything possible, Jesucristo!,!!! Jesus Christus, ÉϵÛ, ¤W«Ò, ¤W«Ò§Úªº°¸¹³
issue # 108
Saturday, February 19, 2005
The other day I was burning to write in this fucking journal and didn't finished so today, 2 days after I'm finishing it. One of the major reasons to write in here is because I must make clear that is been already almost 1 year and 2 months since I stopped wanting or planning to some day give my heart to another human being, or to make it simple let's say I'm really single and 4 ever it seems, and the differences? well, take it from someone who have gained an endless amount of confidence and CONSTANT happiness doing and using the tools provided by my God in order to live my life in honesty which is not the way most people live by in this current dimension, and fucking fool I would have to be to not do or project in this dimension into the next one after this dimension ends, or at least some dimension with out all the negatives from this current one. But still I feel how fucking cute is to watch a romantic movie cause that is love also but not for me, not anymore, the way of my life now is complete, is been almost 1 year and a half since I don't have just one human in my mind, and flying in my dreams is very often and it feels just so fucking real too, fuck!, no one is in my mind more then Jesus and this way I'm doing what I'm singing in this song I created years ago called "Easy", and now I have endless people in my mind and the heart suffers depending in the thoughts and action and decisions the brain takes that is why getting older is great, I'm almost 30 years old and in my brain I feel and want to live for another 77 years which is nothing with one of the sons of Adam and Eve who lived up to be 777 years old which is a bet too much fucking time in this dimension for me, but the reason i wanna be in this dimension for so long I don't know is just instinct I guess, and let's fucking face the fact of how good is to connect with one another specially sexually if no one else get affected by it, fucking with more then just one person is so fucking good that evil goes crazy and tries to stop this by disguising himself and dressing as light to appear radiant as the sun to confuse and make u think that being a slut is bad, like this songs and singers I used to like and that is why the evil is so smart by working through music, so if the message is negative no matter how much or how great the music is then I won't hear it, not anymore, only the love songs which are in my mind dedicated to Jesus, and if you wonder why I'm talking about all this personal crap is because I had more then just 1 fucking request to talk about it and why no more Papitos or boyfriends. So now that this is clear, we can move and let me tell you how much fun was being again at the local gay bathhouses here in Portland, OR and I got so much satisfaction there, talking about getting my hole loaded with sperm inside, and sucking and drinking lots of cocks and semen, I'm going through a bottom part of my life obviously or maybe there is more man confortable in fucking then getting fucked because they are afraid of the virus that never existed, great! so now my butt hole is going to fucking turn into a fucking mangina, but a warm, juicy, cozy and very inviting one though!, and OINK! is fucking right!, the hot thing is that the cock here in Portland may not big too large sometimes but sure fucking thick, and that is really fucking hot! besides there is lots of bisexuals too, I remember this particular time that I was upstairs watching some horrible condom movies and thank God someone came into that smoking room and once he started to play with his own penis under the towel then I went straight for his cock and suck it to the point he got hard rock instantly and soon after got ready to shot but then really quickly I stocked it inside my already really juiced up butt hole, and soon after I answered his question of how many guys already dumped their loads in men with ... just a dozen! then he said Oh man! I'm cuming! and I said YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!! fill me up, oh fuck!!!!,ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh, yeahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!, ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yeahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! oh feels so good!!!!!! aha!, aha! mmmmm!!!! Oh yeah I feel it!, oh man! yeah!!!!!!!!! then i took it out of my ass and immediately went on my knees and put it in my mouth and kept on sucking on all that cum, and it cause it was so fucking pretty and juiced up with that yummy smell of sperm, no fucking huge but very thick, solid and full with sperm to feed or breed an army, cause let me fucking tell you that soon after he was ready to cum again and I knew it with out him telling me cause once i seat on it again he started to fuck me this time with some good poundings, and soon after he unload it again in my by now so loaded with sperm hole then i started to suck on his cock but not for too long cause he had to take off. I remember also earlier that night meeting this huge bear guy so hot, with hair in his back and all! real bear and he was only 24 years old and I could see his baby face in such men body and it was so fucking hot I sucked him and he fucked me with the head of his dick until he unload it in my mouth, YUMMMMMMMM! I really liked him a lot, huge hairy legs thick hairy dick and balls, great kisser, love guys with beards too, yum!!!, also I remember this Asian guy in this other TV porn room and he had this really hard cock, thick and big head, really weird cause normally Asians are small there but not this one, he was fucking someone else when I meet him, so kind of like I stole it from this other one, he fucked me and dumped one big load of sperm with my legs up in his shoulder cause if their dick curve up then I rather take it that way, then this other guy joined us and he had a longer dick then the Asian guy and I seat on his dick and raped his dick with my ass hole seating on him, and he ejaculated it a huge amount of semen deep inside the hungry cavities of my horny, juicy and warm love hole, then this Asian guy fucked me the same way then before and then he dumped another load inside me, we kissed and I licked all the sperm clean from his cock, yummy! then he left and I could go on and on all the long explaining all of my sexual encounters of that night, so I hope this few ones can give you the idea, oh yeah! this other huge big guy fucked me so good from behind too, dumping 1 load in my butt hole and 2 more in my mouth, loved sucking his big cock, he had a fucking cute face too, huge legs, YUMMMMMMMMMMMM!, fuck! enough!, now I'm gonna fucking talk about how excited I feel to finally start to play tennis again, hopefully today after I finish writing this for is been so fucking sunny here in Portland lately and I can see lots of trees with flowers already, early spring, yessssssssss! is 2005 baby!!!!!!!!!!! and in matter of a week or so my first song of 2005 will come out here on my website only, is gonna be called "Enjoy" and is not a dance song, is a weird alternative electro trance and I fucking love it of course, and the words are positive ones of course dedicate them to my fans, and my one Idol Jesus Christ the only one who I'm mot ashamed of idolizing, come on! People! get a fucking clue!, I got all I want with him! ... and maybe more.
issure # 107
Friday, February 04, 2005
And the show I did in Cedar
Rapids in IOWA last Saturday
night was a total success and lots of
fun, after performing 2 of my
songs with my hairless again chest and stomach I went out there to
autograph some of my own CD's
and few dozens where not enough
cause even that it was a small
place it was packed, over 200
people, most men but lots of women
too, overall they seemed to really loved
me, maybe because I got so horny at one point
in the autographs session that
after that while performing 2 more
songs I started showing off my cock almost rock hard cause I had to covered the head of my
dick at all times with my hand,
which was not that simple but I
had to follow those rules and
with my foreskin helped me too,
then the manager Russell, this big guy took me back to my room, and before leaving he got me off
really good cause not only he was
sucking my dick like a perfect
juicy vacuum but also his ass, fuck! I try to fuck
him for a long time but it was so fucking hot inside that as soon
as I introduced my verga(dick)
in his really beefy and so
fucking juiced up hole there was
little I could do or think to
prevent me from cumin, so I just let it go and
breeded him really fucking good,
then he got off beating off his
nice thick cock and then we
chilled out in the bed of my
hotel room, then he left. The next day which was last
Sunday I flew back home here in
Portland and i rested for a good
while until getting back some
energy and stamina to go fucking
crazy again, but with some local pigs here
before yesterday here in
Portland, crazy stuff, at some
point me and this other 3 guys
fucked each other and I really
mean each other, slings, lots of
mirrors, videos, and really
horny hot men. mmmmmmmmm!!!!, then I went to this bathhouse and had had this tall black guy breeding me, then he left my room and this other guy took me to his room an breeded me too, then I was walking around and find this door open, it was really dark but i felt this really hard dick and stick it in side my hole while laying on my side, it was really curvy and shot a big one inside my hole too, then i left and found this other Italian looking guy to dump his load of cum inside my, then I went to the dark room and this tall guy with a huge cock, balls and hole was just laying there for ever, and went inside and fucked him and started to suck his huge dick and until he said! oh I'm closer and quickly I stick it inside my butt hole so it went all inside and then I left and realized that I pretty much milked everyone in there so I milked this other last guy making me seed my ass with such major load of semen that when i took it out of my hole it was really juicy and i sucked it so good that I shot my load and then I was ready to go home for a shower, food and some rest, mmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!! great celebration time for being so good in Iowa. Now that I feel very much
satisfied I can have the patient
to try to remember what I been
doing lately, it will be too
much to write If I remembered
everything, besides there it
something called priority and
that is what Jesus Christ has
been, is, and will be. Stonewall
in NYC was and still is the
place that represents freedom through the history of
gay people, and for my 30th
birthday I would be great to
celebrate it in there again in NYC for
the 5th time, and please don't
ask me why or about politics for as far
as I see republicans and
democrats as the same fucking thing,
with just different names, they
even married each other like the
governator did, but this is
great to show unity which
creates power. And as I creating
a new song in a music studio
here in Portland lately it seems
like there is a lot of people
including celebrities doing a
lot of money and taking
advantage of good people through
fundraisers, can you imagine that instead of helping you are damaging?, and as far as I see
HIV is the biggest one ever
cause not only the head of this
foundations who wants the most money as possible in their pockets, they could care less about their own souls which is actually what lasts forever, besides,
the virus never really even
existed after all, they are
gonna have to come up with another
fake virus if they haven't by
now yet to scare fagots all over again,
but lots of us know better by now and I'm
taking full power from Jesus by
leaving a legacy that will help
faggets to not be so fucking naive and
greedy, besides is not a secret
that it always takes few decades
at least for certain truth to
come out, and trust me that it
always comes out, some of them
come out fast as one decade like
monoxidal 9 for example. So after being offered the
possibility of being part of
Naked Boys Singing in New York I
felt awful in having to decline
but unfortunately no only them
but all Broadway is involved
with the HIV fraud in a big way
and I'm not that stupid to
destroy or jeopardize my karma and soul
by helping such criminals like
the ones involved with this HIV
fraud fundraising's represents to
me and to this small group of
dissidents that knows what I know as
well, but lately this fraud is
finally really crossing over to
the straight world in a
desperate way of the HIV
machine to make money,
maybe they are not making as
much money with fags already, the point is
that finally now the truth will
start to come out and I won't ever
watch any Broadway show ever
again, blood is on their hands and I will not even see
"The Phantom of the Opera" in
honor of all the fags who died
from this terrible fraud, is not
a secret anymore that the medicine
field is out to make money no
matter what, even that they try to tell us the opposite with stupid TV shows like ER, in real life it has become so
obvious how desperate the
medicine, specially the HIV
field has become lately that is
really repulsive to me and my
dissidents, a sick world is a
weak one, a sick world with money still is an unhappy one, a no
brainer. But the sad fact
remains for there is people out
there still wanting to make
money even if that means
damaging and/or depraving the
consumer's life in the process,
and the latest example is the
fact that my friends and fans
are totally shocked at the
moment in Europe for CODEX and
to see that the media here in
the good all USA is not saying
yet, but wait until the good old
American people finds out about
this, cause they will stop it
and make it right for the whole
world as usual, and if people in
here really knew what the fuck
even CODEX is, unlike the media
from Europe, then they would go so
fucking angry (unlike me), and
the media in Europe is making a
big deal out of it cause this
definitely is worse then the HIV
fraud for it targets every
human being not just gay, now we
will have not choice to live has
healthy and long as we wanted,
at least if you wanna live in a
country that is not part of the
Word Trade Organization, they
say to be people oriented but
they have become totally product
oriented, thank God they will
never control my soul, so
fucking spooky! and in June
2005 is when is set to be effective and
it could be the biggest
infringement on privacy and
personal choice in the human
history, but I have faith in
Jesus Christ that he will
protect his people no matter what, for
in him I only fully trust so I
will not fear, and for more info
about CODEX please visit
www.ahha.org, www.iahf.com,
I won't watch certain movies
because the actor has been or is
involved with some HIV event that is why I
don't watch Will and Grace TV show, but I
saw Wimbledon and I fucking love
it, instant classic for my
brains, it was about favorite
sport and with my still YET
favorite actress in the whole
world Kirstie Dunst who was fucking
awesome in the "Eternal Sunshine
of the Spotless Mind"as well and
the "Spider Man" ones pay her bills I guess.
Just the other day finally I saw
me in the 2nd volume of
"Barebacking with Jeff Palmer" series
and talking about something way
better then just my own fun
memories, cause by now they are very
public memories bringing fun
orgasms all over this world as I'm writing this,
WOW! Fuck! the scene with Flex was totally out of this world, how I'm I ever gonna top that scene? and the answer is in this upcuming 3rd volume, yesssssssssssssssss!, and actually working in
the final part of this new song
that I been creating since last
month already, it should be called "Enjoy", and while I
listen to my previous musical
compilations I',m writing this, it
inspires me to go even farther
and perfectionate myself
musically and i makes me control more
aspects of the process in better
ways with the eternal intention
of being innovating and better
each time, like Serena Williams
who just won the 100th
Australian Open and that means
for me to go back to the public
tennis courts of Portland, OR,
and start watching matches on
TV again, got to keep my promises (read
the previous scoop please), I
knew that if she really wanted
to win, she wins, now I may have to see here at the Miami Open, and in top of
that the fucking sexiest Male
tennis player (after David
Nalbandian) Marat Safin won it
too, is like anything I want
this year will happen, OH fuck WOW!,
and after this first Glam Slam
Serena became really close to
regain her throne, and she is
part of the 4 Americans and 4
Russians women in the top 10 Rankings, and in the man's ran-kings there is 3 from Argentina and 2 from USA. Now I must resume saying what it's been and is on my mind now days, thank you guys for letting me know that you "Enjoy" making you part of my life that admit to be a really fucking strange and weird one, but I'm dedicating it to serve my Idol Jesus Christ in really mysterious ways.
issue # 106
Friday, January 21, 2005
I cannot fucking believe what I have missed, is just that Mathematics was never my favorite subject at school, but all humans have only one year of our lives that is our best year that year for me is this one, why? because is 2005, so 2+0+0+5 = 7, and adding the number of my birthday together gives you a 7, 03+27+1975 = 2005, and to confirm it it will also be my best birthday ever for I'm turning 30 years old.
I started this year in the total opposite way I started last year cause I'm starting this year with full of confidence having filmed on Jan. 15th already actually really, yeah get this, my 7TH bareback film with SX Video, for I consider natural sex to be the best regardless of anything turning my films automatically into classics that will live for generations to come like the current pre-condoms are for us now, is actually the 3rd volume of "Barebacking with JEFF PALMER" series this one is gang fucked 3rd Volume, to be out on March, we started filming that Saturday around 1:30 PM with 4 white other really fucking hot and young too, one of them had the thickest cock I have ever seen on film, I got double fucked, and he seeded my ass really fucking good with the biggest load of sperm ever while the other 3 feeded me with their sperm, yummm! one of those big cocks had such cool tattoo, and after a break the black guys came over and one of them was Flex, mmmm!!! they fucked me the hardest for sure, they went for my ass really fucking good and it was really juicy and hungry still, then I took another break and 3 latin hung guys and 1 Asian with a very unusual big cock and they played with my hole until they breed me really really fucking sweetly and after making sure I did all the races it was easy to just get off and become completely satisfied, the film was done, then the SX Video people took me to the "San Vicente Inn" in LA where they gave a suite to stay in and rewinding a little I'll explain how I got to LA from Portland looking and feeling good, cause after working out a lot, eating a lot, sleeping a lot is what it took for me to be and feel healthy and strong enough for such kind of movie, but now forwarding to around 8:30 PM that i was back at this gay Hotel where everybody is naked and fucking everywhere specially in the rooms, the gay paradise of West Hollywood, and I was still horny for more playing and getting off but eventually i rested and ate, watched TV, talked in the phone and all that, then my fuck buddy Joe picked me up and took me to his apt. which is just around the corner of "Rage" the nightclub I went out days earlier the night of Friday in which I arrived in LA, it was a 18 and over night and they did not make me pay so now is my favorite club to go out on Thursday in LA, so I stayed therefor a while and not even for the water I had to pay, fucking love it, but coming back to the day that Joe pick me up and too me to his apt., we had great diner and a fucking awesome good night sleep and slept with him which felt so fucking good since it was a long time since I slept with someone, of course he seeded me right before going to sleep, the next day I woke up by myself in his bed, for he was at work I was in his place by myself and got to finally watch "The Tennis Channel", and enjoy it so much, I couldn't believe how fucking cool it was actually, almost no commercials, and got to see and hear all of the inspirational people, but the best and only thing that should keep me hooked on it is to no see any AIDS benefit covered by them, if I ever see them being involved with the AIDS=HIV MACHINE in any way then I will stop watching it and my love for tennis will be ruined, and after watching a lot of it I could tell that the or one of the Williams sisters will be bigger then Oprah(most popular female in USA) for they will really go international, but not quite yet for they have lots to learn about MC Donald's.
In the music world once upon the time Michael Jackson used to be the king of Pop making songs with electric guitars and catchy pop songs but not Hip Pop I think, so the king of "pop" in the world for me is Enrique Iglesias for he really makes Pop music and his own father was the king of pop in Europe at one point, and sorry but I'm just not into hip pop, and the kings of Pop before Enrique was the backstreet boys and ABBA at one point and the list goes on and on, but personally I could never be the king of Pop, even that I'm in the process of making some more new music and getting ready to perform live some of it in IOWA next week, and not only as gay but as porn star, it is so fucking exciting and overwhelming such fucking wonderful reward rush for the hard work.
I arrived here in Portland, OR on Wednesday a day after having diner at "Beige" at Falcon in Hollywood, CA, where I was with some friends celebrating the birthday of one of them, it was so much fun and some of them kept on leaving and coming back to the table to take their pictures with some popular TV personalities, so many good looking people, mmmmmm!! and I meet this tall 24 years old Californian hot hot guy who not only spoke only Spanish to me but with the Argentinean accent as well, it was extra hot, Nice cock, nice ass and great kisser the kissing started on the dance floor of "Beige" and kept on going all the way into his bedroom, so we left "Beige" around 12:30 and sleeping with this guy was fucking sweet at the time of going to sleep and in the morning too, mmmmmmmm!! his lips were unreal, so fucking yummy, nice giving ass and giving cock. The next day I went to my good girlfriend Michelle and spent the rest of my time in LA with her, her fiance and dog, it was cool and fascinating, then (2 days ago) my good friend Dwight took me to the airport and I flew here in Portland were today is Friday and I did not want to let more time pass by before giving a little update of what is going on these past days of mine, so excuse me for not mentioning everything but just some parts of this life of mine which intentions have to serve Jesus Christ in very unusual ways, as stupid it may sound to you, but I'm not fucking ashamed! you all.
issue # 105
Friday, January 07, 2005
Few days after celebrating Jesus' Birthday I went back to this bathhouse here in Portland and went fucking crazy with so many horny cocks and juicy buttholes, such fucking hot place with so many horny man wanting to take some sperm out of their cocks, and this time I felt like taking everyone's semen deep inside my fucking beyond hungry so I this time I went there with a buddy and one of the members of my website, he is 26 and 6'5, and yeah! he did fuck me with his fucking huge cock and I fucked him too for his butthole has nothing to envy at such big dick, and he came while I was fucking him, that day I played with almost every man in there and took so much cum inside me, at some point I was in the video room and saw all this guys masturbating seating next to another and no one doing nothing about all those fucking cocks, so I went up there and made my way into this guy who had a beer can dick like pyramid alike, so I just wet on top of him and seated in that fucking yummy cock and introduced inside my hole and riding that cock in top of that hairy man with beard while kissing him in front of all these other man going fucking crazy about it, one of them had some navy or army tattoos and was crazy watching this in particular but the dick i was riding had too much cum to unload and I felt this big huge amount of cum explode deep inside my fucking love hole then this big chunk of cum came out of my butthole as i got up taking that huge cock out of my ass hole and this other army guy got a hold of me right away abruptly and just grabbed me from behind and fuck me like a fucking freak from behind, and after 10 or 12 hard pounding strokes his sperm started to shot deep inside my hole seeding me very hard and pounding me really hard making sure all his seed would go planted really deep inside me, while this was happening i was gave a quick hand job to one of these spectators in that video room, then keep on playing and if they didn't wanna fuck with out condom then I would drink their sperm, but I didn't drank that many loads of sperm that day, most them went right up my butt, and I sure it felt fucking awesome to fuck some other really hungry buttholes too, and ejaculating inside the mouth of one of the guys that fucked me earlier was fucktastic!, but after this long marathon of sex it take me days to recover, I rested and did other things then sex , besides with the Tsunami situation I really didn't want to celebrate any 2005 NYE at all, just home alone here in Portland, OR., and planning to help too. The Australian Open is now celebrating its 100 birthday and Argentina is doing so well in tennis that is already in the final of the Hopman Cup, WOW, so I decided that after that fucking crocked umpire gave shamelessly the match to the opponent of Serena Williams in the last US Open is that I refused to ever watch tennis again, but if she starts the year winning, specially the Australian Open, then fuck it! I'll comeback to watch tennis on TV again, after all there is a channel called The Tennis Channel, plus the TV being so much fucking controlled now days there is nothing to see anymore, so fuck it!, and if another obvious injustice shit happen to her again then she should just walk the fuck out of that fucking match and create the ultimate fucking point, courage is so fucking stimulating, fuck yeahhhh, but not the stupid courage like the one who already have tons of money and steals and even gets away with it, I'm talking about this rich woman named Paris Hilton stealing her own porn DVD from a store with out any kind of shame in a worst way then Winnona Ryder and gets away cause is ultra rich, besides I remember what a fucking pain in the ass was wearing those blue contacts all the fucking time, contacts are so 90s any fucking way, and my sources where I get to learn a good lesson once in a while is from tabloids like "The National Enquirer", is similar to the street learning I have done all of my life, learning through others experiences is such clever technique indeed. Very soon I should film my first movie of 2005 and my life is very very happy now days, working out, tanning, taking care of my website, starting to record new music and more. Adding the numbers of your birthday with each other will give you just one number, my number is 7 so I wrote my first scoop of 2005 today the first 7th day of this year in this side of the world.
Portland Or is very cool, right now in my eyes is better then Hollywood, CA, here we all take care of our city by recycling trash, plastic, paper like NY do, anything you buy anywhere in any store you don't pay taxes, you can park on the street in easy ways, not much traffic, great police, nice gay bathhouses, plenty gay nightclubs, lots of trees, a gay parade, bisexuality, gay nude beaches, super sky resorts, meetings with my "HIV=FRAUD dissident group", lots of Bob Marley people, lots of music recording studios, clean fresh air always, best water in USA, lots of organic choices, nice people in General, I'm a fucking Oregonian Damn it! And thanks Jesus for that and all, and even that he may have reasons for what happened right after this last birthday, may he keep helping the ones alive on that Asian side of this magnificent planet earth of us.
issue # 104
Monday, December 27, 2004
Right after I wrote my last scoop I went back to this local bathhouse here in Portland filled with so many fucking horny men, and one of those night I took one fucking dick after the other, I fucked, got sucked, but for the most part I just got really fucked by all kind of dick sizes, and I sucked many too, it was a Jeff Palmer get u off situation, some of them congratulated me for my movies, it was very intense and really fucking hot!.
For a moment i felt for one of the evil's trick, but now I can see that Jesus is and will always be my boyfriend, still I think it would be so cool to have at least some civil unions here in USA and other freedoms someday, not for nothing Canada is giving a run for USA's money, they are enjoying now days the ultimate democracy system on all planet earth, the freedom there is the closest as it should be in a country, is in my eyes the example of country, maybe some day I'll move there but no now that my old good USA needs help in this war situation, and if entertainment is what I can offer to the table to make this fucking insane life a little more fun then here I'll stay. My goal for next year is to make lots of new songs. Last week I went to the outside of Chicago to celebrate Jesus' birthday by performing live my song "Dreaming" on the stages of this club called "Hunters" and it felt so so so so so fucking awesome to do it in front of over 200 gentleman and ladies, the crowd was really shy, the law in the Midwest can be really intimidating for so many people, but i signed few CD's which I gave away meeting few fans, then enjoyed the rest of the night at my hotel room this guy who had one of the thickest cocks that I have ever seen, fucking unreal, and he wanted to fuck me really bad, so he came over with his old buddy from highschool, they were in late 30's I think, and he couldn't believe that I was taking such fucking thick one, but after pounding on my fucking super love hole for a while he pull it out and ejaculated his sperm all over my face and inside my mouth and it was a lot, so much fucking sperm, also I ate some of his friend as well, he also came a lot, so much cum for me to eat, YUMMMMMMMMMMMM!, after smoking a cigarrette and chilling out we came back for more action, this time I fucked this guy with the monster dick, he looked just like Boris Becker the tennis player and we played he was him, and it was so much fun, his as and legs were so hot and muscular, great juicy butthole as well since it made me cum so fucking fast, it was one of those holes that are hotter then you predicted and make u cum in one fucking second, then I kicked them out of my room in the coolest and nicest way, and well cum them into my memories. Another good thing out of going there was that Chicago's weather made my Portland's weather feel like Palm Springs. When I came back to Portland on Thursday 24th at night I spend the night with these 2 dogs and 1 cat, but on the next morning my roommate came home and we open up lots of presents under this plant that i put lights on and it became a Christmas plant or tree, something like it, it was so fucking cool to get so many presents this year, even the dogs and cat gave me gifts, then we watched movies we rented at the "Hollywood" store, it was "The Manchurian Candidate" and "Saved." Tennis in 2004 belonged to the Argentineans in the men side with 3 Argentineans in the top 10 in the final rankings, 2 Americans, 1 Swiss, 1 Australian, 1 British and 1 Russian. And in the woman's side 2004 belonged to the Russians with 4 in the top 10, 4 Americans, 1 Belgium and 1 French. A good resolution for new year is to finally see Celine at Ceasar palace in Vegas. Read less tabloids! If Serena wins the Australian Open then I'll start playing tennis more often. Mr. Brad Pitt should be less selfish and egomaniac and fucking adopt already, personally I been sponsoring a kid in Africa for years and it feels fucking amazing. Howard Hughes was bisexual but in the new movie of him he is plays straight so I won't see that fucking untruthful movie, sorry Leo! what I would see is "Alexander" mmmm! Jared Kissing Colin, fucking hot! and yeah! I miss what Rodney Dangerfield and Marlon Brando had to say. In 2004 the Corruption in Food and Drug Administration was uncovered, so may this be the beginning of people waking up and stop poisoning themselves, 100 years from now people will laugh so hard at us living now days. 2004 was the year that Jesus Christ became the perfect boyfriend of mine and now I'm living happy ever after.
issue # 103
Saturday, December 11, 2004
In one dream I had lately i was with this guy and we were in love, and i don't even fucking remember who the fuck was it, maybe was someone I already know, he could be alive anywhere in this world. Last night i was not a dream at all, it was real the fact that I got fucked by so many guys, almost all the guys in this bathhouse and 2 of the guys that work there fucked me and seed me real turning my butthole into a unsatisified/hungry and very juicy love hole, I took all kind of sizes, some of them were fucking huge, one of them had the PA, and I just had this big chunk of cum running through my legs from my
butthole, I fucked a lot of guys too, specially the ones with nice juicy holes, but it seemed like I was the only one taking every one's load of sperm and in this kind of situations is when I'm glad to be Jeff Palmer, and sure I don't wear masks or hats anymore, and it feel way better, I'm soooooooooo used to certain guys staring at my like fucking crazy all the fucking time. I'm following all the signs, and I'm getting closer,
so far I'm in the process, I think that I was meant to grow my 20s in USA, where youth is
so important, then my 30's in Europe and/or the rest of the world, and Jeff Palmer is not over, it could mean the beginning of me actually, what limits would I put on my fucking way when fear have no part of me, so far I have to perform my own music live in this gay club called "Hunters" in Illinois, I cannot fucking wait to celebrate Jesus Christ birthday, so the day of the show
is the 23rd of December, very fucking soon! so fucking sweet!, so I came here in LA in the
beginning of this ending week to put all my stuff in boxes and put it on a storage place and now I'm staying here in Beverly Hills with the same guy I came with in LA 8 years ago from Miami, this place looks way better now and his heart still is big and fucking awesome as ever but in few days I'm going to Portland, OR and I'll start to get ready for this musical show which could be the most especial one ever, soon next month I should start filming a gang bang, hopefully my best gang bang ever since there should be the hottest guys there is out there for it, and I think I'll keep my chest hairy for this one, my hair is much darker and just a fucking tiny little bet shorter, and I'm enjoying this Saturday after noon here outside the balcony of this place with the sun and the temperature of 81
degrees, ay ay ay! yeahHH!!!!!!!!!!!!, and I just don't know what else to say other that
my life feels like an adventure again, the American dream in Los Angeles is been more then
fulfilled already I think, I don wanna be an actor as I never wanted anyway, and I became a big pornstar already, so my new dreams are cumin up very soon materialize in actions as they always been for me, Oh God! i cannot fucking wait to perform my own music for my fans live again, I'm so fucking excited about it weirdly cause is gonna be so fucking cold by then in Illinois, shit!, but the joy is way fucking worth, and what a fucking sweet joy was to find out that at the "2004 Bareback Awards" I was the runner up for "Best Versatile Performer" which it means a lot to me for we are living in an era where gay awards come and go, thanks to people and to my ultimate total eternal idol Jesus Christ and happy Birthday to him and no words will ever express how much grateful I feel for such happy, amazing, remarkable, unusual, huge, fantastic, major, phenomemal, great, incredible, super and unique life he is giving to me.
issue # 102
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
I cannot believe I let myself stay and haven't write in here in a long long time, but is just that I been having way too much fun lately, doing what? being gang banged in this hotel room near LAX airport, it started at 8 PM 13 days ago exactly, and I remember the host sticking this huge dildo deep inside of my super ultra cleaned love hole, I was surprised that I took it almost all the way in, then he couldn't take it anymore and put me in doggy style took that dildo out and then he inserted his thick cock and just after just few poundings very deep inside he exploded a major ejaculation of sperm, lubricating this way the walls of my rectum all the way and soon after this other tall blond guy inserted too his very thick as well cock deep inside and he pound me good but soon after he also unloaded another creamy load of semen making my man hole beyond juicy and way too warming, then this black guy inserted his big and thick verga(dick) and fucked me really hard showing the other guys the real way to fuck an ass in public, my other hole which was my mouth was always filled with some another cock at the same time of being fucked, and eventually I had this other black guy with 11 long inches fill me up with few of his loads of cum, my butt hole turned into a mangina at that fucking point, it was way too fucking crazy stretched and juiced up beyond reality, at some point these guys wanted to see me pull out some big chunks of their own sperm out of my fuck hole, sure they appreciated me showing that for them, they seemed to fucking love it, some of them repeated 3 times using both of my holes, there was quite few horny man in there, probably between 12 and 20, some guys where cumin and leaving, using me like a hole where to shot their loads on the way home from work, so all I can say that sure it was really fucking fulfilling, one of them had a PA and he shot so fast inside my hole cause this black guy was fucking him at the same time with this 11 inches cock from behind him, after 2 or 3 hours I sucked dried another big load of cum out of the host of this super juicy party, then I received a wonderful present from him due to the success of such task, oink!, he had to go to sleep and I had to go keep getting some more action at this fucking cool bathhouse in Melrose AV. right in the middle of the funky fashion stores, and there is so many fucking nasty pigs in there to fuck and play with that I always like to take my time in there and get others off a lot and get myself off as fucking well too, I fucked all the glory holes with a juicy and stretched inviting butt holes as I felt and saw, but this guy who was tall and as only taking it up the ass had the most stretched and pussy alike butt hole I have ever fucked making me fuck him that way for the fucking longest fucking time, I was just fucking munching on that fucking hole like it was the last one I would fuck, and he acted like he was born to just fucking take it like a fucking nasty submissive pig that he was. Eventually I made it home showered, ate and rested well while hearing already some people talking online about this new gang bang making me have a real good laugh. Lately I been investigating my possibilities of moving, and I wish I could talk about it but is one of those things that if I talk too much about it then it won't happen, all I know is that all of the sudden I feel my instincts calling me to travel to some place in this world, and every day I feel it more and more at night when I fall at sleep, I feel like time is running out, I already fulfilled most of my dreams in here, now I gonna have to create new ones, and maybe I'm already creating some new ones that is why I feel this way, fuck I feel like I'm fucking talking to a shrimp(therapist), I'm even considering really hard the possibility of getting married to a guy and try monogamy, these years cumin up are making me feel more and more like I must do it, I'm gonna have to be stronger then ever before in order to just follow my instincts, and sorry that I cannot talk about anything else is just that I keep thinking that I'm missing out, so I'm asking publicly to my god Jesus the all mighty to guide me on what to do and give me the power to do it, thanks for such wonderful life which I intent to keep making it as happy as possible, AHAP!.
Issue # 101
Monday, November 08, 2004
Back in Portland again, Seattle was fine, is just that I feel like a fucking oregonian already, missed Portland too fucking much, specially with Multnomah County, besides I just found out that Terry Bean had nothing to do with the terrorizing notes that this guy Jeffrey Smith created, he was just trying to incriminate Terry in it due to envy, besides I realized that Portland is the real next big city, still I enjoyed Seattle a lot, skipped any Halloween celebration for I don't celebrate the dead any fucking longer, and left Seattle's area on the very first day of November on Monday night, this guy picked me up in his truck and took me and my things to Olympia, WA and we had a fucking hot long night of me fucking one of his friends named Rick for a good while, and I remember his butthole being the best one I have fucked in a long long time, fuck!, it was just too fucking inviting and juicy and very stretched, just the perfect mangina for my fucking cock to munch on for ass long ass I wanted, but eventually Rick had to go home sleep to go to work next day, but then this other guy Dave kept rimming my fucking butthole and making me feel so fucking good, then this army 21 year old guy showed up and and he was fucking huge, monster huge fucking hairy legs, and he kept dumping a fucking load of semen after another, he was so fucking hot for my butthole, but after the 3rd one I kind of had to tell him that I need it a break cause my friend already got off while I was sucking on his not not huge nipples like a fucking little baby, sex can be so much fucking fun when is done always in totally different ways, and talking about Miami I have to say that the pictures that BigCockSociety.com have on their planinum members are really really fucking hot, I remember getting sunburn those days from so much tanning, I was looking fine but not good as now, I think, some of them are really classic ones that will live after me, like the book and/or movie someone will make out of what I been writing all this time and certainly I wouldn't wanna take credits for anyone's report of my life, one really fucking unusual for some, but sure is full of happiness cause there is people who still have good intentions out there, and I know I'll be fine here or in another country like many Americans are doing now, one thing for sure is that I have to follow my instincts not matter where they'll take me, sure that whatever I'll do it will be planed first, not surprises intended here. Soon there should be a photoshot in this website of me with hairy chest, from now and on I'll have a hairy body and I have come to be totally decided about it, I love feeling the hair on my chest all the time, fuck yeah!!!!!!!!! a man with hairy body and chest and a mustache or a beard is way more macho then if not, but I'm not ready for a mustache or beard quite yet, I'm looking now days a little different from my latest videos I have done, and this one I did this year called "Nasty Men" nominated me for "Best Versatile Performer" for the"2004 Bareback Awards" at "BarebackJack.com", also this movie got nominations for "Best 3way scene", "Best gang bang scene", "Best insemination scene", and "Best cum play sequence", but ironically the raunchiest fucking movie I have ever done called "Leather Bareback Fuckfest" wasn't nominated for anything. But what it matter the most is that the second volume of "Barebacking with Jeff Palmer" is out on video tapes so far, very very soon it's gonna be out on DVD as well, and I cannot fucking wait to fucking see it cause I put so much into it. I think I'm gonna celebrate my protector's birthday in Chicago, and it makes sense that his birthday is the biggest party every year for the past 2004 years, he is my God, the one with the all might name of Jesus Christ, the king of kings I own my life and what I am. PS. I'm soooooooooo glaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad that Marat Safin just won a fukcing huge tennis tournament yesterday!!!.
issue # 100
Thursday, October 21, 2004
I'M SO BACK! I started this year with a defeated energy, but now here comes Jesus birthday around the corner already and I fucking full recharged and I already filmed 2 movies in this year 2004, created a new song, broadcasted myself live for the first time through my Website, and one of my musical creations called "Deep" is even being played at the gay nightclubs in Amsterdam (Europe). I fell more then ready to keep giving even more to my fans, is what keeps me going and I'm gonna use my looks as long as I can, why grow old with just one person when I can grow fucking old with the whole fucking world. One night my secret agent took me to this bar called "Cuffs" in Seattle and we meet with the person in charge who we already contacted before over the phone and we talked about a possible live musical performance one week before my birthday which is actually the birthday of this club, but I was also thinking in doing a show around Christmas too, I really liked that club to do a live musical show some day. Another day I had this guy that meet me online wanted to meet me in person so in one of his business trip he flew to Seattle and I meet him as a part of this new logo of mine "your fantasies are my desire", and sure it was cause we just fucking made out like teenagers until our cocks exploded with sperm fucking everywhere by just rubbing our bodies and cocks against each other, full naked kissing and just rubbing ourselves all the way to the fucking point of ejaculation that end up all over our stomachs cocks and balls, fucking messy fun really unusual, simple, romantic and fucking sweet, two days after he came back for more, and the morning after that second time I went from his hotel room to "Crypt" which is the leather store in Seattle, WA, and I got a cool jack strap, a glass dildo, some lube, and a 25% employee discount for just being Jeff Palmer, so I took full advantage of being Jeff Palmer right then and I ran to the movie section of that store and selected my movies and I autographed all of them as my way of repaying their fucking sweet kindness, and sure my movies are more then fucking special for I saw the price of one of them and it was $95.00 with out the tax, FUCK!, I got a box of chocolates from them as well, and a well praising for my ultimate watersports scene in "Nasty Men" where I get a golden shower that I seem to enjoy more then expected, yes! Big fucking OINK!, but sorry! I had not fuckin clue it is so fucking yummy!, that day I got the stuff I need it to go to my laptop and connect my webcam and i started broadcasting myself live, it was Thursday, Oct. 15th at 7 PM, and only my members could see me, I had this new black jockstrap on and with my dick out that I keep on stroking and showing it off for this live webcam of mine, and when I started fucking my butthole with this new glass dildo i read someone in the chatroom saying that his dick was harder then the dildo I was fucking myself with, I was playing my own music in the background cause I could also broadcast sounds and voice as well, and got really fucking excited in front of that cam and went on for an hour or so, and before it turned 8 PM I shot my sperm all over myself, took some of my semen and put it inside my butthole showing all this as a close up for the webcam, the guys thanked me, and after tasting some of my own cum I signed off online, took a shower and went to celebrate it at "Eagle" in Seattle, and meet this guy that drove me fucking crazy, northwest have the fucking hottest guys fucking ever, he drove me to his place and we went for it, once we got off then he took me back to were I could go back home cause the day after I had to fly to LA, CA and once here in LA I made some phone calls, ate and went to sleep ,the next day I took a shower and this fuck buddy of mine Tom picked me up at my place in Hollywood and drove us to Palm Springs for a crazy fucking weekend, and we stayed a the "Camp Palm Springs" and we took full advantage of the big list of bareback videos to watch, and that little darkroom in the bottom floor, fuck! talking about lots of gay bikers, so fucking hot!, we arrived sometime in the after noon and I had guy after guy shooting his load inside my hole thick or thin, with prince Albert dicks or not, also i would go fucking hard Tom's hole that was also being fucked by some of the guys that fucked me, the time kept passing by but we kept on bringing guys into our room, walking around and going to the dark room downstairs where this guys was offering his hole to anyone there and of course it was filled with who knows how many stranger's sperm, so I just couldn't resist sticking my cock in there as well as who knows how many other man, he hole sure felt beyond lubricated just like mine, but i held my cum and I had this young and so so young guys unload inside my hole, they all knew who I was and sure I couldn't care less that in the TV monitor of that darkroom they where showing on of my Falcon movies, I just went for almost every guy in there, at some point I had this guy that was the hottest guy I have ever seen in my whole fucking love fucking me from behind in the bed of my room, until he unload it really big filling me up so fucking good, it was so fucking unreal and fucking dreamy, so many fucking dicks to suck, so many man that day and night!, and I remember fucking some really amazing holes through all that adventure, guys who were beyond pigs had this buttholes fucked by my unsatisfying cock, just did not fill them up cause my sperm was already reserved for my fuckbuddy Tom who at some point after taking a break and eating light with me is when I tied him up to the bed and massaged his prostate from the inside with my fist deep inside his over fucked hole, while I stroked his dick, then I untied him and fucked him until I came for the second time, after that his hole was gone, my dick very tired and we took a shower we ate and sleep, we relaxed the rest of Sunday and Monday, we watched this movie that one of the characters (not Mr. Gere) is the typical closet gay guy trying hard to look straight
making it very beliebable cause it shows it just how this current times are, and everybody
end up fucking happy at the end, no fucking sad ends 4 me, fuck no!, the movie is "Shall
we dance" with Jlo. On Tuesday we drove back to LA, and it was too fucking rainy to go to
"Beige" that night. Today Thursday I may go out to dance with the tweenkies at "Tiger Heat" here in Hollywood, CA. Since this year I will not celebrate Halloween anymore for is
the day of the dead, and I'm way into the alive ones, so fuckin Halloween that is just like what Casinos are, they prey on people's money, really I cannot fucking stand Casinos in any other places other then Las Vegas. One thing I can stand for sure is going back to Portland for 1 or 2 days, just to go watch in the "Gay and lesbian Film Festival" a movie that I already seen in my first dissident meeting ever back 2 weeks ago with other dissidents such as Dan, Paul, Bill, Bob, and Sage, fuck yeah! a girl!, Sage used to work in some AIDS clinic as a nurse until the day that she couldn't take it anymore, she told us that at the end of her time in there she wanted to tell all the guys that came for that fucking stupid HIV test to run out and not to do it, she wanted to tell them the truth that she was not allowed, that is how she became an angel, I mean a dissident, that first meeting was very revitalizing so I cannot wait to be in Portland on Saturday 30th which is the day they show this spectacular documentary with my total hero "NOBEL prize winner Kary B. Mullis" he gets to talk a lot in it and he looks like an angel to me in there, such fucking fascinating male human. Tomorrow Friday I should fly to Seattle and stay there for a good while cause in 2 or 3 days I'm broadcasting myself live through my website again sharing some nasty personal moments live with all of my man out there making life a little more exciting and keeping myself always protected under my idol Jesus Christ's endless power.
issue # 99
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
I had enough of Portland and these fucking insane people living there such as Terry Bean, Jeffrey A. Smith and Sean Paris, way too fucking spooky for me, so now I live in a town near by Seattle, Washington, is just that I fucking fell in love with the Northwest and their people who happens to be a little more unusual then the rest, but It seems like that there is more good then bad to it, which makes it ultimately fucking exciting!. Last time I wrote in this journal of mine was when I asked Jesus to tell me who the fuck was fucking terrorizing me with some fucking paper notes all over that fucking freaky house where I was living in Portland, and right after asking him he show me all the signs and it turned out to be the guy that I was living with Jeffrey A. Smith himself turnout to be the freak himself and with the help of Sean Paris they pretended to be the crazy fan behind those nasty notes concerning my bareback lifestyle, and is obvious to me that one of the reasons for them to do what they did is because they poison themselves with HIV medication and their chick bones of their faces are starting to go away, they have bellies and practically they are some of the many walking posters ads for poisoning medicine, so then, here I come with out realizing how bitter I made them, and they kept insinuating Mr. Terry Bean as the one who contracted them, at the same time they got a check for around $10.000 to do this job, the job of terrorizing me, little he knew that these 2 guys were not that good at all and they let out lots of information pointing to this man Mr. Terry Bean who happens to be an ultra republican and makes me wanna move to Italy if Bush buys the presidency again like it seems, they should have never under estimated the protection I carry with me cause I happen to have the ultimate protection ever which is Jesus Christ. and Mr. Bean. The day after finding out I flew to Los Angeles and denounced on the front page of my website, that Tuesday night I went to "Beige" with the guy who brought me from Miami in 1996, he is an ex lover of mine, but that pla
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